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 |    Online journal capturing the moment and the memory of moments. A meadow meditation. |
   L'aura del campo 'é a lua, é a lua, na quintana dos mortos' ♣ Federico García Lorca ♣  L'aura del campo. A breeze in the meadow. So it began the last day of Spring, 2005; on the 16th day of the month of Light of the year 162. This is a supplement to my daily journal written to a friend, my muse; notes I do not share. Here I will share what the breeze has whispered to me. PLEASE LEAVE COMMENTS! I L  V COMMENTS!On a practical note, in answer to your questions: IN MEMORIUM VerySara  passed away November 12, 2005 Please visit her port to read her poems and her writings. More suggested links:  These pictures rotate.   Kåre  Enga~ until everything was rainbow, rainbow, rainbow! And I let the fish go. ~ Elizabeth Bishop, The Fish |
| Write about ... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ... ME? Nope. 30DBC: We write, we’re all writers. What subject would you like to write about, but haven’t yet. Genre? Type of character? Location? What? Tell me why. Hard question! I've written so many things in so many ways. I do have a 5,000 page journal and over 3,000 blog posts (some now archived). I could become serious about writing a quasi-memoir. Just pick out the highlights and discard the rest. My period of homelessness could make a good read for some, as could my traveling. Writing about ME in an objective way though is brutally hard. Working around the traumas has been tricky. Revisiting them could be troublesome. Plus, once written, would I really want to share it? I'm a deeply sensitive person and opening wounds isn't a wonderful "fun" option. I'd rather forget and leave the scars and scabs alone. Of course, I could just finish some other projects... like my "novels"... A real mystery or sci-fi might be fun. I'm not into historical novels or biographies so that might be a good stretch; but, I'd rather focus on what I've been doing for years to hone my craft: poetry and short prose. |
| Packing but ... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ... not everything 30DBC: You are going on a long trip. I know you’ll take toiletries and clothes. What else has to go with you? Give me a list of 3 things you must take with you and explain why these are necessary.  Electronics and their batteries and cords and... these are necessary but a royal pain. Camera, computer, phone. I need to be able to make reservations, send messages and keep in touch. My journal is a necessity, as is an extra notebook. I keep addresses and numbers in them as well. Hard paper copies of anything like reservations. I'm a writer and a jotter. I feel naked without paper and pen. Spare glasses, shoe laces, belt, sheets, pens, pillow-case. Yes, one can buy most everything elsewhere but better to have it packed. I hate shopping. I have a list, even for clothes (how many socks, shirts, black underwear). I only pack a backpack and a roller bag, both are carry-on. If it doesn't fit, it doesn't go. Doesn't matter whether it's two weeks or two months. If I need to deal with a change of weather it can get dicey, but I don't dare over-pack. If I have local money left over from a former trip I take that as well. It means I don't have to go looking for an ATM at the airport. Instead of a song about leaving, a song about staying: I've actually been to Liverpool! |
| Meeting ... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ... A Star 30DBC: Which 'semi-famous' Hollywood star would you like to meet? Funny... because my first response would've been Matt Damon! And that answer is not allowed. So... many questions about writing "Good Will Hunting", about family and friendship, about becoming the part. And Agnes Morehead and Margaret Hamilton are both dead... I don't watch movies much. Maybe the cast of "Black Panther'... in Wakanda. But that would be due to the wonderful characters. And STARS are not characters, they're people. And as for influential people, I'd like to meet the presidential candidates and those that represent my state. Maybe a leader of a foreign country or two. Can anyone arrange lunch with King Harold of Norway? So... Meryl Streep and Judi Dench are too famous to be considered "Semi-famous". Haley Joel Osment would be interesting. His "I see dead people" is iconic. Plus, he reminds me of a very good friend, similar face, same age, same interest in golf. Wouldn't surprise me if they knew people in common. Plus, both are living in NYC, a place I've never been. Trailer from "Sixth Sense": |
| I'd buy ... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ...a heart 30DBC: In this scenario, money is no object, so you can buy anything you want. Only thing is, you can’t buy this for yourself. What will you buy, and who will you buy it for? Be creative here! I buy a heart. For whom? There are so many people who need one, but Our Dear Leader is first in line (as always). He desperately needs one before he kills us all. Whether by starting a World War to up his ratings or take the tarnish off his brand... Don't applaud me for altruism. I'm selfish. He's killing me by inches. Every day for years, even before we called him Our Dear Leader, he's been mocking our existence. Those of us who don't quite make the grade: not pure-blood enough, wrong face, wrong hair; lying about our criminality (lock us up); lazy (not rich enough); too intelligent to believe his lies; too self-respectful to lick his feet. He needs a heart! I'm tired of reading the news every day to see how he has threatened me and my friends. I'm tired of his supporters who praise the economy because they can afford health insurance, a place to live or education and they don't believe the stock-market or real-estate bubble applies to them. I'm tired of how he feeds his Side-Kick and his devoted followers with offerings of making this country the Land of the Pure. I'm tired of his believers who truly believe that He Has Been Sent By God and belittle my mere existence. Unless one believes that everything is best settled by violence, please join me in giving Our Dear Leader a heart. |
I will ... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ... survive I reread some of my more "private angry blog" entries but not much in there the last couple years, although maybe years ago... "Hoarfrosts from Hell"  I've started to post there again because I'll need to set up a new blog that doesn't have any crying, shouting or other unpleasant entries in it and that's where I can dump. I can always link of course... or not. I haven't written about what upset me in May and probably won't. But in reading back I seem to be stuck in cycles of depression and anxiety so what I'm dealing with now is nothing new. I survive. I really do. An odd, very odd, video: And yesterday's flash fiction that reminded Arakun of “Rappaccini’s Daughter”, although I'm not quite sure why. I don't think I've read that work by Nathaniel Hawthorne (1844). Now I should.
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| Tired ... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ... Tripping So... is the journey as important as the destination? Do I ever pay attention along the way? Yes. I remember landing in Lisbon in April 2015 after an eight hour flight from Dubai. I was a walking zombie. But: 1. The steward was interesting. A Moroccan who spoke at least five languages. 2. I took pictures of the arm of the Red Sea where Jordan, Egypt and Israel meet. 3. I went into automatic at the airport. I needed to find the metro. 4. I'd been in Lisbon before so I understood I needed a Viva Viagem card to enter. I also knew I needed to take the red line to São Sebastião and change to blue for Restauradores where I could take the Ascensor da Glória up the hillside. 5. My hostel was to the right at the top. The women at the desk, Aurelie, had also been there the previous time I had visited. I was exhausted. But... the journey was worth it. And next time I'm in Lisbon I'll probably remember as well. I've been in Gardemoen (Oslo) so many times... it's automatic. I've been known to take photos inside the plane, outside the window, from above (Faeroe Islands! and coast of Greenland! and sunset over Guangzhou!). Airports? Singapore was beautiful. Seoul was beautiful. Train stations? São Bento in Porto is beautiful. Of course there's ugly and inconvenient too, but no great need to mention them here. It might dissuade someone from traveling... and I wouldn't want that! Tired isn't fun but sick is worse. Been there as well. Vomiting somewhere over Honduras. Sitting with my back to the toilet on the train in Estonia. Good times. I guess the answer is being "present" at all times. No matter how you feel. |
| Summer ... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ... Father Give us a taste of summer – either through a recipe, or a memory or story that expresses summer to you. (BC) Summer was dirt. Working in the garden. Hoping the tomatoes would bloom and set. It was a time of reading and getting no sleep due to mosquitoes. We never had air conditioning. I don't remember a fan. Summer was lonely. I hated school but at least I wasn't alone. Two summers I took classes: Art and Spanish. I could repeat my story about the color gleen when I was fourteen... but I'll pass. That summer "Sweet Pea" was playing (Tommy Roe). Father’s Day! What is your favorite memory of your dad? (BCoFs) I remember the radio playing this song of G. F. Handel as my father read the morning paper in the old overstuffed dentist's chair by the front door. The sun was streaming in. I was 3. I would like to have it played at my funeral. Ombra mai fù di vegetabile, cara ed amabile, soave più. |
| Rosy BBQ ... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ... With Books The barbecue is almost over! How do you entice your guests to leave without basically kicking them out? (30DBC) Sometimes I don't! One party in the garden went until 1 a.m. Cleaning up can kinda work... folks usually helped. Never had much of a problem with people leaving... However, had an indoor gathering (1985?) as a blizzard moved in. Some friends were stranded for a couple days. It was fun! Summer reading time! What books do you plan to read this summer? (BCoFs) I have a huge stack of second-hand books. Twelve dime novels too! I need to finish reading about flash fiction and a sci-fi-fantasy novel before I tackle the others. Prompt: How would you see the world through rose-colored glasses? (BC) I have no problems seeing much of the good nor seeing a promising future. But, it angers me that folks WANT Dystopia. Write about it? Sure... as a warning, but even then humanity would survive much as we know it even after civilizations tumble... as they have many times throughout history. The belief system of the Bahá'í Faith is optimistic and not apocalyptic. We can choose to make this Earth a great place to live. We will survive. |
| Call me ... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ... Eeyore "Thanks for noticin' me." A famous quote from Eeyore himself. I need connections but hide behind walls. Thick walls. Gloomy walls. Not in your part of town, or country, or world. This is what I responded to a blog entry by Charlie: "Two years in a homeless shelter... wonder why I don't trust people? Hint: it wasn't the homeless shelter or the homeless people; it was the people who were part of my life before that. I left. I burnt bridges. I ended up homeless. Even now I feel disconnected. It's been a bad month. Even doing my blog is treacherous because I can't write to many of the prompts without triggering traumas. My struggles are mine and mine only; but, I've learned that there are people who have similar issues and sometimes... only sometimes... some... only some... understand. So I keep my walls thick and high and I seldom let anyone in." I have shared similar thoughts before. My anxiety went though the roof after 2003. Homelessness made it worse. This May? My old traumas were triggered by an event that most 'sane" folks would've handled okay. I didn't. Blogging and writing are ways in which I can keep myself from going bonkers... but the blog-prompts didn't help. I'm different. My life is different. And each attempt to try to explain fell flat. It usually does. How to explain to someone who's never fazed what it's like to be totally broken. They can barely understand what they've never experienced. So once the anxiety passes the self-doubts and depression sink in. I've barely left my room this last month. Yes, I look mostly fine to folks who don't know me. I'm not. But, once again, when my friends notice I'm sad and say "Be Happy!" I just feel invalidated. If my friends can't handle me when I'm down they sure as hell don't want to know why. So walls. They protect... and they kill me while I try to hide and breathe behind them. 102.596 |
| Music ...¯\_(ツ)_/¯... and games 30DBC: What are some of the outdoor games/activities that'll be happening at your summer barbecue? One year I had a couple musicians play live music at my barbecue. I enticed my co-workers, neighbors, friends, anyone I could. Even managed to have a future mayor stop by. We were everywhere. My poor neighbors... There were over 100 guests. Another year I had a friend dj music from the balcony. He had lots of fun and that worked well too. Music works. But I don't think I'd have music again and if I invited a large crowd I'd be better prepared for it. When I had smaller parties years before, inside, on Wednesdays, we played simple games that brought people together. Like spoons or Uno. Any activity that keeps people from yawning, that gets people who don't know each other talking. I was living between worlds for decades. Now I live in a landscape that doesn't speak to me in a culture that I don't always understand. Yes, I feel safe here between mountains, but there's no one to invite to a place I don't have and I no longer have the energy nor money to expend. Plus, I travel too much and I only meet people here face-to-face when I venture out. That hasn't been often these last two months. So, no. I won't plan a barbecue this summer. We will play no games. I'm not up for it. Peace, Kåre 11.juni.2019 Yesterday's flash:
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