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Artist: TV on the Radio Song: Wolf Like Me [Embed For Use By Upgraded+] Prompt via "30-Day Blogging Challenge ON HIATUS" : There are 45 days remaining in the year. What do you want to do or accomplish before 2019 is over? Sorry I haven't really been around in the blogs for a couple days. I have a lot of work to catch up on now that my exams are over, but I keep getting migraines at night which is making it super difficult to look at the computer screen at the end of the day. I can't read walls of text right now and I certainly can't write them, so here's a quick breakdown of what I want to do with the rest of 2019. Graduate You already knew that, I won't belabor it. Find a job(?) Question mark here because I'd be cool with finding a job right now, but I'm also more than okay with waiting until the new year when companies have a fresh annual budget to work with and don't have the holidays looming overhead. It's not the best time of year to join a company. Sort meds/therapy I'd like to get my meds balanced. I've been taking benzos a lot to try to quell my anxiety. I should really be taking a daily med at this point because obviously addiction is an issue for me and it has been months of this, so I dunno that stopping now will go over super well. I'd also like to get into therapy, but you guys have nooo idea how difficult this is to do without health insurance. I contacted several different offices and even individual therapists last week because I was losing my mind a bit (a lot) and thought I'd have to go inpatient. Would you believe, like, 90% of them never contacted me back? The couple that did contact me back wanted $150-200 per 45 minute appointment and won't take any less for self-pay/cash payment. So, that's awesome. One of them also requires weekly appointments for all patients in the beginning. Fun math time... $200 * 4 = $800 a month For 45 * 4 = 180 / 60 = 3 hours of a therapist's time a month. Avoid holiday stress I stress out every year at this time because it involves a lot of family parties and stuff like that. I'm vowing to stay away from it this year. I'm going to still go because I want to see my nieces, but I'm not going to get worked up over it. I've already been invited to family stuff around the holidays and I'm like, nope, no thanks. Probably not a big deal to other people, but my family is very heavy-handed with guilt tripping and will talk mad shit about you if you don't do what they want, so, proud of myself on that one. Finish 30DBC Over halfway through the month, gotta finish now, right? |