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I curse and drink with the best of them. I'm blunt and honest and if you think that might offend you, too bad; don't read my entry. ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** For those of you who are brave enough to continue: Thanks for stopping! Molly Jean   |
My body hates me. Two days of running made getting out of bed this morning complete punishment. Mom dropped a bowl this morning, I jumped out of bed to check on her then hobbled to the kitchen. Thank God she wasn't injured again, she would have bled out by the time I got all my muscles to stop screaming and cooperate. She was fine the rest of the day, really enjoyed having a reason to stay home. Had a smokin' hot Dr. put the staples in her head, kinda made both our days.  My brother's friend Pat came over last night and we played some guitar together. He confirmed what I already knew, my guitar is not of the best quality, but good for learning. I think I've graduated from learning to actually playing, so I'm in the market for a better one. Rumor has it my dad has one for me when he comes back from Florida. Hopefully it's a nice one, it has to be better than what I have already. Rolla date tonight. Making him dinner and then I don't know. I like cooking, even if it's not for him so I'm good with these nights in. Thinking lasagna...maybe. Danny's science fair is today so I'm going to stop by and try not to be the embarrassing aunt that I am. It'll be hard, but hey...I try to go all out for the kids. I hate having a sedentary job, my body is going to hate me even more after sitting here adding new hires and updating the email databases... |
| Much excitement for the day. I was planning on getting up early and going for a jog around the neighborhood. Just a quick one mile jaunt, but not at 7am. My mom woke me up this morning in tears because she had stood up after picking something up that fell out of the refrigerator and smacked her head on the counter top, drawing blood instantly. Nothing will quite wake you out of a cold sleep than hearing your mother in tears and pain. I took her to the ER and they put 4 staples in her head. After the initial shock of it all she had calmed down and we could joke a bit, but it was a nasty gash, and I'm glad I was here. Came home and did some work then ran a mile on the treadmill again because it was way too hot out. Also did 100 crunches and 50 squats and some kettle bell raises for my upper body. I forgot how fucking hard it is to weight train. I can walk all day at a pretty good clip and as long as you keep me fed and hydrated I won't get tired. Tell me I have to lift something 50 times and I will want to punch you in the face when I'm done. Went shopping with Lori last night. I'm on some Quixotic search for the perfect sandals. They have to be just so, perfect, so amazing that I will never want to buy another pair of sandals again! I can't find them, surprising? No. Went to three stores, Lori bought something everywhere, I bought a new shirt and a kettle bell. And even then couldn't make up my mind. I stood in front of her in the aisle raising each one for consideration, "Look cute, nice butt, look cute, nice butt..." Oh and capped off the night with frozen yogurt. So actually it was a pretty perfect excursion, just didn't find what I wanted. I'll have to resort to the internet, which I hate doing... |
| I've never been a coffee drinker. The caffeine has always made me jumpy and irritable. When my step father was so sick and on his decline it was what my mother did as a comfort. We had pots of coffee going constantly with all the people coming to the house, and that's when I picked it up. I wish I never did because I can't get away from it now. Woke up feeling disgusting, I'm back to two showers a day, possibly more if I do anything athletic which I kind of plan on doing today. I'm still fighting what ever it is that's attacking my immune system so I'm not sure how well I'll do but that is the plan. The sick part of my wants to take after my dog and sleep it off. She's been soundly out next to the bed all morning and it's nearing on noon. Adding new hires to the new email server today. Can't wait for that to be up, it'll mean we won't have random email outtages and I won't get frantic calls from the Director of Operations when he can't get a hold of my boss. Probably going to mow today. Mom likes it when she doesn't have to do it, and I like annoying the neighbors with my singing. Ran a mile on the treadmill, surprised myself. Treadmill running and running on pavement are two different things though, going to try and convince Lori to start riding a bike at the park while I jog next to her. |
| Spring has fizzled straight into summer. I know I say it every year about mid January "I can't wait to just sit and sweat." And then I regret it when Ohio goes all ADD on us and changes it's mind about how long spring should last and pile drives us straight into 80+ degree days. We ended up having an impromptu cookout yesterday. My sister in law's birthday was today but the festivities from Saturday night were rather...over zealous so they didn't feel like coming over. However, you can always count on my brother's five kids to entertain and be hungry. My cousin also came down from Marion with our newly repaired tiller so Mom and I put the garden in. On a whim I texted Rolla to see what he and Conner were up to and to my surprise they showed up. Don't ask me why, but I'm always waiting for that man to drop a bomb on me and for it all to be over in the time it takes the shock wave to knock me over. Residual BS left over from my previous relationship I'm sure. We all had a great time though, and it was nice to see him interacting with my family and his little boy dealing with the immediate crush my niece had on him. My dog smells so much better, she was publicly humiliated by the bath I gave her outside in front of our two neighbors and God; but it perked her up from the heat and she was ornery for the rest of the day. She's not an athletic dog, more of a dork. In fact, she does have her own Twitter feed for those of you that understand that stuff. I don't, so I made a silly one: @mydorkyblacklab. Feel free to follow. I got up today ready to Moto-commute to the office, and as I'm getting out my gear the sky opens up with the 5% chance of rain they were predicting. It was apparently localized over the house because once I did get in my truck and fill up at fucking $3.89/gallon like I was trying to avoid, the roads were clear, dry and the clouds disappeared. Thus the story of my life continues. We are getting ready to switch email servers at work so I had to deal with making sure all the email addresses are stored correctly in the new server and then it crashed. Oh the joys of technology. Learning two new Miranda Lambert songs on my gui-tar, Down and Airstream Song. Watched Guilt Trip with my sis in law Cyndi tonight for her birthday. It was awesome, "Now drink the fucking water before you keel over from dehydration." |
| So, I've had a fairly alcoholic week(end). I'm exhausted. Between the concert Thursday, where Lori and I delivered a drunken shit show, and last night at my sis in law's bday, I'm ready to make camp on the wagon. The walk went great. Lori was really worried about it being some amazing feat of athleticism, it was like shopping with your grandmother at the mall. The only sweat I broke was from the mugginess of the air in downtown and I felt I could have walked another 3 5Ks after. I plan on jogging it next year, we'll see. There is a Zombie run in October that JennPennTay and Leslie are planning on doing. I figure I can be in shape for a 5K zombie run by October. My room/house is a disaster area. I messed with my BC before we went to Colorado so I wouldn't have to worry about having a period while I was on vacation and it has me a wreck. I'm better now but coming back I was an emotional basket case. I cried all day, I haven't unpacked, I haven't done laundry; I'm surviving on clothes I never wear anymore just because I don't feel the desire to do anything that will better the situation at this point. Today may be the day though, because it's starting to really bother me that I can't wear what I want to. Today's Agenda: Bathe barn yard smelling dog Plant flowers and garden Practice more guitar Laundry Bed shopping |
It's early, I slept like a fussy baby. I think my scotch drinking binge has compromised my immune system. My throat is scratchy, I'm hacking a lung, and I have a benefit walk today. It's only a 5K, I can walk that in my sleep. To my friend Lori, it's a huge mile stone in her quest to start losing weight and to be in better shape. A year ago there would have been laughter and possibly snorting at the idea of walking close to 3 miles for her. This year has been about self improvement and change. I'm proud of her. My normal gait is quite hurried, I want to get where I'm going with as little fuss as possible. Today will be about patience and restraint for me. What else is new though, huh?  Took the nephew fishing last night. He's baiting his own hook and taking the fish off himself. There are moments when I remember being in the hospital and holding him when he was only days old, and I look at him now. He's a handsome boy. Weird hair and a silly sense of humor but all in all just a good kid. I love him like he's my own. I should probably get out of bed, down some Echinacea and do something with my hair. There will be pictures today and lord knows I'm not photogenic when I've had a good nights sleep. I'm going to bed at 7 tonight. Yeah, well, it's a possibility. |
| At some point last night the single malts and the beers became too much and have left me in a state of hungover for today. I didn't used to drink to that point, mainly because I hate hangovers. Constantly dreading the repercussions of my actions. Pretty much how I live everyday, and all my actions, so it's not just a drinking rule. The band was great, we were a drunken shit show and I have the pictures to prove it. The best part was catching up with Jen and finding out we're all still the same crazy girls we were 16 years ago. Camping trips were planned, white water rafting excursions in the works, and charter fishing on Lake Erie. Seriously a great night and some great friends, new and old. Now, I need to tend to this hangover, either some hair of the dog, or mass amounts of water and carbs. Since I do need to meet my boss today I'm thinking it's going to be the water and carb route. "Where is human nature so weak as in the bookstore?" - Henry Ward Beecher ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only **
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| Not all it's cracked up to be. I hate where I'm living. Love my new job though. Love Gander Mountain. The people are great and while you will have difficult customers from time to time, I really like the customers! Money is tight, tighter than when I was with Gary, but I can still pay the bills. This getting paid every 2 weeks sucks, but I'm making it. I'm too thin, too stressed and a down a lot of days but I think it's just a phase. We'll see. Our disillusion will be final next month. We're talking. He's changed, changed for the better though, but there were some rather heinous things done that I just can't over look. I wish I could, I still love him with everything I have. Alright, well, I kinda feel like writing today and I haven't felt that way in a long time. I'm off peeps! have a good one. |
| So things progressively got worse until I left. Spent a week at my aunts then came home when he begged and pleaded, then left again a week later when he realized I wasn't ready to be home. Spent 2 weeks at my friend Deb's. It was the best 2 weeks I've had in a long time. Started job hunting, hoping something pans out. Kym and I are talking about starting a photography business together. She's really talented and I know how to run an office so we'll be alright. Gotta figure it all out though. Planning 2 car shows, one for Lenny's bar the other for Advanced Auto here in Pataskala. Thinking this might be my in. Also thinking of tacking party planning on to the photography side of everything. For my bachelorette party Kym came over and took sexy pics of all the girls. Everyone had a blast, they all loved the pictures and we learned a lot. So why not make it a party package? Worth a shot. I've gotta hit the shower, got to meet with the car wash at 11 and pick up donations. take care all! |
| Yeah, two months of bullshit. We've been really busy. At this point Gary is bound and determined to make money so we're taking on everything that we can. He's restoring a 69 Camaro for a guy he went to high school with. So we've spent all of our time working either at home or at the shop. And yes I'm working even as I write this. Things haven't been perfect. But then again if they were I'd be suspicious. So here I am on the bed surrounded by bills that we don't have money to pay. Gary and I fought Saturday, I told him it was time to give up and get a job. He took that as a huge blow to his ego and has been pouting ever since. But you know what? It's not just the money and the business. It's everything. We're 10 years into a relationship and while I know things aren't going to be peaches and cream every day, ever since we got married things have been progressively getting worse. That's about all I have in me right now. I'm going to finish paying what I can and get out of the house for a while and telecommute from the park or something. |
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