A terminal for all blogs coming in or going out. A view into my life. |
Started July 1st 2019 for contests, etc. as other blogs are filling up and have other purposes. I'm starting a new blog because
I'll be linking to
I've started an appendix (I no longer have one personally) to keep track of my Space Cadet journals for Space Blog. It's a work constantly under construction. Mind the mess.
I needed to start a folder for contests as there are so many deadlines and details to remember.
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Groan (exercise) = Exor. (observations) = obsv. (s***,shave,shower) = ss&s. (read something) = read. (comment blogs/newsfeed/notebook) = bogs. (BoyLove series on-line) = ytBL. (Thai TV BL series on GMMTV25) = tv25. (write poetry or prose) = PorP. (take a daily walk) = walk. (buy something) = shop. (take a photo) = foto. (video) = วิดีโอ. (speak Thai/Lao) = pôod. (learn Thai) Thai. (go-into-the-water) = pool. (dirty clothes) = wash. (cook something) = cook. (tidy up) = mess. (travel) = trip. (noon) = เที่ยง. (talking to ex-pats/travelers/strangers in European) = chat. (Thai teaching book) = book. (hand written journal) = jour. (contests) = test. (water) = agua. (market) = ตลาด. (WdC weekly goals challenge) = week. ฟอรั่ม (forums) = QotD, Xin8,X40w,Hook,P-Me,BcoF,Bar,SH,Stik. (National Blog Post Month) NBPM. (scrub toes) = toes; (clean and unclutter) = neat; (Senior Center) = SCTR; 03 mars. 3.มีนาคม Going home? Went to bank. Put money on phone. No bed so I took the night train home. Met young woman from Chaiyaphum. 02 mars. 2 มีนาคม Taipei - Bangkok Up at 8-ish. Coffee. Cold damp morning. Trip. Red line to Purple line to airport. Bought some food and some gifts. Immigration did not go smooth. Chat. Adelie from Paris. 01 mars. Baha'i Fast begins Taipei It's cold and rainy and I haven't done anything yet today. It's after noon. Chat. With Scott and a guy from France. Walk. to get some food. Trip. checked in. Seat 44C. Packed. Foto. 29 februar. Ayyam-i-Ha Tainan to Taipei ss&s. I'll shave the beard off in Thailand. Trip. Coastal train to Taipei. Corner Hostel and Cafe is on the Red line. Walk. to get some food. Blueberry and cream cheese, chips, egg, papaya milk. 28 februar. Ayyam-i-Ha Tainan Walk. Wandered around. Foto. Chat. Rio from Kyoto (who is too cute) did get to the Lantern Fest; nice chat with Joyce. Michael. Trip. Taipei and Bangkok hostels. I will go back to Udon Thani on 3rd or 4th. Gift. Found some Micky Mouse masks for Pan. 27 februar. Ayyam-i-Ha Tainan Walk. Lantern festival with Elif and Miguel. Koxinga etc. with Miguel. Foto. Plenty, video too. 26 februar. Ayyam-i-Ha Tainan Wash. NT$ 10 for a load. It's air-drying on the roof. Eating duck rice and a banana. Posted in Blogville, my own forum. |
Groan (exercise) = Exor. (observations) = obsv. (s***,shave,shower) = ss&s. (read something) = read. (comment blogs/newsfeed/notebook) = bogs. (BoyLove series on-line) = ytBL. (Thai TV BL series on GMMTV25) = tv25. (write poetry or prose) = PorP. (take a daily walk) = walk. (buy something) = shop. (take a photo) = foto. (video) = วิดีโอ. (speak Thai/Lao) = pôod. (learn Thai) Thai. (go-into-the-water) = pool. (dirty clothes) = wash. (cook something) = cook. (tidy up) = mess. (travel) = trip. (noon) = เที่ยง. (talking to ex-pats/travelers/strangers in European) = chat. (Thai teaching book) = book. (hand written journal) = jour. (contests) = test. (water) = agua. (market) = ตลาด. (WdC weekly goals challenge) = week. ฟอรั่ม (forums) = QotD, Xin8,X40w,Hook,P-Me,BcoF,Bar,SH,Stik. (National Blog Post Month) NBPM. (scrub toes) = toes; (clean and unclutter) = neat; (Senior Center) = SCTR; 25 februar. Bogs. Annipon/Grace/Stik/Petra Chat. Miquel Angel/Joyce ฟอรั่ม. Remembered that Blogville is a forum. I basically did nothing. https://geediting.com/if-you-cant-remember-the-last-time-you-felt-truly-happy-sa... 1. Perfection. 2. You're a prisoner of comparison. 3. You're neglecting self-compassion. 4. You're stuck in the past or future. 5. You're neglecting your needs. 6. You're avoiding discomfort. 7. You're holding onto grudges. 8. You're not nurturing your relationships. 9. You're not living in alignment with your values. 24 februar. National Lantern Festival, Glorious Tainan Walk. Breakfast desert... went to 7/11. Walk. Festival in Shalun. Took train NT$25. Site is huge. Foto. Plenty and วิดีโอ too. Bogs. Carolyn 23 februar. Ate duck. Drank coffee. Slept in. Blog. "Goodbyes" Bogs. AmyJo/Viv/Jen Walk. Down Mincquan to temples and lanterns. Foto. Lanterns etc. วิดีโอ. Walked through red lantern arches. 22 februar. Trip. Train to Tainan. Xin8. Edited and posted "Me..." Bogs. Debi. Blog. "I got lucky in Tainan" 21 februar. Woke up. Walk. To Chiayi Tower. Chat. With Marco and woman from Japan. Shop. Bought cheap Vietnamese coffee. 20 februar. Walk. Trip. reservation in Tainan. Blog. "Taking it easy..." Wash. Walk home has free do-your-own laundry. 19 februar. Routines? What's a routine? Same with goals. Walk. Trip. Bus to Changhua; train to Chiayi. Blog. "Chiayi... can't move." Bogs. Carolyn/Elizabeth/Elycia To Anni Pon Blogging is a bust. My blog collects dust. I'm tired of begging, shedding, getting hurt. It has no ambiance, no audience, spare purpose. Even my focused blogs don't work. People prefer re-posting memes and monetizing rage; AI pictures of people and flowers instead of the real thing [reality]. It's the age we live in... sadly. Newsfeed is a good option. A short blogette for those who want soundbites with a link for those who want more. ... Lost in the night, feel the bedbugs bite and the mosquitoes buzz. Lost in nightmares, angst and regrets, trapped in [dying for] what never was. |
Groan (exercise) = Exor. (observations) = obsv. (s***,shave,shower) = ss&s. (read something) = read. (comment blogs/newsfeed/notebook) = bogs. (BoyLove series on-line) = ytBL. (Thai TV BL series on GMMTV25) = tv25. (write poetry or prose) = PorP. (take a daily walk) = walk. (buy something) = shop. (take a photo) = foto. (video) = วิดีโอ. (speak Thai/Lao) = pôod. (learn Thai) Thai. (go-into-the-water) = pool. (dirty clothes) = wash. (cook something) = cook. (tidy up) = mess. (travel) = trip. (noon) = เที่ยง. (talking to ex-pats/travelers/strangers in European) = chat. (Thai teaching book) = book. (hand written journal) = jour. (contests) = test. (water) = agua. (market) = ตลาด. (WdC weekly goals challenge) = week. ฟอรั่ม (forums) = QotD, Xin8,X40w,Hook,P-Me,BcoF,Bar,SH,Stik. (National Blog Post Month) NBPM. (scrub toes) = toes; (clean and unclutter) = neat; (Senior Center) = SCTR; 18 febrero 18 กุมภาพันธ์ Lugang. Stayed at a quirky hostel. Walked. Ate by the Mazu Temple. Took photos. Chat. Joni and Karina. 17 febrero 17 กุมภาพันธ์ Sun Moon Lake with Allen. Took photos. Nice chat. 16 febrero 16 กุมภาพันธ์ Got up 7-ish, paid for extra night, ate breakfast. Chatted w/woman from Taichung. Blog. "What day is it?" Relaxing. More coffee. Took photo of breakfast and what the room looks like while being cleaned. Walk. Around 228 Park after dark. Trip. Allen will pick me up in the morning, 9-ish. Jour. Wrote on page 5400. 15 febrero 15 กุมภาพันธ์ Blog. "Another night in Taipei. " Showered... All I had to do yesterday was ask for a towel. Lost my debit card but finally found it. Spent an hour looking for it. Super stressed. 17:43 and the day was wasted so I'll take an evening stroll. Breakfast was very good. Chat. 3 young teachers from Hong Kong (30, math; 26, English; 24, history). Watched parts of "Intern". 14 febrero 14 กุมภาพันธ์ Arrived in Taipei without any major issues. Lots of walking. Drinking coffee to stay awake and stay hydrated. Very thirsty. Posted a blog entry. "Too tired to be anyone's lonely Valentine." Got to buy 10 pens... and wafers: lemon and peanut. Listened to saxophone player at 228 Peace Park. 13 febrero 13 กุมภาพันธ์ Somewhere over the Pacific... lost a day. 12 febrero 12 กุมภาพันธ์ Traveling so I may not update in a timely manner. |
Groan (exercise) = Exor. (observations) = obsv. (s***,shave,shower) = ss&s. (read something) = read. (comment blogs/newsfeed/notebook) = bogs. (BoyLove series on-line) = ytBL. (Thai TV BL series on GMMTV25) = tv25. (write poetry or prose) = PorP. (take a daily walk) = walk. (buy something) = shop. (take a photo) = foto. (video) = วิดีโอ. (speak Thai/Lao) = pôod. (learn Thai) Thai. (go-into-the-water) = pool. (dirty clothes) = wash. (cook something) = cook. (tidy up) = mess. (travel) = trip. (noon) = เที่ยง. (talking to ex-pats/travelers/strangers in European) = chat. (Thai teaching book) = book. (hand written journal) = jour. (contests) = test. (water) = agua. (market) = ตลาด. (WdC weekly goals challenge) = week. ฟอรั่ม (forums) = QotD, Xin8,X40w,Hook,P-Me,BcoF,Bar,SH,Stik. (National Blog Post Month) NBPM. (scrub toes) = toes; (clean and unclutter) = neat; (Senior Center) = SCTR; 11 februar 11 กุมภาพันธ์ blog. "Let love come to me" wash. clothes hung up to dry. new machines have added rinse cycle. About 3 hours late. food. made 8 roast beast provolone sandwiches, eat 1. for my trip. ss&s. didn't finish packing. count money. have NT$, baht, US$. 10 februar 10 กุมภาพันธ์ LUNAR NEW YEAR OF THE DRAGON ss&s. Showered. Shaved. blog. "At least there'll be rainbows." walk. chat. Travis, others. shop. sandwich makings for trip. neat. some progress with plants. 9 februar 9 กุมภาพันธ์ Showered and scrubbed my toes. "As I gently scrub my toes" I think of George Harrison. Bank - transfered money. PO - received mail, returned something sent to the wrong address. Said good bye to lots of folks. Visited Butterfly Herbs. Video of snow. Posted at FB, sent to Pan. 8 februar 8 กุมภาพันธ์ Showered. Vomited. Coffee! Good start to the day. Saw Merry and sat with Laxmi. Wrote a smidgeon. Keeping up with daily messages to Pan. I don't mind receiving MBs for my writing. 2nd place for "Round 8" The public sleigh wasn't running today and this old horse-of-a-sort struggled to reach Karegnondi City and the Spires of Freedom. We were trapped in traffic in a suburb of shards out on Georgian Bay. Thoughts: We carried a hundred kilos of fish we had harvested, enough to feed us and our neighbors through this Season of Starvation that our ancestors had once called March. We made haste in spite of the added weight. The storm was approaching from Hudson Bay. It was Wednesday and the ice glimmered in a shade of indigo. February: Babiana wasn't just a Black Hand with a stiletto up her sleeve. Her father had butchered/chopped-up pigs and goats with a knife/blade like the one she grasped behind her back. 7 februar 7 กุมภาพันธ์ Awake at 07:35 reading news? Time for a shower. Chatted with friends at Sr. Ctr. Checked on seats for LAX-TPE flight but decided to wait. Sorting out clothes to wash on Sunday. Read letters schnujo sent from Falklands. Finding places to stay in Taiwan. 3rd place for
6 februar 6 กุมภาพันธ์ Washed underwear for the next six days. Progress on telling people my plans. Showered but didn't scrub toes. Finished Pit Babe Ep. 11. communicating with Allen re Taiwan. 5 februar 5 กุมภาพันธ์ trip. bought ticket to Taipei. bath. SrCtr. picked up my cut glass bowl. Saw Laxmi, Robin, Ann and others. Weekly goals "Goals for 2/5-2/11" Finalize travel to Taiwan (leaving 2/12). Hostel , seats on plane , packing , contact friends (mostly done). Wash clothes by Sunday morning to have dry by Monday morning. Ready for the morning. Clean kitchen area and throw out stuff, remove dead plants and rearrange live ones. Progress. Contact people who need to know I'm 1. leaving Montana and 2. going back to Thailand. Mostly done. I've been telling everyone. Decide on paying rent here in MT (how many months in advance). Wrote a check for 4 months taking me through the end of July. |
Groan (exercise) = Exor. (observations) = obsv. (s***,shave,shower) = ss&s. (read something) = read. (comment blogs/newsfeed/notebook) = bogs. (BoyLove series on-line) = ytBL. (Thai TV BL series on GMMTV25) = tv25. (write poetry or prose) = PorP. (take a daily walk) = walk. (buy something) = shop. (take a photo) = foto. (video) = วิดีโอ. (speak Thai/Lao) = pôod. (learn Thai) Thai. (go-into-the-water) = pool. (dirty clothes) = wash. (cook something) = cook. (tidy up) = mess. (travel) = trip. (noon) = เที่ยง. (talking to ex-pats/travelers/strangers in European) = chat. (Thai teaching book) = book. (hand written journal) = jour. (contests) = test. (water) = agua. (market) = ตลาด. (WdC weekly goals challenge) = week. ฟอรั่ม (forums) = QotD, Xin8,X40w,Hook,P-Me,BcoF,Bar,SH,Stik. (National Blog Post Month) NBPM. (scrub toes) = toes; (clean and unclutter) = neat; (Senior Center) = SCTR; 4 februar 4 กุมภาพันธ์ chat. visited Jay for tea. Kirsten cancelled but I got to Le Petit for 3 hours. showered. 3 februar 3 กุมภาพันธ์ Did a requested review. Sent a trinket. cooked. cheesy mashed potatoes read Chpt 1 in Part 2 of "Flower Drum Song". chat. visited Travis. showered. 2 februar 2 กุมภาพันธ์ Long comment on Newsfeed. HM for an old neglected piece. "Throwing a stick in the Boulder River " cooked lentils with tarragon, mint, fenyl, cumin. head, shoulders, knees and toes. chat with Merry, Jamie. Met Bonnie. bought a cut glass bowl; pick up Monday. 1 februar 🌅 1 กุมภาพันธ์ Got up to see a rosy-pink dawn. Took a photo. Ate breakfast! page 5299 in my journal. chatted with friends. Tam. Scott. washed dishes. scrubbed toes. 31 januar 31 มกราคม took an early morning bath. made pancakes for breakfast. failed. wrote in my journal. wrote part of a story. ate and sat with friends at Senior Center. won 2.000 gps. 30 januar 30 มกราคม Objectives: missing people, next trip, clean table. Got to see Jay; I was worried. Found out Shirley died. Spoke with David and various people. took a shower and got out early. figured out how much I have in my Kansas bank. walk. ₊˚。⋆❆⋆。˚₊ entered into the First and Second Chance Contest: "Throwing a stick in the Boulder River " wrote in my journal. 29 januar 🌫️ 29 มกราคม 40 degrees. Frozen fog. Objectives: bank, post office, rent. post office box paid. Mail picked up. saw friends. walked. photo of fog. took a shower. messaged Pan. washed dishes. |
Groan (exercise) = Exor. (observations) = obsv. (s***,shave,shower) = ss&s. (read something) = read. (comment blogs/newsfeed/notebook) = bogs. (BoyLove series on-line) = ytBL. (Thai TV BL series on GMMTV25) = tv25. (write poetry or prose) = PorP. (take a daily walk) = walk. (buy something) = shop. (take a photo) = foto. (video) = วิดีโอ. (speak Thai/Lao) = pôod. (learn Thai) Thai. (go-into-the-water) = pool. (dirty clothes) = wash. (cook something) = cook. (tidy up) = mess. (travel) = trip. (noon) = เที่ยง. (talking to ex-pats/travelers/strangers in European) = chat. (Thai teaching book) = book. (hand written journal) = jour. (contests) = test. (water) = agua. (market) = ตลาด. (WdC weekly goals challenge) = week. ฟอรั่ม (forums) = QotD, Xin8,X40w,Hook,P-Me,BcoF,Bar,SH,Stik. (National Blog Post Month) NBPM. 28 januar 28 มกราคม Back in Montana. obsv. limp flag, cold, not one sign of spring. shop. bread, bologna. chat. Michael, Trav, Dillon walk. Stairs only one time. 27 januar 27 มกราคม In transit through Taiwan. Check-in at BKK was a breeze. Forgot to take out my water bottle. No problems transfering. Got home... obsv. Rain in Seattle... such a cliche... No turbulence. chat. Man from Viet Nam. Woman from Salmon Idaho. 2 women from Tampa Florida walk. through three airports; not as bad as usual. 26 januar 26 มกราคม Bangkok/กรุงเทพฯ Relaxing. test. Kit's "What's for dinner, Doc? [241] (298words)" blog. "Doin' nuthin'" chat. Tam and guys from India and Germany and Portugal. Guest from Malta! walk. to Paragon. obsv. cat hunting rat. shoppers with roller bags at Paragon. trip. Checked in and boarding passes printed. 25 januar 25 มกราคม Leave Udon Thani/อุดรธานี... Disastrous morning. Train ride was fine. ss&s. trip. Udon Thani to Bangkok. trip. Seats chosen. jour. page 5297 blog. "On the 🚆 train." chat. Max, Bet (Hungary, BL) 24 januar 24 มกราคม ss&s. chat. Anders and Roger and P'Nan at Surada. Rick, Batuan. pack. Finished before midnight. ตลาด. pork, bananas... cook. 'burgers' for trip. jour. page 5296 blog. very short. exor. walk. tv25. 23 januar 23 มกราคม exor. 300/300/300/500 = 1400. 09:37-10:05. AQ46 (fair) obsv. 'cold', breezy, sprinkles!, doves. Wore my brown jacket. เที่ยง. Temp low 70s; AQ low 40s. Breezy, cloudy, cool. blog. "That storm..." trip. looking at alternatives. jour. page 5296 walk. goodbyes. chat. PorP. Need to be edited and posted: "Value of a valve" and "Dear dearie dreary me, 2024." 22 januar 22 มกราคม exor. 500/300/300/500 = 1600. 08:40-09:15. 72 degrees. AQ43 obsv. clouds, jet, flies, achy, yawning (no coffee?). agua. 5 liters. A pleasant 82 degrees. AQ41. Haze and no horizon. bogs. GB/Jimminy/Grace blog. "Skills, chores, maintaining life, death" and "Quiet before the storm that must come." test. ฟอรั่ม. "Once we were friends [88] (298 w)" walk. rose. goodbyes. bread. chat. pôod. Nes, Nan... jour. page 5295. Buffalo lost to Kansas City 24-27. 9310 |
Groan (exercise) = Exor. (observations) = obsv. (s***,shave,shower) = ss&s. (read something) = read. (comment blogs/newsfeed/notebook) = bogs. (BoyLove series on-line) = ytBL. (Thai TV BL series on GMMTV25) = tv25. (write poetry or prose) = PorP. (take a daily walk) = walk. (buy something) = shop. (take a photo) = foto. (video) = วิดีโอ. (speak Thai/Lao) = pôod. (learn Thai) Thai. (go-into-the-water) = pool. (dirty clothes) = wash. (cook something) = cook. (tidy up) = mess. (travel) = trip. (noon) = เที่ยง. (talking to ex-pats/travelers/strangers in European) = chat. (Thai teaching book) = book. (hand written journal) = jour. (contests) = test. (water) = agua. (market) = ตลาด. (WdC weekly goals challenge) = week. ฟอรั่ม (forums) = QotD, Xin8,X40w,Hook,P-Me,BcoF,Bar,SH,Stik. (National Blog Post Month) NBPM. 21 januar 21 มกราคม exor. 400/300/300/500 = 1500. 10:00-10:28. More focused. 75 degrees. AQ41. obsv. calm, quiet, distant traffic, one big butterfly, two birds, bird s***. ss&s. เที่ยง. Low 80s. This week will be cooler. Thankfully. Super-hot can wait for my return imho. wash. Pan is doing a load. I will not have to do a wash (except for underwear I forgot). bogs. Steven/Storm/Joy ตลาด. Pa-lo, pork... chat. In English and Norwegian with two Swedes, Anders and Rodger. At Surada. cook? I added to the leftover rice: onion, mushroom, carrot... ฟอรั่ม. "Week 4 - hamburger" blog. "It doesn't matter as long as I say nothing and stay calm. " jour. page 5295. walk. Just short. tv25. 20 januar 20 มกราคม foto. Making merit to monks at 8. Took a couple photos, postponed my exorcising. bogs. Beholden/Whirls/Robert exor. 300/300/300/300 = 1200. 77 degrees. AQ42. Achy, listless, delayed by morning ceremony. obsv. butterfly, tweets, worker's chatter, bouncing basket ball, purple orchids. เที่ยง. 88 degrees. AQ40 (fair) jour. page 5294. ss&s. ฟอรั่ม. Bar. walk. ตลาด. soap, asparagus; 7/11, butter. tv25. "Cherry Magic" subtitled, enjoying it. blog. "Listless and 'up in the air'." book. Thai Chpt. 4 I mentioned that I'm going on hiatus... probably for February. I'm worn out. Sleep, coffee, exercise... aren't helping much. Hugs would help. Feeling safe and secure would help even more. 19 januar 19 มกราคม exor. 500/300/300/500 = 1600-ish. 10:17-10:46. 75 degrees. AQ39. obsv. rumble of equipment, butterfly, haze, a slot of light hitting and warming me. ss&s. ฟอรั่ม. Stik. walk. toilet paper, soap. bogs. Steven/Staine/Sinbad agua. 5 liters. chat. tv25. Last Twilight. tv31. Pitbabe. Both very sad episodes. jour. page 5294. blog. "How much sadness can a sponge absorb?" I didn't record noon temps but it got up to 91 by 5 pm. 18 januar 18 มกราคม Prajak Day Udon's color is orange. Prajak founded the city. ss&s. walk. foto. various. วิดีโอ. dancing and music. obsv. dancing, music, smiles, orange-orange-orange, banners flutter, grey bird, blue sky; fragrant purple orchids. exor. 400/300/300/500 = 1500. 11:21-11:54. 82 degrees. AQ34 (fair) เที่ยง. 82 degrees. AQ34. bogs. Jen/Nikola/NormaJean cook. Rice with mushrooms, egg, greens... ytBL. Pit Babe #9 tv25. Faceless Love... the end. chat. pôod. with youth from UD, Khon Kaen, Sisaket (Mos). blog. "A no-drama day. " ฟอรั่ม. "Orange is a color of winter." jour. page 5293. Emma Beddington (York) re JOY. Laughing doesn't bring me joy either. Would chickens? "The Humble Traveler" thoughts for a book. I'm not always humble. Another thought... write letters/poems for people in my past (I've done this before). Present? 17 januar - 17 มกราคม exor. 500/300/300/300 = 1400. 81 degrees. AQ33. 11:43-12:11. Cut short because sun came around. obsv. "violet volcanoes violently erupt"... a common flower; jets; power workers (one quite cute). เที่ยง. sunny 81 degrees, AQ33. cook. ต้มข่าไก่ with added chicken and left over rice/potato. ฟอรั่ม. P-me. "Week 3 - snowboarder" bogs. Pure/Storm/AmyJo blog. "Will another "democracy" elect a ____?" and "A bit fuzzy on an uninspired day. " ss&s. walk. accident by train tracks. shop. croissants, mushrooms, carrots foto. crossing. hat/fishballs tv25. and 31... 7 Days... 16 januar 16 มกราคม Buffalo Bills 31 - Pittsburgh Steelers 17. exor. 400/300/500/000 = 1200. Children on cycle; me in a hurry. 77-82 degrees. AQ36 (fair). 10:50-11:20. obsv. toddler scooting, 2 boys on the 'cycle'. ฟอรั่ม. Xin8. เที่ยง. Around 82; I got busy. Mostly sunny. bogs. Phyllis/TJ/Grace blog. "Quiet day so far." trip. No luck figuring out train/BTS connections. ss&s. jour. page 5292 foto. purple and orange/yellow orchids. pôod. P'Nan, Geng. ตลาด. eggs, tumkagai... tv25. for awhile. chat. V&B. agua. 5 liters PorP. "Bring the dawn" 15 januar 15 มกราคม ss&s. trip. Nong Khai 100+110+100+110 = 420 baht for mini-van and tuk-tuk. chat. Eugene in Nong Khai. walk. ytBL. Last Twilight Ep. 9 3/4 & 4/4 exor. 300/300/300/400 = 1300 maybe. Unfocused, sore, stiff. obsv. Smiling crescent moon in the west; couple walking; two youths playing b-ball; banners. jour. page 5292 UNDER CONSTRUCTION... To Dragon: ... "I think the darkest magic looms at noon, sucking all the joy out of life. It thrives not in dark corners of day nor night, but within the place where the heart no longer abides. And worse... there it no longer hides... but roams abroad." Darkest magic looms at noon, 7 sucking goodness out of life. 7 It survives, or better, thrives 7 not in dark corners of day nor night, 8 but within that darksome space 7 where the heart no longer abides. 8 And worse — there it no longer hides, 8 but roams abroad." 4 Darkest magic looms at noon, 7 sucking goodness out of life, 7 surviving in dark corners, 7 each day and night; 4 thrives within that darksome space 7 where hearts can no longer bide. 7 And worse — it roams abroad, 7 no longer hides. 4 Be the light Darkest magic looms at noon, sucking goodness out of life, surviving in dark corners all day and night, thrives within that darksome space where soft-hearts no longer bide. And worse — it roams abroad, no longer hides. © Copyright 2024 Kåre Enga (16.januar.2024) Final edit in "Forty-forth seven-day period of the Year 180." |
Groan (exercise) = Exor. (observations) = obsv. (s***,shave,shower) = ss&s. (read something) = read. (comment blogs/newsfeed/notebook) = bogs. (BoyLove series on-line) = ytBL. (Thai TV BL series on GMMTV25) = tv25. (write poetry or prose) = PorP. (take a daily walk) = walk. (buy something) = shop. (take a photo) = foto. (video) = วิดีโอ. (speak Thai/Lao) = pôod. (learn Thai) Thai. (go-into-the-water) = pool. (dirty clothes) = wash. (cook something) = cook. (tidy up) = mess. (travel) = trip. (noon) = เที่ยง. (talking to ex-pats/travelers/strangers in European) = chat. (Thai teaching book) = book. (hand written journal) = jour. (contests) = test. (water) = agua. (market) = ตลาด. (WdC weekly goals challenge) = week. ฟอรั่ม (forums) = QotD, Xin8,X40w,Hook,P-Me,BcoF,Bar,SH. (National Blog Post Month) NBPM. 14 januar 14 มกราคม ss&s เที่ยง. 80 degrees. AQ41. exor. 300/300/300/300 = 1200. It was getting warm and the sun was coming around. fin. 12:30 obsv. blue sky, only swallows swooping, big butterfly, quiet. ss&s. 2nd time. chat. Batuan. I ranted. ฟอรั่ม. Xin8. PorP. "Split pea soup" bogs. MightyJen/Nat/Stik blog. "I said no to life" jour. page 5291-2 Thai. Chpt. 4 ytBL. Last Twilight Ep.9 2/4 walk. too sick. I hope I'm done vomiting. Literally (well, figuratively too). 13 januar 13 มกราคม Children's Day - วันเด็ก exor. 400/400/400/500 = 1800. 10:07-11:05. 72-75 degrees. AQ42 (fair) obsv. puddles, breeze. Tom said it rained! Racket coming from UD Town. blog. "Exercising. What to do in Montana?" ฟอรั่ม. Didn't know (or had forgotten) that there was a forum post list! 33 posts since 1/1. test. "In the Wilds of Time " for SH bogs. BadVoodoo/Grace/Stephen. trip. The flight is booked. The hostel in Bangkok is booked. Now I can calm down? ss&s. walk. Got coffee (y1,b2,r3,g4) and air freshener at Big C, but didn't get fried fish... chat. Batuan. tv25. "Cherry Magic" ytBL. Last Twilight Ep 9 1/4 jour. page 5291. 12 januar 12 มกราคม My head is fuzzy. Too much stress. I need to lay down for a bit. Pan did come home but left this morning for work. It's the 'new normal'. I tried and failed regarding buying my tickets out of here. I'll be stressed until that's resolved. To Neva: "I try to walk every day. Sometimes I just go to the market like yesterday; but we also have a 'city pond' where people go after sunset. There are places to work out, places to eat, places to dance or sit. I don't wear sunscreen. I wear a hat and a long-sleeve shirt between 10-16 when the sun is beating down on us in Hot Season. Now... it's winter, so not quite as necessary for a short walk. Working in the fields though... I had ticks, chiggers and poison ivy in Oklahoma... no joke! When I'm back in Montana I'll need to figure out an exercise routine. Walking would be great but I don't think going out alone on the snow/ice would be wise. I need a walking buddy!" เที่ยง. 82 degrees. AQ43 Clouds lifting. bogs. Neva/Beholden/Eric. blog. "3600 views after 18+ years..." ฟอรั่ม. "Re: Andre's Fractured Resolutions Prompts Week 2" walk. foto. yellow flowers, apres sunset. shop. chat. V&B, P'Nan. exor. 300/300/300/300 = 1200. 19:38-20:02. 82 degrees. AQ 45/49. obsv. pesky fly, all the exercise equipment around Nong Bua. mosquitoes, sirens, long rumbling ot the train, taste of chicken liver. tv25. Last Twilight on 25 and PitBabe on 31. jour. page 5290-1. To Bobbie on FB: "My father's father was born in 1880. He was 72 the year I was born. I am 71 now. I don't remember him (he met me but I have few childhood memories) but my great uncle Eddy was born in 1874 in Sweden. When they say "unto the seventh generation" they are not jesting. Gen Z is not an example of "spontaneous generation". They are built upon the good and bad judgments of their forefathers. In the past that would be their linear heritage or the village they grew up in. Nowadays they draw from the Global Village and K-Pop can be as influential as European or American music. 1970 may as well be as ancient as the Civil War. 1917 = WW1 in White-Eurocentric circles. 1918 = pandemic (important in my mother's family). But Jim Crow was in force and Native Americans didn't dare step off the Reservation. Different histories, some forgotten, some still healing from the scars." 11 januar 11 มกราคม chat. Venera and Boreu. Saw Tom. Later: V&B and Nancy. exor. 400/300/300/300 = 1300. 10:39-11:23. 81 degrees. AQ41 (fair) Some clouds. obsv. V&B cleaning two bicycles, the myna hop, เที่ยง. 84 degrees. AQ40 (fair) ฟอรั่ม. P-Me. "#2 Map (what's a #1 map?)" blog. "Consideration or "Harm none but do whatever I want?" " wash. Pan has hung up the clothes and the pillows, bed sheet and covers are dry. test. Made additions to a couple of contests. Good use of nervous energy? Or avoidance... bogs. Sandy/NormaJean/Whirls. walk. rose. red. shop. ขนม tv25. Faceless Love. Thai. Chpt. 3 trip. Looked at flights. No decisions. Gonna be rough until I have it planned. About 30k baht to MSO. ss&s. Didn't bother until almost midnight and didn't shave. To NormaJean: "I edited my un-posted "Dear Me" letter. NO resolutions, just an inner dialogue between my suggestions and my reluctance to follow them. Very real... in some ways. I try to go for a walk every day. I keep track of this in Porthole. The problem arises when I'm back in Montana. A long walk on a bone-cold day? Not to forget those 42 steps going down... and then back up. I guess I could skip a couple going up if I'm careful. I'm more concerned about falling down them. Even Missoula will be chilled. -12 tomorrow; never going above 0 on Saturday. I hope my place will be okay. There's nothing I can do from here. I made sure my windows were shut. The winds will be coming down Hellgate Canyon from the north-east, but my windows face south. And winds under 9 mph. 10 januar 10 มกราคม obsv. passing train, jet roar, dove coo; bouncing ball; purple orchids starting. bogs. Phyllis/Joy/Jennifer เที่ยง. 84 degrees. AQ45 (fair) ytBL. Pitbabe Ep.7 Ep.8 ฟอรั่ม. Hook. "Round 8" ss&s. agua. 5 liters walk. 7/11. bread, bologna, butter (from Australia in a container). exor. 300/300/300/300 = 1200. 20:47-21:10. 79 degrees. AQ49 (fair) chat. short chat with Batuaan. Thai. Chpt. 2 The simple yet easily overlooked "garbage can" may be too common... kinda like sending dandelions in May to someone in Michigan. They'll just send a gazillion back. In Thailand "durian" will do. It's a beloved, tasty and, sometimes expensive, fruit but few people like the odor and hotels and means of transport ban it. "burning fields" may be too general or uncommon. The sugarcane and corn fields put soot in the air and it can become unbreathable. Air pollution is a real problem outside of rainy season. Bangkok and Chiang Mai are to be avoided. It comes with a tingling of the eyes and a cough. "Pittsburgh 1960" is a very old scent, only evoking 'fond' memories of former generations (age 65+) of the black skies of factory towns across the USA. It comes with black dust that clings like glitter and dulls everything it touches... and won't wash off. But... the deluxe package comes with a recording of the steam engines running the tracks of the Pennsylvania Railroad. And that may make it a best seller among the lung cancer crowd. 9 januar 9 มกราคม Thai. Read Thai Chpt. 1 exor. 600/300/300/600 = 1800. 08:48-09:27, ~70 degrees. AQ42, but felt worse. obsv. noisy flock of myna birds, dirty horizon, fragrance of plumeria. cook. I made rice w/egg plus leftovers. Pan is neither cooking nor eating I worry. ss&s. bogs. AmyJo/TJ/Richard เที่ยง. 84 degrees. AQ 40. Sunny blue skies. Slight breeze. blog. "How money works... or not." ฟอรั่ม. Xin8. "Caught in my eye" ytBL. Pit Babe Ep.5 Ep.6 omegaverse genre. walk. 7/11. toilet paper. Cheap stuff but we ran out. Pan didn't oversleep. Some days he cannot get up before noon. At noon he went to work. And he told me what he was doing, said goodbye and even mentioned a time to come back! His lack of respect has been driving me mad. At least today went well... so far. 8 januar 8 มกราคม bogs. Jim/Mighty/Jane exor. 400/300/300/500 = 1500. 81 degrees. AQ39 (fair) 10:10-10:42. obsv. Pesky fly, handsome woman in blue wide-leg pants, my elbow isn't as swollen, saw Tom. เที่ยง. 82 degrees. AQ39 (fair) Thai. "Read Thai" intro reread. ytBL. Pitbabe Ep.4 ss&s. ตลาด. sweet potato sticks, eggs, bananas, green onions, mushrooms... walk. cook. chicken... chat. with Venera and Boreu. To Sharon West on FB: "One of the secrets of gracefully getting older is seeing the mundane in new ways. I'm seldom bored observing the ever-changing world around me." 9176 |
Groan (exercise) = Exor. (observations) = obsv. (s***,shave,shower) = ss&s. (read something) = read. (comment blogs/newsfeed/notebook) = bogs. (BoyLove series on-line) = ytBL. (Thai TV BL series on GMMTV25) = tv25. (write poetry or prose) = PorP. (take a daily walk) = walk. (buy something) = shop. (take a photo) = foto. (video) = วิดีโอ. (speak Thai/Lao) = pôod. (learn Thai) Thai. (go-into-the-water) = pool. (dirty clothes) = wash. (cook something) = cook. (tidy up) = mess. (travel) = trip. (noon) = เที่ยง. (talking to ex-pats/travelers/strangers in European) = chat. (Thai teaching book) = book. (hand written journal) = jour. (contests) = test. (water) = agua. (market) = ตลาด. (WdC weekly goals challenge) = week. (National Blog Post Month) NBPM. 7 januar 7 มกราคม exor. 400/300/300/300 = 1300. Forgot phone. Finished before 11:30. obsv. little boy on bike with white flowers; school boy in black and black glasses on a bench with his devie; new orchid buds; big yellow machine racket; children. test. "Bell entry" เที่ยง. 81 degrees. AQ41 (fair). cook. Pork with garlic and red-onions. Xin8. "Flight of the poet" I like even numbers... just saying. Will need an edit but... not bad. blog. "We travel our own journey. And writers? We write about it." Another even number. 2 is my favorite. bogs. Tracker/Liz/Jeff. walk. Nong Bua. chat. John. tv25. "Cooking Crush" test. Quills: Cloven, Normality, While you were snoring. I received a couple of achievement badges for posting daily. I know... it's a bad habit. To Tracker: "Honey Bun! "Ode to a Honey Bun" I love your form, your lusciousness that never finds fault with me. I'd love you for... Any ode to a honey bun will not last past three lines. Maybe not as long as it takes to warm it up. I ate a pork and cucumber sandwich today... because I had a craving for cucumbers and I needed to use up the pork. My coffee would go good with a honey bun... just saying." To Steven: "I'll never win a popularity contest. "Porthole" keeps track of my goals. "L'aura del Campo" houses some of my poetry. "Enga mellom fjella" my prose. I decided to do this to help me keep track; but, frankly, no one cares! "Hoarfrosts from Hell" [GC] covers my angst and I'm trying to do daily entries to let off steam. Although I write about others, for others, and even call out 'others'... my experiences, my stories, my poetry, my life matter only to a few. And I have had to come to terms with that. But, as Mike noted, opening up about my life has allowed others to see not only me, but themselves." Slow: 1 mindful eating. 2 long walks. 3 tech-free evenings. 4 quality consumption. 5 growing your own food. 6 slow travel. 7 nature baths. 20-5-3 rule. 8 chasing? skills. 9 playing. 10 reading. 11 starting a ritual. 12 daydreaming. 12 "Slow Living" Strategies That Will Increase Your Longevity, by Tanner Garrity. 6 januar 6 มกราคม blog. "What is rotten" "It's going on midnight (23:24)" exor. 400/300/300/500 = 1500. 79 degrees. AQ42. 10:50-11:24. obsv. tiny butterflies; woman cradling baby; swallows; coos; melodic birdsong; hive gone; boy on yellow plastic slide drumming; quiet trimming; red (bruise-color) orchid roots. เที่ยง. 84 degrees. AQ 41. ss&s. QotD. Xin8. week. Didn't make my goals. PorP. "Caught in my eye" Bogs. Whirls/NormaJean/Phyllis. walk. Nong Bua. ตลาด. 2 potato, 1 pieces chicken, 1 cucumber... roti. tv25. "Cherry Magic" with subtitles? To Joey: "Joey's Spring has Sprung I see X a lot (I won't join), and find TikTok amusing and sometimes educational as it informs me as to how people think and respond. I call people out on TikTok... a lot. "Ignorance, Thy Name is Human." MSN usually highlights the Legacy Media, as you put it. But... only in English. And it mostly ignores Al Jazeera, Le Monde, Deutche Welle. My cellphone knows I'm in Thailand so I get news from East, Southeast, South Asia and Australia, especially if it involves tourism or money as both are highly valued and commented upon in Thailand. Personally, I post real (non-AI) pictures and try to explain local life on the ground. I'm not a tourist agent. So... you're more likely to hear about the downside of traveling from me. That said, people are landing in jail and being threatened and deported for posting reality or sharing their opinion. This has happened in Thailand, Malaysia, Hong Kong... As for your comment about consensus. I concur. Lack of communication and the unwillingness of folks with opinions to admit that they have NO experience... (and could be wrong) leads to folks talking past each other about things they know little to nothing about." To SM: "It's been an okay week. I 'caved' and plans for where I go next remain to be done. I'm mired in quicksand. However, I did start sorting through clothes and have some ready to be packed, some set aside to be ready for when I come back, and others to be offered to Pan, gifted or discarded. I received disturbing news about where I live in Montana (will I be forced to move) but friends that live there haven't indicated that there's a problem yet. I'm confident that if I tackle my 'leaving' chores every day for a week I won't be overwhelmed." Pan came and went while I was outside. He left KFC for me. I miss him. 5 januar 5 มกราคม exor. 500/300/500/500 = 1800. 11:03-11:44. 77 degrees. AQ39 (fair). Took it slow. obsv. bird 'cluck', white-wax hive, green-grey lichen B1 courtyard, blue sky, barely a breeze, light reflection and shadow. เที่ยง. 81 degrees. AQ39 (fair) ss&s. soft-scrubbed my toes. PorP. "There comes a hardening..." Xin8. trip. Started setting aside clothes for my next trip. walk. Picked up coffee. chat. with Jean François (from Montpellier) at Surada in English and French. tv25. "Last Twilight" on 25 and "Pitbabe" on channel 31. lookmaxxing... musclemaxxing... smellmaxxing... softmaxxing... "Instead of teaching people to accept themselves, looksmaxxers and softlooksmaxxers rank each other based on harsh and arbitrary standards, teaching each other never to be satisfied by their natural appearances. To make matters worse, studies by mental health experts suggest that, compared to women, men are less likely to seek therapy or treatments for issues pertaining to their self-image or low self-esteem. Jawlines, canthal tilts, and eye shapes: it's a never-ending pursuit, a mew-athon race to the bottom." https://www.businessinsider.com/looksmaxxing-softmaxxing-mewing-self-improvement... How about: bookmaxxing, wordmaxxing, rhymemaxxing... workmaxxing. Where maxxing means "to the max" or "obsessed with" https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/technology/you-don-t-need-everything-you-want/ar-... 4 januar 4 มกราคม bogs. Nikola/Brian/Staine obsv. chill breeze; mackeral sky, pale half moon; voltage warnings, silent wires; birds; two more bee hives. exor. 300/300/300/500 = 1400. 09:33-10:01. 70~73 degrees. AQ 38 (fair) One goal is to do 1500 in 30 minutes. That takes focus and a decent pace. Some days I'm too tired, too distraught (yesterday), too unfocused (frequent) or interrupted. There are days that just getting out of bed is a victory. I do better in Thailand but I still struggle. Side-note: managed to fall out of bed today. ss&s. เที่ยง. 81 degrees. AQ37 (fair). wash. Pan washed and hung clothes. I monitor them... blog. "Move my butt?" walk. rose. 2: pink and "orange-peachy-pink English" Also orchids for merit. ตลาด. ขนมปัง,กุหลาบ,บุญ. chicken filet. agua. 5 or 6 liters. QotD. To Bobbie: "I left because the door was open, said the cat. But why, replied the shaking human." (But why didn't you close it? But it's scary out there! How can you be so brave?) 3 januar 3 มกราคม bogs. Crab/Sandy/Charity/Nikola/TJ/Neva/Carolyn. exor. 300/300/300/300 = 1200. 10:39-11:24. 77~84 degrees. Didn't feel well, felt chilled. Very slow. obsv. sound of ylang-ylang (a.k.a. plumeria; it's name is musical imho); chill; strong breeze; heat of the glint off a window in A2; lost in thoughts; shaking and shooken. เที่ยง. 84 degrees. AQ38 (fair). ss&s. agua. 5 liters. walk. blog. "As green fades to grey" QotD. Not loving living alone. To Crab: "I wrote poetry because... that's what spewed forth. I got better at it with time. I wrote a journal. I blogged. Both of those activities are old fashioned now. I wrote some flash fiction, vignettes, short stories, and chapters. Short suits me. I never marketed nor monetized my writing. My Muse still works but snoozes more than before. I feel like I'm in my final chapter and fading." To Nikola: "I've visited with a couple from Slovenia the past three days. They have a French Press they bought in New Zealand. I could get one here... but I don't really need one. I use an electric kettle and instant 3in1 packets. A frappuccino at Starbucks costs 140 baht; a latte at Amazon 70. My packets cost about 4 baht each. Coffee can be cheap or expensive. I prefer cheap. To provide perspective: average daily base-salary is 300-400 baht. I'm careful around dogs here and cats are careful around strangers. I do get to pet one occasionally though. No pets are allowed in the condos. " To TJ: "Blogville used to be a communal place, kinda like a pub in Cork. Alack... it's old-fashioned and fallen out of favor to drive-by coffee kiosks and fancy cookie-cutter sit-down-and-hide-behind-your-ipad frappuccino-fueled fortresses (different city = same-same). We have plenty of monkeys in Thailand. They aren't allowed inside. Wordsmitty ✍️ is one of the few WDC members who comment on blogs. I'd say 50% of my blog comments are his. If he lived in Ireland I'd exclaim, "He seems to visit every pub in town." Milk and Cookies — Fan Fiction 2 januar 2 มกราคม exor. 400/300/300/300 = 1300. 09:57-10:23. 75 degrees. AQ40 (fair) obsv. big dark squirrel, leaf-scurry, blog. "Re: Monkey business #3" "Re: Monkey business #4" "Paradise has pitfalls " "Pout" bogs. Carol/Annette/Tracker เที่ยง. 86 degrees. AQ fair. ss&s. chat. P'Nan. Gay called. Sat with Venus and Boris. walk. "Let's be Fruity!" "You are a fun-loving, playful person. You can be a bit of a flirt at times, though your heart is true and you genuinely care about others." "January 1-5. Emotional survival." Very simple. Survive emotionally. I need to take a deep breath and stand my ground. But first... I need to decide what ground I'm standing on. Beyond that. Keep up daily routines and decide whether I will visit a friend this week or next. Make plans to leave. This entails booking flights, uncluttering and beginning packing. More decisions. I'd rather curl up and sleep after a restless night. To Tracker: "Twenty-twenty-four... I have the expectation that I will travel more. But, although I can dream, I have no concrete plans yet. 2022 was a disappointment and scary. 2023 was settling into a place that didn't nurture parts of me that were thirsty. I have no writing goals. I'll set those at New Year's 181 on the Spring Equinox. But... I'll probably write most every day. I'll probably blog most every day. They've become 'bad habits'." To Annette: "glass bottles of grown up water I made a list of January contests so I'll be reminded. Lots of decisions to make as I may be moving out temporarily or permanently. And who knows what awaits me in Montana. Pan put a dark-brown wig on me and colored my moustache and eyebrows. I looked ghastly. I had seen the fireworks here at midnight ICT and by noon ICT when they were uncorking those glass bottles of grown up water in NYC... I had finished two entries for WDC contests. The 12 hour difference has to be negotiated; I won this time." 1 januar 1 มกราคม PorP. Finished and posted before deadline WDC time: "The Origins of the House of Huffyndor" "A Tale of Glass " exor. 300/300/300/300 = 1200. 11:14-11:42. 81 degrees. AQ 41 (fair) obsv. sight and sound of a basketball; busy birds and bees. New minimum is 1200. New range 1200-1800 with a daily objective of 1500 in 30 minutes. ss&s. เที่ยง. 84 degrees. AQ fair. Blue skies. agua. 5 liters. ตลาด. pork, croissants. walk. Nong Bua. Saw Venus and Boris. bogs. Dispirit/Robert/Petra. blog. "Unhappiness part .." JANUARY CONTESTS: "StAG Firebox - Closed for judging!" picture prompt "There are no medals for the silent heroes working the metal." "The LGBT Writing Contest - now judging" resolution/ink/regret "The Bard's Hall Contest" internal thoughts "I could have been in somewhere warm / Thailand..." "SENIOR CENTER FORUM" Old or new. Navy or bright-blue. Faux or true. "Tales Shown, Not Told OLD FORMAT" Choose one of three. Enter by Jan 22. Over 1000 words. "Kit's Higher Ratings Contest" Old or new. 18+ GC XGC "Dear Me: Official WDC Contest" 2024... what can I say to myself? "Invalid Item" not this month? "First and Second Chance Poetry Contest" "Hook of the Book" Ice castles. We struggled to reach the spires of Freedom. I was trapped in traffic in a suburb of shards out on the lake. "Share Your Faith" Nature or Nurture. "Roots & Wings Contest" Verna Irene |
(exercise) = Exor. (observations) = obsv. (s***,shave,shower) = ss&s. (read something) = read. (comment blogs/newsfeed/notebook) = bogs. (BoyLove series on-line) = ytBL. (Thai TV BL series on GMMTV25) = tv25. (write poetry or prose) = PorP. (take a daily walk) = walk. (buy something) = shop. (take a photo) = foto. (video) = วิดีโอ. (speak Thai/Lao) = pôod. (learn Thai) Thai. (go-into-the-water) = pool. (clothes) = wash. (cook something) = cook. (tidy up) = mess. (travel) = trip. (noon) = เที่ยง. (talking to ex-pats/travelers/strangers in European) = chat. (Thai teaching book) = book. (hand written journal) = jour. (contests) = test. (water) = agua. (National Blog Post Month) NBPM. Groan 31 desember 31 ธันวาคม exor. 300/300/400/500 = 1500. cook. rice/garlic/onion/egg ss&s. เที่ยง. 86 degrees. AQ 39 (fair) bogs. Stik/ PorP. "Kintsugi" "A Tale of Glass " test. "The Origins of the House of Huffyndor" Blog. "Radio silence" shop. eggs, shrooms chat. Oat, P'Nan. Venus and Boris from Slovenia. Caught the fireworks on video. Pan sent me a photo of his sister and family. 9100 views as of today. 30 desember 30 ธันวาคม exor. 300/300/300/300 = 1200. Approx. lost count. 75 degrees. AQ 43 (fair). obsv. drongos; pounding; clouds > light clouds; chirps; pigeon flight. cook. rice with veggies and duck. ss&s. Cozy/comfort; routine/boring; adventure/seeking; beauty or money; right/wrong/whatever; internal/external; fear or certainty. เที่ยง. 81 semi-cloudy degrees. AQ 40 (fair) chat. Rick, P'Nan... blog. "Oh December, I hope I forget you! " PorP. "Teeth of a dog" test. Entered two of Kittie's contests. Old: "Dazy Hell" ytBL. "Last Twilight" Ep. 8 with subtitles. walk. Nong Bua, loud music, ate bun. 29 desember 29 ธันวาคม exor. 400/300/300/500 = 1500. 73 degrees. 09:45-10:21. AQ 47 (fair) obsv. heron hoot. Tom in orange, hands aflutter, clear sky, birds, one bee, no butterfly... then a myna unsuccessfully chasing a yellow flutterby. ss&s. เที่ยง. 84 degrees. May have gone up to 90 today. AQ 45 (fair). shop. Added 150 baht to my phone. walk. Central Mall. blog. "Salmon soup at a Norwegian restaurant. " chat. Ying, Golf, Hans. bogs. Sara/Brian/Tracker. tv25. Last Twilight. Fed the elephant again. Prompt: "There's nothing more beautiful than the way the ocean refuses to stop kissing the shoreline, no matter how many times it's sent away. Sarah Kay. My response: I like the prompt and the image it evokes. But, I'm not a beach person. The first time I saw the ocean was February 1974. It was a tropical night with the Southern Cross in a pitch-black sky. Hard to find one of those these days. I was at Manuel Antonio in Costa Rica, long before it became a tourist hot spot. The lapping of the waves depressed me in a way I hadn't experienced before. 28 desember 28 ธันวาคม Grief will have grip on you until you let it go. It'll hide in dark corners but light can cleanse even those. And lightened grief becomes a memory and then a wisp of distant clouds. Thinking of Serena Blade (Huser:letyv1981) 4 You're not okay... and that's okay. In time you may be okay, but not today. Be kind to yourself and surround yourself with kind people. Withdrawal would be a natural response but I don't recommend it. Staying connected without having to mask your grief would be better. I found that having one small very small goal per day helped when I was in shock over events years ago. Now, I take walks (noticing both the beauty and ugliness along the way; it keeps me grounded), exercise (because I have control over that), write (tears and rants) and try to stay connected by saying hello to anyone (even a chat about the weather helps). I have big decisions to make this month, but today I'll just do the above. To Lyn: "I hesitate to respond because I'm living a different reality and my childhood was different as well. In Montana I've switched beds (from twin to queen) over the years from 3 spots (the fourth has the kitchen). It's a struggle when too much stuff is crammed into two rooms. Easier to just move something into the hallway and back again. When I return I want to downsize. In 2022 when I desperately needed help Bry cleaned and helped me unclutter. She's much stronger than I am. One of the key decisions was taking furniture down 2 flights of stairs and placing it next to the dumpster. Here in Thailand I don't have as much but need to seriously reorganize and give stuff away or bring it back to Montana. Regardless, our beloved rice-cooker stays. I'll miss it." Anticipation trumps Anxiety. Remind me of that later when Anxiety comes calling. exor. 400/300/300/500 = 1500. 70 degrees. 10:09-10:43. AQ 55 (poor) obsv. volcan cut down, no butterflies, silent birds. ss&s. extra lotion on skin. left shin is bad. bogs. Serena/Apondia/Lyn เที่ยง. 82 degrees. AQ 52 (poor) walk. shop. bought rice. 139 baht for 5 kilos. agua. 5 liters. tv25. Faceless Love. Don't quite understand the story nor the angst portrayed. https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/politics/crenshaw-bill-against-college-dei-oaths-... 27 desember 27 ธันวาคม I was so tense all night. Visa renewals are NOT automatic. I had difficulty coming back from Malaysia a month ago. So... my visa was up tomorrow. I went today, paid my 2.000 baht and now have until January 27th. Easy-peasy but nerve wracking until it's over. ss&s. visa. Took tuk-tuk (100 baht). walk. from Immigration to Nong Prajak and back. Bought frog, kao pad gai, peanut-butter milkshake. chat. exor. 300/300/300/300 = 1200. 84 degrees. 18:10-18:37. obsv. dirty-orange horizon, smoke, calmish, quiet; grilled frog, sprinkler and puddles. blog. "One month ... max." tv25. Finding Yourself... still not grabbing me. bogs. AmyJo/Patricia/Mouse. 26 desember 26 ธันวาคม bogs. Sara/Carolyn/Stik. exor. 300/300/300/300 = 1200. 66-70 degrees. 10:40-11:06. AQ 55 (poor) obsv. orchids finished, decorations coming down, ice, sunshine, calmer, new shoots on the แคนา (khaenaa). ss&s. เที่ยง. 73 degrees. AQ 56 (poor). PorP. ""Paradise Lounge" D26 #20 40w 'mechanical'" Last entry for 40 words. blog. "January 2024 angst" "W stands for..." walk. tv25. Finding Yourself... but not into it. 25 desember 25 ธันวาคม bogs. NormaJean/Neva/Intuey exor. 400/400/300/500 = 1600. Not stressed. 68 degrees under thin clouds. 10:55-11:38. obsv. The Deconstruction; mynas strutting, hills shrouded, thin clouds, no shadows, muted jets, new bronze leaves. เที่ยง. 73 degrees. 10:55-11:38. AQ 57 (poor) faraway hills barely visible. ss&s. twice. chat. walk. Nong Bua. foto. animal tracks วิดีโอ. dancers in red outfits. cook. shrimp, chicken, pork, pa lo. tv25. I worried about Pan not eating, but he did eat some late in the evening. He seems okay... but I'm not fooled. He's muttering to himself. That's better than catatonia. Received merit badge today for finishing 40 words challenge. I'll post one more. |