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Started July 1st 2019 for contests, etc. as other blogs are filling up and have other purposes.  I'm starting a new blog because
I'll be linking to
I've started an appendix (I no longer have one personally) to keep track of my Space Cadet journals for Space Blog. It's a work constantly under construction. Mind the mess.
I needed to start a folder for contests as there are so many deadlines and details to remember.
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| Twenty-second Week of the Year 180. (exercise) = Exor. (observations) = obsv. (s***,shave,shower) = ss&s. (read something) = read. (comment blogs) = bogs. (BoyLove series on-line) = ytBL. (Thai TV BL series on GMMTV25) = tv25. (write poetry or prose) = PorP. (take a daily walk) = walk. (buy something) = shop. (take a photo) = foto. (video) = วิดีโอ. (speak Thai/Lao) = pôod. (learn Thai) Thai. (go-into-the-water) = pool. (clothes) = wash. (cook something) = cook. (tidy up) = mess. (travel) = trip. (noon) = เที่ยง. (talking to ex-pats/travelers/strangers in European) = chat. (Thai teaching book) = book. (hand-written journal) = jour. (contests) = test. اسماء names (attributes) = اكمال = perfection (excellence, fullness, consummation, maturity} 20 สิงหาคม 2566 - 180 1 اسماء  เที่ยง. Oppressive. 33°C 91°F, Precipitation: 12%, Humidity: 72%, Wind: 8 km/h.To Stephen on Newsfeed: Unfortunately that has been a 2 thousand year old tradition among Christians. Misunderstanding is understandable. Standing by misinterpretations is demanded but inexcusable imho. I'm not Christian. I get tired of the outrage and infighting while basic decency is set aside. You think your 'wrong' neighbor is going to Hell? Give them a going away gift and smile, always smile, genuinely smile. Ask for a postcard.  To huser:pickmarvilla for "Welcome to my crazy life update"  : Glad to hear that things are being sorted out. A car and a dog. Part of me wishes I had both. Living with someone has been a blessing for me. I go back to my lonely room in Montana next month and may have to ask pointed questions about rent. I cannot afford to pay double what I'm paying. Rich folks are buying second and third houses, turning them into AirBnBs or leaving them empty most of the year. Prices have skyrocketed and rental companies are price-gouging.. I may be forced to relocate to Thailand or elsewhere where at least I can have a nice life without the financial stress. I want to move to Kansas or Iowa but that's more expensive than staying put in Udon Thani.  Choices and decisions. We each face them. Sometimes they have happy endings. Enjoy this moment and hopefully your future decisions work out for the best." To {huser:tuozzo re blog {item:1411600 "I haven't ignored you but I do want to apologize for waiting so long to comment. Memorializing this journey is most suitable for getting back to blogging. It may also help you in the future looking back. Come September, I hope you can get back to writing poetry and/or songs. And keep blogging. "When you reread this next year and sigh, "what was I thinking", you'll have a good enough reminder not to do it again!" "Hmm... lost my comment (computer issues). This is a bit of a 'wake'. 1. Casserole delivery? Can someone babysit with tea, coffee, crumpets? An old auntie, parent, student, neighbor, friend... someone from church. Not there to do anything except give emotional support. 2. Can your husband take a day or two off... if necessary? 3. What more can be delegated or hired out like you did with the piano? 4. Is there anyone else who can meet with the landlord? 5. You seem to be good at organizing, delegating, knowing your limits, physical and otherwise. Have you given yourself a pat on the back? You deserve one." To huser:beholden in "A Long Lost Tale" "I'd be livid. I do get the 'detachment' concept of having to let go... but others (especially family) stealing, lying, trashing and much much worse... disregarding someone's feelings... is inexcusable. I have my own stories. It erodes trust and once broken that's hard to repair. Healing can take years. I lost everything years ago. I force it out of my mind because dwelling on it isn't going to bring anything back. I chose forgetfulness and building a new life." "It's impossible to know what will trigger others. Or what others may find offensive... (I am not always tactful). I tend to be easily triggered due to multiple traumas. I'm just a Big Bruise. Forgetfulness may not be as powerful as forgiveness, but sometimes that's the only tool available."  bogs. Maravilla/Michelle/Beholden exor. 300/200/200/300 = 1.000 93 degrees. obsv. 1 fly, few birds, no butterflies, child with a white 'car' (he spoke in English), child picking orange flowers, distant thunder (now close), train. ss&s.My computer is acting up today. I lose entries. It randomly changes screens. My nerves are shot. The 31% chance of precipitation is storming outside in a blustery downpour. I'm sure the temp has dropped! The weather sites are a bit behind the present conditions. walk. After the rain. 24 degrees. shop. croissants, Birdy, potatoes tv25. Hidden Agenda PorP. Unfinished "From the tower... [180.101]" ""Hats off." 🇧🇬🇱🇹 A20 [102] 39w 'requirement'" 19 สิงหาคม 2566 - 180 19 كمال  news. The threats by Virus 45 need to stop. The death threats against leaders and their families needs to stop. เที่ยง. Mostly sunny, 93°F 34°C, Precipitation: 3%, Humidity: 60%, Wind: 2 mph. Sultry. I'm finally functioning. Pan cooked; I helped (onion, squash, carrot). PorP. "Open Hearts of Isan 🇹🇭 A19 [100] 40w 'open'" bogs. Bryan/Lyn/NormaJean chat. Nan at Surada while Pan went to the dental clinic.It's 97 degrees at 5 p.m. Hopefully the rains come back next week. It's too hot to do anything outside other than sit and chat. It's too hot inside because we have a west wall that soaks up the heat of the sun. I opened the doors and windows as it was hotter inside than out. At some point I'll put on the a/c to bring the bedroom down to 26c degrees. pool. Found 2 20 baht notes; "dived" for them. Pan asks the girls if the money was theirs. exor. 200/100/200/400 = 900. 90 degrees at 8 pm-ish. tv25. Only Friends. At least Pan laughed at one part. 18 สิงหาคม 2566 - 180 18 كمال A brush caresses his long grey tresses, a hand untangles the strands, a voice calms the stress. To have lived long enough to see the fruits of one's labors to live longer and see it all destroyed... This was the curse his grandfather had mentioned, the one he now knew he had to abide. His thoughts were on the Moon, his silver hair resplendent. The brush moved slower now. There was no one else to attend him.  To Holly on fb: "As in... you can verify. But is it the same for your neighbors? *sarcasm* I know you are talking about weather, but verification (and lack thereof) applies to much of social media when posters repost posts of people they don't know personally about places they have never been and events they have never experienced." Virus 45: https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/politics/what-s-he-got-to-lose-fascism-expert-say...  edit. "Obituary for a bad boy" posted on newsfeed for comments/reviews. เที่ยง. 90 degrees. Partly sunny. walk. rose, watermelon. foto. SS&s. chat. with Rick, Pear and guests. วิดีโอ. at soup place near by. Pan was happy. tv25. Dangerous Romance... triggered me. The bullying bothered me. exor. 300/100/200/300 = 900. 88 degrees at 22:02 PorP. "Empty 🇨🇦 A18 [99] 40w 'vast'" 17 สิงหาคม 2566 - 180 17 كمال Decisions. I didn't like the Hop Inn but changing hotels can be a nightmare. Next time I'll try Man U or Lertnimit. Going to sights would've cost 3.000 baht and I wasn't up for it without knowing I had a place to stay. So we headed home. By-the-way, there are 4 buses to Udon and 3 to MahaSarakham/RoiEt. No one seems to know these things. The last bus on both routes leaves at noon.  ss&s. เที่ยง. trip. bus to Udon. foto. วิดีโอ. walk. shop. pork, bread, carrots... tv25. Home School... almost finished on tv. exor. 200/100/200/250 = 750. 84 degrees at 22:00. PorP. "Greenland isn't green. 🇬🇱 A17 [98] 40w 'clear'" 16 สิงหาคม 2566 - 180 16 كمال Ached all night (good bed, but...). Morning has broken and we need to go out and eat. There's only coffee until 11 a.m. I managed to spill cup #4 as I went to open the door to room 415. Hop Inn is sterile. Mid-American suburbanites would recognize a chain motel. It's that and nothing more. No charm at all. But... its near the bus terminal for buses to Bangkok (south), Chiang Mai and Nan (west then north) and Surin and Ubon (south then east). Buses north leave from Terminal 1, a bit of a walk. It's a place to stop for one night. Traveling means:  pool. exor. book. เที่ยง. About 88 degrees and cloudy. news. or foto. วิดีโอ. at wat. shop. 7/11 for water, snacks, stomach meds. Pan feels better, but... face. foto of rice with duck and soup, another of Prang Ku. bogs. Hooves/Jessica/Jeff walk. Prang Ku. Small Khmer site. Wat. Pan walked! with me. chat. Swede from Malmo. PorP. "Ryokan etiquette 🇯🇵 A16 [97] 40w 'formal'"  tv25. Home School and Wedding Plan. To {huser:soledad_moon question on the Newsfeed "Could someone explain why I've decided a naga uta storem is a good idea?: "Yes. Oh, you wanted an explanation! Why? Simple... writing outside of one's experience or comfort zone enhances one's ability to write. It's good for the brain and sometimes has felicitous side effects. You may also bring something to the poetic table that others do not. Your unique point-of-view and style of writing expand the corpus and may show what the form is capable of. If not... so be it. You love mental challenges and this is but one of many. My advice? Go for it. To 4provinces re "You Tube Cute & Educational & Gossipy Videos" I watch youtube videos on Thai language but really like subbed Thai TV series. I've learned a lot about culture and admire the actors. Unfortunately, that makes Hollywood ventures disappointing. I also watch reels and tik-tok and Reddit's AITA (well... sometimes we all are...). I learn some things; but, what I learn most is the point-of-view of those who comment... and how ignorant we all are in general. If Oliver makes you happy?  Go for it! To dunkelhetstern (Jessica) "Ghosts and Memories" "My journal and blogs keep so much alive... I've used them to remember, process... then let go.I sleep 'alone' when I travel, sharing a room if I'm in a hostel. I live alone in Montana; but, sleeping next to Pan makes me happy. My friend Gary reminds me of my father. I met him about a year after my father died. Marilyn (who helped me get disability) reminded me of Marilyn (my former boss I didn't get along with). Very similar in appearance and personality. Interesting juxtaposition. I'm glad you had Nan for all those years.  "To Jeff in "The Struggle is Real" "I have no problem discarding the OT that covers the trials and tribulations of one tribe (out of many). They are of historical use. Proverbs, some of the Psalms, Ecclesiastes, and the story of Ruth are worthy of reading and rereading by most anyone of any religion. But, some of the other parts of the Ketuvim are bloody and present the xenophobia and vengeful nature of a persecuted minority. Esther and Psalm 137:9 is hardly a way to go forward with peaceful relationships. The Red Letter Jeffersonian Bible may be easier for non-Christians. The epistles and commentary seem to be time-specific and have been weaponized by some Christians. Hebrews makes some valid points about 'faith' as does James about putting words into action. However, the Bible, even the NT, is not a cook-book imho... just saying. The texts are old. Reading it in English is as disconcerting as reading any other Scripture not written in English (basically none before 1830). Translation is more than word1 = word2 (too many false cognates in related languages Norwegian/Swedish, English/French... and Thai versus English ).You make a valid point about interpretation. We are not the All-Knowing, All-Embracing Creator. Humility is a key to any approach to Scripture." To Robert: "I remember the Jetsons. Flying cars! Robots that clean! Those two they got right. But why did it matter at the time? Folks wanted faster, freer, and less work. I suspect that hasn't changed. Starbucks succeeded because people wanted faster and no fuss coffee; the price didn't matter. And AI may succeed for the same reason that Rumba has. Other, darker, sci-fi-fantasy looked into a dystopian world where even growing food was an act of courage. And that fear... still exists. Thai culture is more concerned about political/cultural issues (told at a slant) or avoiding them by focusing on nonsense. Lots of nonsense that resembles the American sitcoms of the 50s or 80s. Slapstick, soap operas (lakorn), or friend dramas like "Friends". What succeeds... or doesn't... reflects on the present day psyche of a group of people. Shows like Star Trek, Twilight Zone and All in the Family were indicative of the angst of their times." 15 สิงหาคม 2566 - 180 15 كمال  Thai. 'naa'+ = worthy https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tGGHkfmQHGU trip. 4 hours by mini-van, Udon Thani to Chaiyaphum. walk. 2 longish walks. foto. walking, and from mini-van. วิดีโอ. from mini-van. PorP. "Disculpe 🇨🇷 A15 [95] 40w 'freedom'" tv25. The Jungle. test. "Ides of August " Just because... and an entry supports Petra's contest. Day started out okay. We took Grab to the station, bought tickets 250 x 2 = 500 baht. Trip was uneventful. Hop Inn? Institutional. 1.460 baht for 2 nights. I 'sweated like a pig'. Totally soaked. Very worn out when I lay down. Groggy when I got up. Pan got sick to his stomach. Lost evening. Chaiyaphum is a bit slower pace. I could carefully cross the streets. There are a couple things to see outside of town (waterfall, parks, flowers, stones, lookout) and Prang Ku ruins from the Khmer. Tomorrow? 14 สิงหาคม 2566 - 180 14 كمال  wash. Pan washed; I got 10 liters of water for our jug. เที่ยง. 88 sweaty degrees... again. It cooled overnight, but as soon as that sun comes out... ss&s. very late before going to bed. foto. walk. twice. shop. snacks for tomorrow PorP. "April in Luxembourg 🇱🇺 A14 [94] 40w 'hard'" chat. David. Went out for pizza. news.  bogs. No time. pool. No time. exor. 200/100/100/200 = 600. 81 degrees at 22-ish. Too tired and busy to do more. Thai. tv25. Missed it ytBL. No time. trip. Reservations Chaiyaphum. Checked bus schedule.7833 |
| Twenty-first Week of the Year 180. (exercise) = Exor. (observations) = obsv. (s***,shave,shower) = ss&s. (read something) = read. (comment blogs) = bogs. (BoyLove series on-line) = ytBL. (Thai TV BL series on GMMTV25) = tv25. (write poetry or prose) = PorP. (take a daily walk) = walk. (buy something) = shop. (take a photo) = foto. (video) = วิดีโอ. (speak Thai/Lao) = pôod. (learn Thai) Thai. (go-into-the-water) = pool. (clothes) = wash. (cook something) = cook. (tidy up) = mess. (travel) = trip. (noon) = เที่ยง. (talking to ex-pats/travelers/strangers in European) = chat. (Thai teaching book) = book. (hand-written journal) = jour. (contests) = test. 13 สิงหาคม 2566 - 180 13 كمال ss&s. foto. วิดีโอ. Pan feeding fish and petting them. shop. Fresh tilapia. เที่ยง. 88 sweaty degrees at 12:34. By noon Pan and I had gone out to eat rice and then stopped by the Chinese Cultural Center where Pan made merit, offerings and fed (and petted) the fish. Then the market. I returned tired and soaked from sweating. PorP. "Lost in Luang Prabang 🇱🇦 A13 [93] 40w 'classic'" chat. with Pear at Surada. Rained! Temp came down to 77 degrees after the rains. news. deSantis is going full-fledged fascist. face. Put video of Pan and his fish ... but not the one I just ate. bogs. NormaJean/Tracker pool. Pan watched. I did a bit better with breathing but can't move well in the water. exor. 300/200/200/300 = 1.000 It was cool after the rain. No problems. No bugs either.  Thai. Level/With-whom/relationship/Time&place https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lqvoc5ovJc0Late downpour with wind! Really blew things around! Cooler too. Sprinkles afterwards. It takes time from the clouds to wring themselves out. 12 สิงหาคม 2566 - 180 كمال 12 It's becoming too much effort to just get up. It's already 84 degrees at 10:13. Two cups of coffee... I need to eat. Pan is up and about, has been to 7/11 and cooked. I'm listless. Today is the Queen's birthday. It's designated as Mother's Day throughout Thailand. Pan went to Nong Bua Lamphu today. Visited a waterfall. ss&s. PorP. " OnTheWayToŠiauliai 🇱🇻🇱🇹 A12 [92] 40w 'similar'" walk. chat. David, Nan. foto. tv25. Only Friends #1 and part of Law of Attraction. exor. 200/100/200/200 = 700. 86 (30) degrees at 22:00. Thai. feelings https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-tCvGjIMVZg bogs. Scarlett/Mighty/Beholden blog. "Scarlett, Mighty and Beholden" Disaster of a day. 85 degrees at 11 p.m. 11 สิงหาคม 2566 - 180 كمال 11 Forecast: Isolated thunderstorms 91°F° 33C Precipitation: 30% Humidity: 69% Wind: 9 mph It's already 83 or so degrees at 08:15. It never cooled over night. I'll need to be careful today (and change into cooler clothing) I cover up in bed because the a/c freezes me even when the fan is on a low setting. woke. I got up. exor. 300/100/200/300 = 900. Nine-ish. 82+ degrees. I felt weak and woozy. ss&s. bogs. SciFi/Harlow/Neil เที่ยง. 86 degrees (30C)To huser:spacefaction in "Biggest Mistake of Them All" "I'm having issues with my LeNovo chromebook. The screen jumps around and even shifts or closes tabs. I lost about 300 words a couple days ago and I haven't gotten back to writing. At least, I remember the basic premise. I've considered writing everything by hand. Glad to hear that you were able to resolve the problem." To huser:wolfgang in "Invalid Entry" I am not much of a joiner. I'm part of a couple facebook groups including one of old WdC members. But I have always been contrary and most groups prefer non-boat-rockers. One sees that here at WdC. Not a lot of critical thinking. Not as much creativity as one would expect. Nor as much expertise as one would hope. The level of experience? We have some new teenage members and those are to be encouraged; however, many groupies who won't venture outside of their circle of safety. I suspect some are literally afraid of going-to-hell if they interact with un-washed heathens. I miss open-mics. I miss writing groups. I miss cafes. I'm not having any success in Thailand; but truthfully, Montana, post-covid, was dismal as well. The creative people went into their shells and didn't come back out. To huser:neilfury (Neil) in "Another Step Forward...And Another...And Another." I remember when folks thought of houses as a home instead of an investment. But, I'm living in Olden Tymes. I exorcised this morning as usual. Unfortunately, I felt weak and woozy. My way of handling that is to not overdo it. It's a few minutes before noon and I've managed to shower and eat. And... I don't feel a need to take a nap. Small victories still count. PorP. "Red white and grey all over 🇵🇪 A11 [91] 40w 'reckon'" walk. chat. With Pear, young Japanese guest and Rick. Rick re ex-pats who belly up to the bar: "This is their last train stop before Purgatory." shop. coffee, Milo, dolly (fish). Ate the dolly for din-din. foto. orchid. face. posted pic and video of buffalo. tv25. final "Be My Favorite" ytBL. Enigma คน มนตร์ เวท | EP.3 REACTION Midnight... 83 degrees.  In "Salon" by Chauncey DeVega quotes Bessel A. van der Kolk's book "The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma"... "Being traumatized means continuing to organize your life as if the trauma were still going on—unchanged and immutable—as every new encounter or event is contaminated by the past. "The greatest sources of our suffering are the lies we tell ourselves." 10 สิงหาคม 2566 - 180 كمال 10 Today is "renew my visa" day. So... I did.. To R.E. Pete on the Newsfeed: My "Blood of the Garlic" characters are mostly named for garlic: Ajo, Bawang, Thoom, Sara Shoom, Czeszniak, Knyflok. Clovia? The rest of the cast: Brett, Bunny, Mr. Nightengale, Lily, Old Sniffer, Betty and the boss, Meadowlark. We vampires and wannabes mostly get along. There are so few of us... we hang by our fangs together. Many of the stories/vignettes that need editing are found here: "Blood of the Garlic" . Email to 💙 Carly: I read "A Needed Change" . Are you the one stirring the pot with this story? ~ 296 words makes it flash fiction but it's more of a vignette or a first chapter than a short story.I liked it because I sit in a condo on the 8th floor and can gaze at the clouds gathering. Just took a peak. They seem peaceful; but, one never can tell when a fist fight will break out in the heavens. Thailand isn't heaven... just so you know; but Udon Thani is fairly peaceful and this 14 story condo (6 towers) is very quiet. In some ways it would work well for an urban get-away. Pan just cooked. It's nice to have an 'assistant'. Email to bob county: I just read "The Magic Medication Cap..." Yep. Some folks vote for their vagina, others vote with their dick. At age 70+ I try to vote for a better future that I won't live long enough to see. As God is my witness... I'll vote for the betterment of humanity and the life that surrounds it and supports it. PS: I do not try to control other people's innies or outties. PPS: You capture some of the present cultural/political issues. Most people have just enough energy to live their daily life, with little to spare. ss&s. visa. Renewed until Sept. 9th. blog. "Setting like the sunset" bogs. Carly/Glarg/MuzzyBob news. Maui... . Stephen Miller  . ytBL. Started watching a reaction to Enigma ep. 3 with ENG subtitles. Helps. Thai. Very useful words. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2_9aQYJIdKM walk. saw buffalos. petted one. foto. yellow waterlily. buffaloes. วิดีโอ. buffalo. chat. At Lotus in English and Thai. Croissants. pool. Pan watched. I didn't stay in long, short-of-breath. exor. 200/50/200/200 = 650. Problems coughing at #2. After 7 p.m. 88 degrees. PorP. "No smiles 🇪🇪 / 🇷🇺 A10 [90] 40w 'worst' " rose. white. tv25. Home School.9 สิงหาคม 2566 - 180 كمال 9 exor. 300/200/200/300 = 1.000 bogs. Tracker/NormaJean/Grace blog. "I do what I want when I can with what I have." เที่ยง. 84 degrees. Sun and clouds. ss&s. walk. got a haircut. PorP. "Comiche 🇫🇷 A9 [89] 40w 'attaction' " chat. Gene, David. tv25. Home School and part of Wedding Plan. shop. marked down goods at Lotus. Around 7 p.m. is the best time.8 สิงหาคม 2566 - 180 كمال 8 Dreary morning. Roar of the jets. bogs. JCosmos/Patricia/Sara blog. "Thai smiles ... or not... on a Pank Day. " เที่ยง. 84 degrees and a tad muggy. exor. 200/100/200/300 = 800. Sprinkles and a stiff breeze. ss&s. PorP. "White Town 🇷🇸 [87] A8 40w 'tough'" "Under a sky full of stars [180.88.zm] 8-lines" ytBL. Final episode of Home School. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IcejvE3edAc chat. Michel (From Germany. Happy because his divorce was finalized today.) walk. shop. Marked down pastries and coffee. pool. Pan kept watch. 'Cold' water. Didn't stay in long. tv25. The Jungle. There are two Nannons? Thai. 10 Foods https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bkc5SxO8ZPYWhat happens when the mayfly has one day to live... and it rains all day? 7 สิงหาคม 2566 - 180 كمال 7 Look... I got up. Some days that's enough. The struggle can be real. Even after coffee. Note: 1 August – 19 August is the Baha'i month of Kamál (كمال) - Perfection, excellence, fullness, consummation, maturity. I'm feeling none of that... sorry. It drizzled while I exorcised my ennui. Not much to observe. One stray mosquito, no butterflies or even flies! I suspect everything is waiting for the y } peak out. The damp clothes are b.e.a.r.l.y drying. I try to not provoke them. Pan is up and functioning. Hiccups most of the night... I do appreciate his good mood. But, I'm listless. It's nice when we both have a good day... on the same day. Ah... Thai and English. "Wing" is part of a bird. And I consider baht to have wings... especially the 20 green plastic note. The 50, 100, 500, 1.000 fold better. In Thai though วิ่ง [wing] means 'run'. Does money fly on wings or does it run? exor. 200/100/150/250 = 700. 81 degrees, 10:46-11:05. Drizzle.  เที่ยง. 81°F 27°C; Humidity: 77%; Wind: 3 mph. PorP. "Bless your heart 🇧🇪 A7 [85] 40w 'nice'" test. "Jacarandas" Pan left for friends. Who knows when/if he'll be back as he's disappeared before, especially when he's depressed or manic, and broken promises. walk. After 10 p.m. City looks very different when everything is closing down. Pan home before me. chat. David. ytBL. Home School ep. 17. There's hope, but still gruesome. |
(exercise) = Exor. (observations) = obsv. (s***,shave,shower) = ss&s. (read something) = read. (comment blogs) = bogs. (BoyLove series on-line) = ytBL. (Thai TV BL series on GMMTV25) = tv25. (write poetry or prose) = PorP. (take a daily walk) = walk. (buy something) = shop. (take a photo) = foto. (video) = วิดีโอ. (speak Thai/Lao) = pôod. (learn Thai) Thai. (go-in-the-water) = pool. (clothes) = wash. (cook something) = cook. (tidy up) = mess. (travel) = trip. (noon) = เที่ยง. (talking to ex-pats/travelers/strangers in European) = chat. (Thai teaching book) = book. (hand-written journal) = jour. (contests) = test. 6 สิงหาคม 2566 news. https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/us/the-biggest-threat-to-america-isn-t-trump-or-m... exor. 300/200/200/400 = 1.000 79 drizzly degrees. เที่ยง. 79°F 26°C drizzle PorP "There 🇺🇸 [84] A6 40w 'failure'" bogs. Neva/Lyn/Joy blog. "August rains down upon us" ss&s. face. photo of lantern (bought in Luang Prabang) that Pan set up last night. walk. We went to see Barbie. foto. Barbie. tv25. We got back late. Pan has hiccups but doesn't want to go to 7/11... another day he'll spend in bed. Another day wasted for me. I did my exercise in the drizzle. I fetched filtered water. I will attack each task without joy, but in the knowledge that in the end it matters... to me... if no one else. Depression creeps in when I realize 'I matter to no one else". No one calls. No one sends messages. No one comments. I could scream and no one would notice. But that's hyperbole. Someone here would chew me out for screaming. And, yes, people do care... a little... and even send me a message! or comment on spoosebase! or speak if I speak first! or... well, that's about the extent of it. To huser:nordicnoir (Ned) "Wonderful poem. I see it in my mind.  I don't have these memories of my childhood. I couldn't see without my glasses and wasn't allowed to play with them. Someone throwing a ball at me was terrifying." To QotD: "My phone is a hotspot in Thailand. In Montana? Go to a cafe... if one is open. Activities off line: walk, swim (not alone), try talking to people! (not always successful). In Montana I could read or watch movies. In Thailand I can watch TV. Years ago... just visit friends and play cards or chat. Years ago... garden. I don't have a garden and I don't have friends anymore." ![Merit Badge in Fantasy Writing
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 5 สิงหาคม 2566 exor. 300/200/200/300 = 1.000 10:01-10:35 75-79 degrees.  Rain. news. wash. Done. Hung. เที่ยง. 79°F 26°C blog. "Warped Health Shoon ... A Single-service Society." "Intersections, home or no home? " bogs. Lilli/Beholden/Petra ss&s. PorP. " Grenada 🇳🇮 [83] A5 40w 'beauty'" To Neil: "Yep. Yesterday had one horrendous moment. Today is much better. I am aware about the lack of quality in Thailand but for many things... like shirts... it's not an issue. However... shoes are a different matter. Overall, stuff is so cheap (when compared to US) that I don't worry much about that (I'm a worry-wort). I am irked about this being a throw-away society though. That's hard for me. I feel safe in Udon. Being gay or being in a relationship isn't an issue, especially in Udon. Being a foreigner isn't a problem as well. The people aren't born thieves (like in Costa Rica) or violently confrontational (like in the USA). However, I walk... Thai's don't and crossing a street needs three Hail-Mary's. Plus, I feel desperately isolated. I'm still breathing, although frequently short-of-breath. Thanks for responding." shop. veggies, pork, eggs. tv25. Enigma คน มนตร์ เวท. Spooky ending.  walk. two short forays... but no long walk like yestereve. Pan is jealous if I go out at night. pool. Ask Pan. pôod. a little. 4 สิงหาคม 2566 bogs. Robert/Neil/Joshua blog. in progress news.https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/us/why-so-many-americans-have-stopped-going-to-ch... face. foto of dates. อินทผลัม เที่ยง. 79 degrees. some sprinkles. exor. 250/100/100/250 = 700 79 degrees and sprinkling. cook. Dates, onions, bologna over rice that Pan cooked. Decent.Pan is sleeping in... I get worried but what can I do? If he is eating (I remind him) and taking his meds he should be okay, but I check on him to make sure he's still warm and breathing. ss&s. shop. 7/11. coke. PorP. "Loggia dei Lanzi (Firenze) 🇮🇹 [82] A4 40w 'pain'" walk. foto. chat. Short chat with Pear at Koala. She also owns Surada next to where I live. Coffee? ytBL. finished Home School ep. 16. (w.o. Eng sub) Almost at the end. Extremely disturbing. 79 dregrees at 00:11. Never got hot. Sprinkling. I made a big mistake today. I always make mistakes when I get frustrated. And then I may have made another. But... I decided to take a walk, a long lonely walk at night. That helped a bit.  3 สิงหาคม 2566 news. same-o same-o. face. bi-color waterlily. เที่ยง. 82 degrees  exor. 200/100/150/250 = 700. 82°F Damp, puddlelicious. 12:17-12:39 foto. วิดีโอ. swing. chat. David x 2 (re meds), Rick. bogs. Sonali/Phyllis/Tiggy and GreenWillow. blog. "Holding on, letting go, or never giving up. " walk. rose. shop. octopus, chicken, 2 potatoes. tv25. Home School. pôod. With Nan at new soup place. Pan 'woke up'. Unfortunately I feel like a wet noodle. He's chipper. I'm depressed. At least we both ate a little. He went... somewhere... called... seems happy. He cooked in the evening: chicken with malago, potato and egg.  2 สิงหาคม 2566 exor. 200/100/200/300 = 800. Fairly cool, damp, 79°F. Saw Tom. bogs. NormaJean/Annette/Lyn blog. "Green weepy day" เที่ยง. 81°F  PorP. "The path of sweets. 🇵🇹 [80] A2 'sweet' 40w" face. Incredibly quiet considering... posted pic. news. A five letter word used to bid in bridge was just indicted. walk. foto. my neighborhood. test. "Green ink" To Shadows&Light. "After oolong tea" To Intuey. shop. food. The important part was getting Pan out of bed and out to the market. Still not well. tv25. Home School. kinda. Thai. Close sounds... very good! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WxqXAev_ZZA Midnight. 80°F ![Merit Badge in Fantastic
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(exercise) = Exor. (observations) = obsv. (s***,shave,shower) = ss&s. (read something) = read. (comment blogs) = bogs. (BoyLove series on-line) = ytBL. (Thai TV BL series on GMMTV25) = tv25. (write poetry or prose) = PorP. (take a daily walk) = walk. (buy something) = shop. (take a photo) = foto. (video) = วิดีโอ. (speak Thai/Lao) = pôod. (learn Thai) Thai. (go-in-the-water) = pool. (clothes) = wash. (cook something) = cook. (tidy up) = mess. (travel) = trip. (noon) = เที่ยง. (talking to ex-pats/travelers/strangers in European) = chat. (Thai teaching book) = book. (hand-written journal) = jour. 30 กรกฎาคม 2566 jour. Page 5387-5388. exor. 300/200/210/300 = 1010. Pan hugged me too tight = bruised ribs. obsv. two birds with long tails (drongos?), yellow flash of a birdwing, b&w butterfly, sprinkles. PorP. "Alien in Aisle Eleven! [180.75] 8-lines " "Glacier [74e.zm] 39w J18 'emotion'" "Last day [74f.zm] 40w J19 'enthusiasm'" เที่ยง. Mostly cloudy 87°F 31°C. Sultry. ss&s. blog. "Fanged in the Summer Heat" ytBL. Home School ep. 16 first half. pool. I couldn't cross it 4 times... tv25. Hidden Agenda... yet another silly BL. walk.I had to update chrome. So far... ts'okay. Pan is preparing supper and I'm chilling for a moment. He doesn't want me to go swimming because it's sprinkling... if it were thundering/lightning I'd understand; but, he's also not 100% and has offered to watch over me whilst I practice. I won't go in alone. In fact... other than walking I'd rather not do anything alone. Age has caught up with me and I just have to be flexible and kind to myself.  29 กรกฎาคม 2566Grey start to the day. 79 degrees and damp. The beginning of a week with rain. 89/77 forecast for the week; better than glaring sun and 90s. Doors are open except for the bedroom with the a/c on. I was able to adjust the a/c last week and this is much better but cool air blowing on me isn't good and my mouth dries out. The normal daily steam-bath is better for my skin and as long as I don't exert myself or stand out in the sun I'm okay. Life is a tad boring at the moment. I do my routines and I'm writing a tad more; but, my mind wanders, and that's not always good. Woke up to a familiar nightmare this morning. Soooo... not good. PorP. "Playing hide-and-seek" private, needs editing. "Morning glories [73d.zm] 39w J17 'grow'" bogs. Stik/Judith/Harlow exor. 400/200/200/400 = 1.200; 11:00-11:26 79 degrees. obsv. yellow leaves, few flitters, breeze, puddles, sprinkles, fairly quiet, slippery; white trumpets sag, their crenulated finery transparent after the rain, leaf fall, flower fall, after the rainfall, I slide across the slippery pavement. news. Nothing new. เที่ยง. 82 degrees I ate coconut curry, mushrooms, glass noodles over rice (very good) but had to lay down. I'm exhausted. ss&s. face. blog. "Dutch raspberries? " walk. shop. cocoa, sweet. pool. short; Pan not well. tv25. Enigma. ep. 3 Common ep.6 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QSgKDw8kjhY 28 กรกฎาคม 2566 exor. 300/200/200/300 = 1.000 About 84 degrees and this morning. Too hot when the sun's out. ss&s. face. photo of Birdy coffee, market cat. PorP. "Dragon and Rat. [73c.zm] 40w J16. 'face'" เที่ยง. 88 overcast degrees with a breeze. Thai. routines ep 1. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ab-7F54b0dQ&t=29s ...useful & delightful. bogs. Nikola/Annette/Whirls blog. "Navy blue day, Zmitri, not baby-blue, Bunny." Muse. 2125220 Prompt 1. They were traveling the peaceful seas, Zmitri but the fire in my stomach — and the ice in your craw, began to rumble as the waters began to churn. Those who survived our tantrum spoke of mythical creatures at the edge of a flat earth. But it was never flat, was it? And when the molten core meets the leaden skies the waters cannot calm Earth's inner torment, nor ours. I wanted you; you wanted... anyone else. I needed your ice to put out my flame. The seething seas were not amused. Was I to blame? Orion witnessed this wondrous event and invited us to join him Among the Plieides we found a new home, stirring up the cosmos, still ice and fire amusing each other in the chase. 2295490 Prompt 1. Urban fantasy. The jacaranda was swaying aloft. Nothing to note at this time of year. One flower fluttered to the pavement where Ping picked it up. He smiled until it turned bled purple and left a mark on his palm. Something to note. He went to the nearest washroom to his hands and glanced in the mirror. The pale image wavering back glowed an odd shade of indigo, turning a deeper purple, before he blacked out. news. In one word... T***P... again. In two words? Typhoon Doksuri lands in China. Thailand? H.M. King Maha Vajiralongkorn birthday. walk. on the other (east) side of the tracks. foto. shop. banana, malago, onion. pool. the pool is about 10m wide and I was able to cross it twice without problems. tv25. Be My Favorite. Script is complex, w.o. subtitles I get lost, but the acting is good. ytBL. Home School ep. 15. Extremely disturbing. No light in the darkness. It will get worse... 27 กรกฎาคม 2566"All is not lost" a prompt from Chicago for "The One-Line Lyric Challenge" by Anni Pon  exor. 200/100/100/300 = 700 very warm. Finished late. ss&s. Note: I have no energy, physically nor mentally. I'm sucking on fumes. bogs. Annette/AnniPon/Tracker blog. "Rethinking routines... too much, too little, distracting? " Mostly sunny, breezy 34°C 94°F at 14:00. PorP. "Distortion [73b.zm] 38w 'image' J15" ytBL. AiLongNhai https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5u67yutflQU Thai. eat (review) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OiR6ErzltdM walk. foto. วิดีโอ. Chinese Cultural Center. shop. ice cream, mushrooms rose. old rose news. face. photo of Pan. tv25. Home School. pool. Pan had a stomach ache.Overly warm day. May be why I didn't feel perky. Anywho... I took it easy. 26 กรกฎาคม 2566 exor. 200/100/150/250 = 700 (swing,sway,swirl,cycle); 81 degrees at 11:01. เที่ยง. 30°C 86°F; Precipitation: 4%; Humidity: 77%; Wind: 8 km/h. Afternoon should be sunny. bogs. Shar/Smee/DaveRyan blog. "p.o.v. of moles, birds, butterflies; girdles and book covers" ss&s. PorP. "Love bugs [73a.zm] 'love' 40w" Muse. shop. Eggs! Not quite a walk though. pool. tv25. Home School.The ants act excited, it's a cotton-puff day. It's their last, but they don't know it. I zig-zag the chalk that will shorten their lives; and, ask myself, what will lengthen mine? It's ninety degrees and I wilt as the taro fields look weary. But the ants seem excited. Am I jealous of their ignorance. Am I too spent to care? Pannya is having a 'rest day'. It's warm but breezy with the windows and doors open. I'm just practicing breathing. I've been short-of-breath and I don't know what will help with that. I've mentioned this to Pannya as it's important when I'm trying to swim. I could go farther if I could hold more breath. I also panic. But I am getting better in the water. Time to get a mask (and eye goggles) and ask everyone as someone might know a solution. When I have had enough I sit in the shallow kid's section and practice floating, breathing or just relaxing looking up at the stars. The pool is good for my skin, in spite of the chlorine. My feet are looking much better. A nice warm "bath"... does things for me that a hot shower can't. Pannya wants to swim at 7 p.m. That's a good hour... most days. I must say that my routines are helping me emotionally, physically and otherwise. I should tweak them but frankly? I'm a tweaker, so I needn't worry. My list gets longer or shorter depending on my mood and circumstances. Some days I'm just doggy-paddling. And that's okay. They damned me to hell, never asking me whether that's where I wanted to go. They said I could be saved by ritual and confessions of faith; but, rituals are mere motion if not backed by belief, and confessions would expose my secrets. My mother kept the secrets and I feared her reality more than mere man-made fiction.  25 กรกฎาคม 2566 exor. 500/250/250/500 = 1.500 Yes, I can do this but 1.200 is a better level for now. ss&s. face. photo of flower. news. privilege is not being charged for posting illicit photos, MTG... เที่ยง. 86F 30C degrees. bogs. Intuey/Elle/Robert blog. "Cars, ADS, BLs, Mercury and Me." PorP. "A Republic... if you can keep it. [72] J13 39w 'democracy'" wash. Pan does a big wash. Thai. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ITcORbfjYAU How to use "bàeb(แบบ) & yàang(อย่าง)" walk. pizza with David. chat. pool. tv25. "Jungle"  24 กรกฎาคม 2566 exor. 400-200-200-400. 09:39 75 degrees. obsv. Girl playing, squad of butterflies, hummer-moth, spent white trumpets (last night's rain) katydid, last orange flowers aloft, a breeze, sun peeking in-and-out. ss&s. เที่ยง. 87°F 31°C; Precipitation: 61% chance... hopefully it'll rain; Humidity: 71%; Wind: 5 mph. PorP. "Miss Martha Louise [71] J12 40w 'root'" walk. chat. bogs. Neil/Intuey/Sara news. face. ytBL. Home School ep. 14 "Revenge" pool. s.o.b. spent time in the wading pool. Not a good day. tv25. The Jungle. Dark, seems shallow. May be worth watching for the actors in new roles.Forty forty FORTY 07/24/2023-'root' Martha Root traveled the world, toting hat boxes and luggage to meet Queen Marie of Romania. She was rootless but not ruthless. She was a champion of a cause. 07/25/2023-'democracy' You voted? Nah... Why? Why bother? They're coming for your brother you know. Take him. And they have eyes on your sister. Let them. 07/26/2023-'love' I beckon your lips. I caress your hips. What do butterflies know of love beyond the sip of nectar, Zmitri? Do they share kisses or embrace in a hug? Are they merely bugs... 07/27/2023-'image' A breeze ripples the water, distorts the reflection of the lily. Your voice echoes in my mind and your image wavers with lost time. Zmitri, I miss you. 07/28/2023-'face' On the face of it, I've faded, Zmitri. The fire in my belly has become a dying ember. But I'm still a Dragon in love with a Rat. Fire in love with Water. 07/29/2023-'grow' Intertwined the vines grow together reaching new heights, ropes turning leaves to the distant sun, flowers nourishing bees. And what of these? Two lovers hugging Zmitri? It should be you and me. 07/30/2023-'emotion' Your cool depths betray no emotion. Your surface remains un-rippled. I would drop a pebble into your frozen puddle, Zmitri, to let you know that I've visited. 07/31/2023-'enthusiasm' Galaxies swirl in a dance, suns mere eddies on the stream of cosmic consciousness, the rock we sleep on provides respite from the never-ending enthusiasm engulfing us. Rest, Zmitri, tomorrow I leave. |
| (exercise) = Exor. (observations) = obsv. (s***,shave,shower) = ss&s. (read something) = read. (comment blogs) = bogs. (BoyLove series on-line) = ytBL. (Thai TV BL series on GMMTV25) = tv25. (write poetry or prose) = PorP. (take a daily walk) = walk. (buy something) = shop. (take a photo) = foto. (video) = วิดีโอ. (speak Thai/Lao) = pôod. (learn Thai) Thai. (go-in-the-water) = pool. (clothes) = wash. (cook something) = cook. (tidy up) = mess. (travel) = trip. (noon) = เที่ยง. (talking to ex-pats/travelers/strangers in European) = chat. (Thai teaching book) = book. 23 กรกฎาคม 2566 exor. 400-200-200-400. 10:01-10:29 77-82 degrees. QotD. A list of 5 from least to worst: 5. Having a gun (real or fake... never knew) put to my head. I was cool and collected. 4. Being forced to drive to the border (I stopped at the precinct instead). I was mindful and focused. 3. Waking up to someone in my room standing by my closet. I was screaming and hysterical. 2. Being caught in a riptide, Cahuita, 1974 whilst I was walking alone. I was terrified and panicked! 1. A couple events from my childhood I cannot remember. I still am frightened of heights/edges and despise birthday parties. Trauma is never what happens. It's how the body reacts. Being homeless triggered traumas and was traumatizing in itself. I have a whole list for that and other events. My high-anxiety and deep-depression stem from those. I'm actually doing much better these days. เที่ยง. 82 degrees ss&s. Put extra lotion on my nose and ear. Skin issues. bogs. Jennifer/Mouse/Elizabeth/Teresa Thai. Review of bpai/maa (go/come) PorP. "Duality [70] 40w J11 'unit'" ytBL. Home School ep. 13. The drama was intense. face. foto of lily. news.Re deSantis' Florida: "Another Reddit poster chimed in, “First, they will drive out the trans families and gay-accepting families. Next, they will drive out liberals and democrats. Next, they will drive out any minorities who are able to move away. Finally, when everything is just white, they’ll drown due to the climate change they don’t believe in.”" shop. rice, soap, greens pool. met Pookie, Pienneung pôod. a little. วิดีโอ. posted. tv25. "Hidden Agenda" seems to be just another rom-com."...or when you die even the worms will reject you." 22 กรกฎาคม 2566 Crash, boom, splash. It rained overnight. exor. 400/200/200/400 = 1.200 84 degrees 09:13-09:38. spoke to Tom. ss&s. bogs. Stik/Tim/Steph/Hooves/Petra jour. page 5384-5385. PorP. two in my journal and "Improper? [69] 39w J10 "improper"" เที่ยง. Hot. 91 degrees at 13:10. foto. Hour long photo session with Pan. He needs to understand that as a photographer I think of color, texture, composition, his placement (as an object), lighting... his wants/needs are secondary while I'm shooting. Otherwise, he's just wasting my time. He mostly cooperated and we may have taken over 100 photos; so, I hope he finds one he likes. face. news. blog. "Integration... of working, playing, staying" tv25. Enigma. pool. walk. shop. Ground chicken and pork.To Mary Martin Arnold on fb: "OMG... that is spot on! I remember Brandon... very violent alcoholic. In getting to know him I realised that drugs and alcohol were his meds. His severe depression was one of his main problems." 21 กรกฎาคม 2566 Hotter day today. 88 degrees going on 2 p.m. exor. 400/200/200/400 = 1.200 It would be nice to do this everyday. 77-81 degrees at 09:38. obsv. Stationary butterfly = pic. "Dreams of Butterflies"? Green roots of the orchid. Saw a huge 25 cm+ yellow black butterfly but wasn't ready to take video. When I was ready it was high up in a tree. Underside was bright yellow as was its body. I thought it was a bird at first. face. Posted butterfly pic. "Lime butterfly". news. Thailand... ss&s. Late.s.o.b. ... c.o.p. = short-of-breath ... change-of-position. bogs. Sonali/Tracker/Robert. walk. shop. soap, nam jim. PorP. "Mother sang solo [66] J9 40w "music"" pool. I swam a bit but short-of-breath. Need to work on endurance and breathing. tv25. Be My Favorite.I'm really worn out... again and again. Kissinger visits China at age 100. I'll be amazed if I last until 80. I'd like to... and certain choices on my part are helping. But, I'm just worn out. Moving to SiSaKet would be another yearlong commitment... possibly 4 years. I should write about "A difference a July makes". Last year was brutal and Bry and Angie helped get me through it. This year Pan is helping in ways he's prolly not aware of. I'm doing better, just super worn out. 20 กรกฎาคม 2566 bogs. Maravilla/JimD/NevaTo Neva: "The notion of letting my imagination ... follow the migration of my wandering muse speaks strongly to me." เที่ยง. 81 cloudy degrees. exor. 300/200/200/400 = 1.000 Not as tired today. Muse. Grey pall and the pity of it all, preying for rain like a lonely lion wanting showers to wash away the ennui, a daily refrain in Paradise, now paved and packaged. ss&s. Cut my toenails. face. Posted pic of "Ducky and the Dragon fruit".To Erasmus on spacehook: "Of course, one can do this anywhere. I was grateful for the clouds when I worked out this noon. I will be grateful for the rain this week. I'm grateful for rice, baloney, and raisins? Pan cooked for me this morning and the daily hugs and kisses. And today I seem to have control over my bodily functions... that's a nice power to have." news. "2 killed in New Zealand" Should we be scared for the Women's World Cup? Not! "Russia to deem Ukraine-bound ships 'potential carriers of military cargo' from Wednesday eve." A much bigger concern with global food repercussions. And then there's this crap: https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/us/the-12-oldest-schools-in-oklahoma-have-aged-we... I want to know whether the author has ever been to Oklahoma and whether they have ever heard of the Cherokee Nation which opened schools in 1851. White-washing? Hard for me to say because the author seems to be faceless and could just as easily be sitting in NYC or Paris writing. Or even AI... just saying. PorP. "EttaJames "Something's Got a Hold on Me" [65]40wJ8 'culture'" Thai. wai mai = you okay? can I help? https://www.youtube.com/shorts/ln_s8TsKPLY walk. shop. Red rose for Pan, lotus for merit, fish, carrot, limes. pool. Water felt cold! But it's never below 75 at night... I'm feeling more confident every time. tv25. Home School #8 ytBL. AiLongNhai #2 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cJl-Lnhybh8Plah chon (snakehead) tastes really good with malago (green papaya). We could smell it coming down the hall after swimming. 19 กรกฎาคม 2566 Muse or Mojo? My Muse has been nibbling. I have no Mojo. exor. 200/100/100/250 = 650. I may rethink how I work out. It was 82 degree when I began after 10 and still 82 when I finished at 10:33. obsv. Weak... black/white flutterby. Spider hiding under the stationary bicycle. Gnats. A bit of sun. A bit of a breeze. Yesterday I took a photo of a branch peeking out under the bench. Today it's gone; the Grim-Shearers have been doing their job. Muse: Kindness, cruelty, the urge to criminalize, nitpickers. Dualists and their dueling gods, Salvationists, Kintsugi and embracing imperfections, Nitpickers and Perfectionists, Gatekeepers. Cruely and Punishment. To Judith: "The gnats were troublesome but saw a spider (there hides hope).""You can write the perfect essay but you'll never be an Emily D or James Joyce." Yes, spelling and punctuation have their place... behind the Muse and not blocking their creative vision. ss&s. wash. I washed out my black long sleeve undershirt... Should do this every day. BPbp. 138/77 pulse 67 at 11:11. food. Pan boiled eggs, peeled them then fried them in oil and added pork and greens. Served over white rice. foto. bogs. Nikola/Viv/Judith face. I checked in. I should check in every day but limit it. news. The same. Check in once per day but limit it. เที่ยง. 86 cloudy degrees. ytBL. อัยย์หลงไน๋ AiLongNhai. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dNiWCfKR-4w walk. Saw Vigo. shop. Lotus... mouthwash and bouillon cubes. pool. I actually 'swam' a bit without panicking. I'm making progress. tv25. Home School #7 and part of Wedding Plan The Series แผนการ (รัก) ร้ายของนายเจ้าบ่าว Thai. verb particles https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b7kJttNs9aM PorP. "David's a cold embrace [64] 40w J7 'value'" ![Merit Badge in Shadows and Light
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| (exercise) = Exor. (observations) = obsv. (s***,shave,shower) = ss&s. (read something) = read. (comment blogs) = bogs. (BoyLove series on-line) = ytBL. (Thai TV BL series on GMMTV25) = tv25. (write poetry or prose) = PorP. (take a daily walk) = walk. (buy something) = shop. (take a photo) = foto. (video) = วิดีโอ. (speak Thai/Lao) = pôod. (learn Thai) Thai. (go-in-the-water) = pool. (clothes) = wash. (cook something) = cook. (tidy up) = mess. (travel) = trip. (noon) = เที่ยง. (talking to ex-pats/travelers/strangers in European) = chat. (Thai teaching book) = book. 16 july exor. 100/50/100/250 = 500. It was 88 and hot at noon. Busy morning. ss&s. cook. Rice with squid and pork. wash. Pan did a big wash. PorP. "Count me out [180.61] J4 40w" "Traveler, tourist, toad [180.60] " bogs. Mousethyme/Sara/Tracker pool. So thrilled. Light sprinkle. Important for Pan's health. walk. foto."Personally, I think each contest entry should be answered with a comment or a review. Any type of acknowledgement is encouraging. I renew here at WDC, now in my 18th year, because it was a virtual home when I had none. Writing is cathartic and I improved over time; although, with age and circumstance, I'm now fading.' I should always carry my notebook. I was in the pool when my Muse spoke about sparrows and sorrows. No memory now. Went to BK in search of the all cheese 'burger'. Maybe elsewhere... not here. 15 july bogs. NormaJean/MightyJen/Lyn exor. 300/100/200/400 = 1.000 = very good. 88 breezy degrees at 11:11. obsv. pesky flies, scarce butterflies and birds, semi-cloudy, breezy, 'not hot', twitter, but generally hushed. I change position, speed, direction on the 4 station exercise spot by Tower B. I do 'units' of 20, 40, or 50. Today went well. I would like to sustain this level every morning. ytBL. Homeschool ep. 12 ss&s. mess. progress. shop. chicken and squid, coffee, Milo. Plastic bowl. walk. chat. David. tv25. Enigma... very very very dark. PorP. "Lessons to learn [180.59] J3 38w" Thai. Bpai/ma https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gQ6HbV0ZoRoPan is home. 7 hour or more bus ride. He ate a little... sleeps. it's 22:11 and we have the a/c on. I sketched a 'personal essay'. "Traveler, tourist, toad [180.60] " I'll need to edit by 11 a.m. ICT and post to Petra's contest. It is what it is. It was worth an hour of musing. It's 23:24 and the rumble of thunder surrounds me as Pan gently snores. 80°F 27°C and sprinkles at midnight. 14 juillet  bogs. Nikola/Phyllis/Carloyn/Robert exor. 250/100/100/250 = 700 It was 88 degrees or so at 10:20. Saw Tom and fledgling mynas. cook. Rice with carrot, papaya, greens, garlic, eggs and flavor cubes. Took all day but I ate it all. walk. foto. chat. Rick ss&s. Even though Pan isn't here. PorP. posted "From the window [66]" to contest. ytBL. Homeschool #11.To Nikola on Newsfeed: Nice assortment of animals. Not everyone can get to a zoo or refuge so it's great that there are outreach programs. Children need to connect with the diverse world around them. Books and videos can help connect, but actual presence matters, jmho. Glad you work in a place that allows/encourages this. To cappucine in her blog: Chicken: "Squawk". Poop. I have tried to eat less; but, Pan is concerned if I don't eat with him. I suspect it's a cultural insult, so I eat a little of something cheap and simple. He's out-of-town today so I made rice with carrot, papaya, greens, garlic and seasoning. We have pork but I wasn't in the mood. His work trip is buying second hand clothes and re-selling on social media. Lots of cheap clothes in Thailand. Lots of second hand clothes in Montana too. I'm not reading books these days. I've focused on learning language and culture. My writing has suffered but I'm not as depressed as I was 2 years ago." Is this Q? https://slate.com/news-and-politics/2023/07/sound-of-freedom-caviezel-ballard-tr... Pan mis-messaged me and I thught he was home. I video messaged back to confirm.. He says he comes home tomorrow. Yes, I miss him. 13 july exor. 200/100/100/200 = 600. 09:00 (not hot yet) Weighed myself. 80.0 kg. ss&s. walk. Added baht to my phone. Treated myself to an onion pastry. foto. tv25. Home School. bogs. Joy/Whirls PorP.Pan went to Ubon today. Got up early! Arrived around 3 p.m. He's shopping. This may be good. Splotch and Shelly. "Splotch hadn't eaten in three days. He nibbled on a toe, avoiding the nail polish. Shelly had always smelled good. She tasted good too. ... Found after wandering for two months, Splotch was skin and bones ... Ted and Letitia hugged him. He wagged his tail until he caught a glance of the half-empty nail polish bottle. It glared at him." 07/13/2023-'tiny' "So small, like glitter flittering between the flowers. Jojo sat in awe at how tiny flickers of light had gathered by the hundreds. The truck pushed them out of the way. But they gathered again. Safety in numbers. Hoards. He got up to join his friends. Edited in "Safety in numbers [180.57] 40w J1 "tiny"" I hope to get back into the daily routines. 12 days in Laos was a nice but expensive break. 07/14/2023-'high' High. Low. Hello? No. Hi? Lo! As in...? "Lo, the nightingale singeth upon the tree..." Oh... that Lo is... Not Lois, not a person named Lo. Oh, Lo is a bird? Nope. "Lo, the Nightingale of Paradise singeth upon the twigs of the Tree of Eternity, with holy and sweet melodies, proclaiming to the sincere ones the glad..." 07/15/2023-'lesson' What can I learn from you? You're sweet. You're kind. You're steam-rolled every day like a rug. I'm harsh. I'm self-centered. I'm a bulldozer. Yes. Need a hug? 07/16/2023-'count' Vampires only count the centuries. Single digits means you're still young. Are you a teenager yet? Look into my eyes and see my vast past... and the short path of your future. 07/17/2023-'myth' Myth Judith wuvs me; this I know. Her witchy friends on me bestow... the ground below my feet that grow, tendrils reaching towards the core, the raven croaking, nevermore. Midnight: 81°F 27°C; Precipitation: 6%; Humidity: 83%; Wind: 4 mph = a sultry tropical night. 12 july walk. exor. 200/50/50/200. Evening. trip. approx. 10:00 - 16:00 foto. post. Card sent to Gary from Luang Prabang.Not enough sleep last night. Drowsy. 2 hour train trip Luang Prabang >> Vientiane was brilliant and comfortable. We caught the bus directly to the border (20.000 kip). No problem at the border. My new visa expires August 10. I'm worn out. Pan cooked but I have no appetite. Rained. Very gusty and refreshing. Did a short workout. Not much else. Word: psithurism... wind in the trees. 11 july WDC: "So many choices; but, let's start with bread. The smell of fresh baked bread reminds me of my grandmother and I'm 7 again. It brings me happiness. I like a crisp crust, a doughy inside, a sweet rye (think Swedish limpa), the thin flatness of lavash, the thicker pita. Add some raisins and cinnamon. What does bread feel like? Soft. If it's hard as a rock it's good for dipping; if it's croutons ... soup; crumbs ... stuffing. Add corn, rice, oats, rye... why not. What does it sound like? A crunch, a child begging, a scream when the ants have found it, a thud when it falls on the floor. How does it move? It has the wings of a raven or the legs of a hungry mutt. And it floats until the ducks or goldfish eye it." I should've added: sweet, sour, spicy, cardboard... It's a sky blue day as Pannya and I are wearing semi-matching light-blue shirts. We went to an old wat. This made Pan happy. Took fotos and video. 20k entry/each. walk. foto. วิดีโอ.Paid for an extra night in Luang Prabang. We both like it. An Austrian mentioned that it reminds him of Graz. I've been to Graz... I see what he means: river, old town, hill. Graz is European but so is Luang Prabang. A mix of Lao and French culture with more recent Vietnamese. European and Chinese tourists. Walkable. Beautiful. Vibrant. 10 july Went to the waterfalls. Long winding trip by mini-van. 250k total for two. Met Wong TianYu from Giulin, China. I went in the water. Very nice but cold and the slippery rocks created problems for me while the fish nibbled. Met a woman from Gent, Belgium, a couple Australians from Sydney, a 21 year old man from Wien who has worked as a volunteer in Viet Nam and Guatemala (I was impressed). Pannya loved the waterfalls and the pools. Keeping him happy is a priority of mine. We are having problems communicating. Long walk in the evening through the wonderful night market. walk. foto. ytBL. chat. pool. trip. วิดีโอ. |
| (exercise) = Exor. (observations) = obsv. (s***,shave,shower) = ss&s. (read something) = read. (comment blogs) = bogs. (BoyLove series on-line) = ytBL. (Thai TV BL series on GMMTV25) = tv25. (write poetry or prose) = PorP. (take a daily walk) = walk. (buy something) = shop. (take a photo) = foto. (video) = วิดีโอ. (speak Thai/Lao) = pôod. (learn Thai) Thai. (go-in-the-water) = pool. (clothes) = wash. (cook something) = cook. (tidy up) = mess. (travel) = trip. (noon) = เที่ยง. (talking to travelers/strangers in European) = chat. 9 juillet 2023 Morning. At least I slept well. At 08:12: 81°F 27°C; Precipitation: 14% chance; Humidity: 89%; Wind: 0 mph. So: calm, humid, warm, some sun. At 20:24: 82°F 28°C; Precipitation: 4% chance; Humidity: 82%; Wind: 0 mph. walk. I couldn't go up the hill. 300+ steps? foto. Pan took some for me. wash. Cost 120.000 kip. More expensive than Udon or Missoula. Didn't get much done because I was tired and Pan napped for hours. Saw Germans we met at Vang Vieng. 8 juillet 2023 Heavy rain overnight but cleared by the time we took the train. Lovely views when we weren't in a tunnel. There shortly after noon. Shuttle to town was 35k kip. Went to wrong Jasmine, but it was close, 5 minutes. Unfortunately, water issue. Canceled and reserved at Noknoy instead, which was 2 minutes away on foot. Wonderful part of town with charming alleys, markets, view of Mekong. Still sick but getting better. Very difficult evening. trip. To Luang Prabang. Uneventful. shop. Bought "lantern". walk. night markets.7 juillet 2023 7/7 is fine as long as I don't think about 1977 or 2003. foto. trip. Went to Angel Cave with Pannya. He's happy. About 745 baht.Electricity went out in the morning. We relax in the a/c after our cave walk. Sunny, hot day. Paid for 5 nights and train tickets to Luang Prabang. Bus is slow and treacherous; slow train is fast. 6 juillet 2023 Hot day. 88 at 16:00. Funeral today. Did stop by. There were hundreds wearing white. I'm still sick. walk. foto. Thai. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k6qn5JvH8uQ bogs. Grace/Neil/SonaliTo huser:innerlight (Grace) in "Entry July 5 2023" :The a/c is on and we're barely moving. I've been ill for 3 days. Details? Not a good way to lose weight. I'm blessed to be able to breathe the moist air. I prefer Rainy Season to Smoke Season (I'm in Laos). To huser:neilfury (Neil) in "Replacing Internal Chaos with Peace" : "Slow. My travel is slow this week. Day 6 in Laos. Sick for 3 days. Pannya wants to do things but Laos is more expensive than Thailand and right now I can't join him. We did get to a funeral today. Two among hundreds. The heat didn't help. I keep my place in Montana... just in case. My rent in Udon Thani is paid through November. So much for me to consider but today I'm not up for much of anything. Slow is okay for anyone. At my age there are days I'm perky... other days "slow" is as good as it gets." To huser:eager2write (Elizabeth): "I'm disconnected from my "former" life. Nostalgia just saddens me. I tended to be withdrawn and not 'present' so these memories are foggy and a bit disturbing. I need to focus on the present but I'm ill today and Pannya is bored and disappointed. Hard to make new memories at the moment." To huser:mesonali (Sonali) in "July 5th Ugly" Yep. In Thailand it's skin-whitener. Pannya knows I don't care. I can only hope that that helps his self esteem. However; in this short-short, I think 'advanced' or 'becoming better' or 'becoming more civilized' may be stronger than 'civilized'. To Charlotte Holley on FB: My posts are photos I took. I usually add place, date and what-it-is. Not to prove anything to others... but to help me remember. Birds? Very hard for me to capture. Flowers? Easy, but the fake photos annoy me to the max. Food... don't get me started." 5 juillet 2023  27°C 81°F; Precipitation: 100%; Humidity: 95%; Wind: 3 mph. at 08:20.I'm still not well. Pan sleeps. I'll need to ask him about meds, whether he would like to stay here another day (we can), and whether we will venture out today. walk. chat. foto. วิดีโอ. Much later... still suffering so I decided I need to eat bread. Easier said than done. But owner gave me a loaf and I found some coconut cakes. Pan is always hungry but I was fine letting him go out alone after I told him what was wrong. I got wet but not soaked on my search for bread. It didn't rain as much as forecast. Pan checked prices of hot air ballooning and trip to lagoons... very expensive. To huser:soledad_moon (Stik) in "The Physicality of the Freeze Frame" "Nice. Your description brings the place and Dana alive. Of course... how old is Dana? Is she as old as my vampires? Some are a bit stiff. Dana seems limber. And, is she really just a photographer? Yes, I want to know more."To huser:eagertowrite (Elizabeth) in "My Fun Fourth of July" "I remember my uncle's birthday. He was born July 4, 1918. We'd go to the shanty which was surrounded by pines and had a pond (I know I was there when it was made). Fat burgers! My mother normally made skinny well-done burgers, but that side of the family preferred juicy, dripping, pink in the middle...July 4th wasn't always warm; but, we'd light a fire and we'd sleep on cots wrapped in blankets. Vague memories from long ago." To huser:elle (Elle) in "First week and a half of ADHD meds" : "It takes time... and even then meds oft-times need adjusting. Keeping track isn't silly though. The no-change list will probably get shorter. With work... can you tweak the hours? That would've worked wonders for me. My daily to-do list isn't being followed on this trip but I'm still more aware than before." 4 juillet 2023 walk. To Lilli: ควายพูดภาษาลาวไม่ค่อยเข้าใจ แต่ฉันมองเข้าไปในดวงตาคู่สวยคู่นั้นและไม่ก chat. I've been deprived. Today: Germans (4); Dutch (2): French (2) brother/sister from Marseille; L, age 23, from Scotland. foto. Pan, food, procession. วิดีโอ. 27°C 81°F at 14:32; Humidity: 95%; Wind: 6 km/hIt rained most of the day. Saw a procession; crossed a bridge and saw two hot air balloons; coughed when I got a whiff of chili. I have mixed emotions about Vang Vieng. It was a party city and that legacy is still evident in who comes here, what activities and foods are offered. It's a lovely setting but too touristy for me. I had diarrhea... no need for details, but it made the day difficult. ![Merit Badge in Encore! Encore!
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| (exercise) = Exor. (observations) = obsv. (s***,shave,shower) = ss&s. (read something) = read. (comment blogs) = bogs. (BoyLove series on-line) = ytBL. (Thai TV BL series on GMMTV25) = tv25. (write poetry or prose) = PorP. (take a daily walk) = walk. (buy something) = shop. (take a photo) = foto. (video) = วิดีโอ. (speak Thai/Lao) = pôod. (learn Thai) Thai. (go-in-the-water) = pool. (clothes) = wash. (cook something) = cook. (tidy up) = mess. (travel) = trip. (noon) = เที่ยง. 2 juli 2023 I was up too late, now up too early. Back to nap. ytBL. Home School Ep.8 foto. เที่ยง. 30°C. Sticky. May rain tonight for 3 days. Thai. Jai https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rfJCsPR3llM walk. pôod. wash. Pan washed clothes by hand. Food here is expensive. 58.000 kip = 116 baht for a simple meal. Might not be so cranky but no breakfast because we got there after 08:30. Only toast, egg, cucumbers. Stressful day... my fault. Did meet an English couple from Manchester, Cheryl and Kevin. Trip to Vang Vieng straightened out. Bus at 11:30. 300 baht. Staying at Maylay for 3 nights as I figure adding a night will be fairly easy. Clue: buy a mocha at Amazon with baht. Get change in kip. Went to the night market and Pan made me eat (pork-rice balls? very good). Met a couple from Kapstad, Suid Afrika, Karen and Johan?. 1 juli 2023 exor. 200/50/50/200 = 500. 82 degrees at 09:10. ss&s. ytBL. trip. Took about 3 hours to get to our hotel. Much nicer room than last time. bogs. Mighty/Chy/Robert walk. foto.I will eat. I will finish packing. I will... put on clothes. Goal is out of here around noon. Getting to hotel in Vientiane by 2 or 3 will be fine. My routines will basically be broken for this trip. To huser:missbusta07 (Mighty) in "it's friday, i'm in love" :I usually wear the color-of-the-day. It really helps me know what day it is. However, today is a purple day and I'm wearing dull orange and tan. I love cashmere. I'm happy with good clothes if I can get them second hand. I actually did a short workout this morning before going to Laos. My routines will be disrupted for 10 days or so. I weigh 81 kg. My goal is 75. But... I shouldn't care too much; losing weight slowly would be best. To huser:amalthea (Chy) in "Never get put back together" : "Reached a couple June goals, canceled a couple others. Finishing on time has been a life-long struggle. Knowing when and where to cut (my loses)... priceless. To {huser:cathartes02 (Robert) in "Moonshine" "The Moon is made of cheese... specifically government issued orange processed cheese. The cheese was sent there to keep it frozen until needed by the aliens who invented it. They then left for one of the dark moons of Jupiter but haven't made it back yet. They will be back though... just you wait and see. In actuality they orbit around a common point... me!" 30 juni 2023 "Tourist, Traveler, and the Toad" Thinking of "Writing 4 Kids" Mole: I see what I see if it's right in front of me. If it's daylight. You don't need to leave the light on. I can sniff my own way in the dark. To huser:wiesblaize (Petra) in entry:1051800 "I have to exercise and walk every day. Easy in the 6 condo towers. We have a small 4 station workout place outdoors, an indoor exercise room (that I don't use). We also have 3 pools. I put swimming on my to-do list. I have been afraid of water since I was a child; so, this is good for me. I remember seeing the ocean for the first time when I was 21. I remember the blackness, the stars, the Southern Cross and the terrifying immensity of it all." To huser:intuey in entry:1051822 "My life has changed drastically in the past year. I had this crazy idea of traveling around Thailand... but I ended up in a condo and a relationship. Both totally unlike me. I even work out each day and go swimming. I've been allergic to any notion of taking care of myself in the past. I live in small places. I'm a depressed clutterer who can't get rid of anything. A small places puts limits on my insanity. Entering contests is one way to restart the writing-engine." To huser:annipon re "Turning blue in June" "I vote for the Pomegranate. Ancient symbol for many things.I absolutely don't do resorts. If I did I don't know whether I'd join in with people or hide. The neuro-science gathering seems promising. NaNoWriMo can wait for a different month... maybe October? Choose one that will allow you to focus without too many interruptions... one with 35 days is best. Montana Smoke Season is brutal (especially if there are 'controlled' fires in Idaho). Smoke in Isan started in February and lasted through April in Thailand (due to a government mistake and lack of ASEAN regional cooperation). I love Rain Season. I do not like SADD (both summer and winter for me)." "I like the beginning of Spring and Autumn. Growing up, summer was too hot for me; winter too dreary. In the tropics (Thailand 16 degrees N; Costa Rica 9 degrees N) the end of Cold Season is Hot! Hot and dry and smoky and may be great at a beach but not for me. The rains are a godsend; but by the end... the grey skies and deluge is a tad too much. In both places that would be March-April and September-October... kinda... sorta... I'd rather be in Montana during those months; but, reality has fangs and bites.  I can get a arctic-summer-high. However, that's not good for my balance either. I had to be careful visiting Norway in summer and winter." exor. 200/70/100/230 = 600. 84 degrees at 09:20. ss&s. wash. Hopefully most is dry by tomorrow morning. bogs. Anni/Petra/Intuey. TODAY'S FOCUS MUST BE ON TRIP. เที่ยง. 91°F 33°C; Humidity: 67%; Wind: 5 km/h foto. วิดีโอ. Chiang Rai Exibition. tv25. Be MY Favorite trip. Hotel reserved. Partially packed. Have money (dollars, baht, card). ytBL. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lHV3DdOMFnkFinished with Bard's blog contest. 27°C at 11 p.m. Very stressful day. Partially packed as Pan folded my clothes. He didn't have a meltdown even though I did. His meds must be working! Reserved 2 nights in Vientiane. Same hotel but better room. About 1,110 baht ($30). We made this run in March so it's easier the second time. 29 juni 2023 Not well this morning. I slept okay but I'm still sleepy at 10 a.m. My anxiety is 'killing me' which is usual but never welcomed. exor. 200/50/100/300 = 650. ss&s. pôod. Saw Tom. My confidence builds even if my vocabulary lags. 86 degrees bogs. Sharon(fb)/Elycia/Harlow Thai. formal/informal https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8pdKXDVEhnc walk. foto. Exhibition. pool. Water was warmer and less chlorinated. tv25. Home School. 82 degrees at midnight isn't good... just saying...To huser:cloud9 (Sharon West) on fb: "You are totally mould-less or is that moldless ... apparently neither word exists but you certainly do! What it isn't is zippity-do-da Doris Day (loved her by-the-way) but maybe it's a croon... a very dark moaning croon? I dunno. I don't understand genres in general (too restrictive imho) and molds don't suit me well. Choice of black/white works well." To huser:brontosaurus (Elycia) entry:1051693: "It seems like a peaceful flow... do you manage this? I'm more of a rabbit... running from task to task, but like a turtle... slow, slow... slower. I make lists in my "garbage can a.k.a. dumpster" blog to keep track and remind me. It works most days. I do tend to start with a brief workout, mostly because it's too hot after 10! I wear sweat pants and a long shirt (Thai flies are pesky and mosquitoes are mean). Speaking/listening/learning Thai is another daily check-off. Walking is crucial but swimming has been more sporadic as I won't go in alone (don't like water). Reading? I try to read 3 blogs/day. Writing? Depends... I have to make a visa-run and considered Malaysia. Flight or train to Hat Yai... cross to Padang Besar... easy peasy; but, I'm too stressed to do it at the last minute. Train is 33 hours from Udon! Perhaps in August. huser:wolfgang (David) entry:1051774 "Are you saying I can see-or-skip "Asteroid City"? May I assume one lives inside the asteroid? Imagine a hundred asteroid cities with inter-asteroid connections. Sounds interesting to me. "Islands in the Sky?" Or is that applicable to cloud-ships sailing the mists of Venus? The Goddess needs to have a one-on-one chat with Charles and Cindy. I sometimes challenge comments, but try not to belittle the commenter. Hopefully the God of Sodom-and-Gomorrah isn't filling-in for Her that day." Pan looked good today and we may have resolved my travel issues. 28 juni 2023 Anxiety soars. Decisions have not been made. I MUST leave by July 1st. There are no 'stay' options. Laos, Cambodia and Malaysia are my choices at this point. Also... 1. I leave for 10 days, come back, renew around August 9th (must be a week-day) and leave as planned on September 8th (checked date, plane leaves at 01:00 so I'll need to be in Krungthep on 7th). Dates are specific and must be rechecked as a tourist visa is for exactly 30 days so August 9 = 1, August 31 = 23, September 1 = 24, September 8 = 31. But... I'll officially leave on 7th. Still, very tight. 2. I leave for a total of 10+ days but in two segments. A. come back around 8th, let's say; spend one month, leave around Aug. 5th, come back August 10th. Option A includes 1.900 baht renewal fee (easy-peasy) Option B must include 2 trips, visas, etc... Malaysia: plane/train; far but no visa fee; hotels cheap. Cambodia: bus or train; not as far; $30+ visa fee; hotels? Laos: bus; very close; $40 visa fee; hotels cheap but not as cheap as Thailand. Other thoughts: 1. Visit Elycia in Malaysia? Timing would be key. She's far busier than I am. 2. Holy Day in Battambang, Cambodia on July 9th. Holy Day 16-17 October may be better (two cheerful days, better weather). 3. Laos has embassy in Vientiane. I could try to get O-visa. I won't be in Phnom Penh or KL or if I am it won't be sufficient time. Laos would be best option for visa. I could visit Vang Vieng or go further north or south to Suvanaket. Important dates to remember in Thailand: Jul 28; Aug 1,2; Aug 12 (Mother's Day); Aug 14; Sep 24; Oct 13; Oct 23. These are important as government offices may not be open. A short border run now means a longer one later; a sufficiently long one means a short border run later or a renewal. This is trumping my writing and routines this morning. Very important to NEVER have visa or money issues when traveling. exor. 300/50/150/300 = 800. Would like to do this every day. 81 degrees at 09:15. obsv. puddle; sun and shade; cirrus, cumulus, con-trails, puffs; flutter of butterflies, large, medium, tiny; wet leaves glistening (yesterday's rain), 3 men with a loaded trolly; bird carrying a prize for its nest. ss&s. เที่ยง. 32°F 89°C; Humidity: 67%; Wind: 3 km/h. Thai. Body parts https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R3FxhwPWVm8 edit. "The Shallot" "While you were snoring" (and posted) walk. foto. Pan and wat. bogs. Sorji/Muzzy/Joy 29 degrees at 18:01. It wants to rain. Sprinkles earlier. pool. Water felt cold and chlorinated. Didn't stay in long. tv25. Homeshool Ep. 1 27°C 80°F and humid at midnight.Anxiety soaring. 303 Creative v. Elenis: A case of "White Woman's Tears". To huser:forgiveness (Sara) in entry:1051682 "Family. You have a life... and a family. Never underestimate those blessings. Games and books = a movie? For some reason I thought of the ancient movie "Tron". We keep rice and coffee in our place at all times... and eggs. So much one can do with rice. We walk to the nearby markets (street vendors, stalls, etc.). At my age I'm very very careful No lifting for me! I do a mini-workout every day when I'm home and walking is on my checklist. Use it or lose it! I don't know whether I've lost any more weight, but I don't seem to have gained any back... so that's good. " To huser:muzzy43: "Read a bunch of your short entries in your blog "That is perfectly normal... Maybe." . I like the randomness and flow. That said, I think that "Glen Beck is a UFO." poses a serious question and the idea of humans becoming pets isn't too far off base or too far off time-wise. But pets can and do control their 'masters'. Ask any cat willing to tell the truth."To huser:joycag (Joy) in entry:1051675 "Patchouli... the original Time Machine! We use rose a lot here; The smell of durian will make you run! But in Montana I love sandalwood and lavender and cook with herbs de Provence. I'm moody ... so perhaps I'm more affected than most folks. I don't have the allergies that many complain about. Wonder whether there's some sort of connection?" 27 juni 2023 exor. 200/50/50/200 = 500. 81 degrees at 09:54. Saw Tum. pôod.On the Newsfeed: Phyllis: I spend too much time in my mind. It's why walking and working out are daily goals. I used to garden... I'm considered 'intellectual' by some. They don't always mean that in a positive way. But in a world of boxes that bind, inhabited by bozos in blinders, I 'forget' that I'm supposed to keep my mouth shut. So... what could you note? 1. alliteration! 2. this is a response to a comment made in my blog entry of blog comments that I have responded to and further mused about [in] "Over-responding? Nah... *tries to hide*" . 3. It's short! I can be 'chatty'. 4. It's a bit introspective (I don't make enough time to contemplate my navel). 5. It's written and shared. That last point is key. Too many people have thoughts that they don't write down, refuse to edit (I edited to get that desired alliteration), don't think are good enough to post and then THEN put on private because they are frightened to share (sometimes with good reasons, but...). It's important to share your life. I've said this soooooo many times. "Your boring mundane 'unimportant' life is fuel for my poetry and prose." YOU INSPIRE ME! Consider finding an old diary from your great-great-gran... would you focus on correcting its grammar, be bored, shocked by the details, mock it before you threw it in the trash? Or would you treasure it? Imbibe and inhale it? Let it inspire you? Your silly thoughts and observations, your style of writing, your tears, anger, joy... are the treasures you share with all of us and the gold that future generations will mine. Specifically thinking of Sonali, Linda, Rachel, Jodi, and especially Bryan who practices this by sharing. I'd love to know the thoughts of a teacher, Carolyn, Steven. เที่ยง. 82 degrees and 'heavy'. To huser:LeJendpoet (Jen) re "So Much to Do" : "Advice can be used for bird-cage and litter-box lining... and can be as crappy as dog-diarrhea. So... I proceed with caution.1. You are aware that there's an issue. That's half the battle. 2. Your boss/friend/dog's-human-dad can help by insisting on work boundaries. 20 hours max? Over 2 days, 4 days, no more than 5 days (unless working 3 hours/every-day works for you like the routines of getting up and making breakfast...)? 3. There will always be too much to do. Let it go... let others... Your puppies (no matter the age) will thank you. "To Jen on the Newsfeed: "My anxiety is rising. I'd rather just stay home for the next two months. But... my butt needs to leave Thailand (for a new visa) for a day or two or maybe even ten. I don't want to. It may be a lesser known footnote of the Rule of Entropy (movement = life) versus Frictional Facts (this place feels like velcro)."To Margi (on pookfaze): "It's an issue in Thailand where 'working hard' doesn't matter. Who your daddy is = success regardless, because nothing else matters. There are other issues like colorism (whitening is a big issue here as it is in most of Asia, but in Thailand those with European or Chinese blood have naturally lighter skin and therefore... ) . I grew up in this type of environment totally unaware that there was a ceiling. Thais are aware and most don't bother banging their heads." To Elle in "Invalid Entry" : "It takes time for medications to even out. Glad you are happy to be on them in the meantime.Pan has severe medications and a diagnosis that would be greatly concerning if I wasn't already familiar with it in other friends. That said, he had a major breakthrough a couple days ago after a scary moment. He ADMITTED that he has severe issues, has to take his meds, that the side-affects are lada lada lada. His body needs to adjust. In his case he wants/needs to sleep... like 16 hours/day. So... he struggles and I struggle with his struggles. My own struggles? At my age I work around them; although, I'm not sleeping well and my anger-issues flare up at inopportune moments." bogs. Jen/Elle/Margi(fb). foto. ขนมจีน (noodles) Thai. Homophones (funny, useful): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DmZCyT5qPs8 ss&s. late... better than never... walk. stalls up around 3 p.m. chicken with cheese. foto. cat, noodles. วิดีโอ. rain at 5 pm. ytBL. Move to Heaven 'สู่สุขติ' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cltQ4U-G_BE PorP. "The view from the swing had always been lonely, except on Tuesday afternoons when the ghosts gathered to join his vigil. "Hook of the Book" and I think I've finished this ovi that I began on the 15th: "Ovi for Pan [180.56]" Midnight: 78°F 26°C; Humidity: 95% Wind: 3 km/h. 26 juni 2023 exor. 200/50/50/300 = 600. 71 degrees at 09:24 in sprinkles To huser:mousethyme (Mouse) re "Invalid Entry" : "A Room of Your Own. Yes, you are right to be grateful as you know the alternatives. I was thrilled when my disability went through and I could rent a place with a roommate, and then when I moved into my own place. Now I share... but that is my choice. So much is about options. The rest? Details. But I don't find the mundane blah-blah-blah boring. Writing? Yeah, scratch those notes down. Make a pile of them separate from the other piles (trust me on this). " re "Invalid Entry" "Not all "laziness" is just being lazy. I'm low energy. I get easily over-whelmed. Other people's expectations seldom make me do anything. If I'm not motivated it's hard. I have made writing goals and objectives before; but at the moment, I'm focused on Thai language and culture and "working out". And next week I travel. Yes, I scratch down notes. Yes, I write. But the "big" items will have to wait. To huser:pwheeler (Phyllis) re "Earthships - America's Off-Grid Desert Community" : "I don't believe in separate self-sufficient units. Yes, I think it's a good idea but off-the-grid a waste of resources imho... as are HOAs, gated communities, same-age, same sexuality, no-children, same religion, same ethnicity... The idea of recycling is great. But... there are plenty of homes in Michigan, Indiana and elsewhere that could be recycled and already have the infra-structure like roads and utilities. If these units were connected, grouped, close to markets, etc. I'd be more inclined to support them. They will remain the play-things of the wealthy, the paranoid (afraid of people), xenophobes, or the lovers-of-tech geeks. As a unit they may be sustainable and the experiment is laudable; but, it's not an open inclusive community." To huser:soledad_moon (Stik) re "Autist Behind the Wheel" : Many transit issues are cultural. In this condo people use the elevator and not the stairs. Sometimes they choose to wait for the next trip. Oft times they turn their back, and rarely exchange a word. In Japan people walk crowded streets and ride crowded trains, never intentionally touching. Privacy is coped with in different ways. Over-stimulation? It's a societal norm to not make noise on public transport. Americans tend to be more gregarious and self-centered. Americans have this image of dirty dangerous subway systems perpetuated by the media and sensational stories they consume. Sorry, Americans... Taipei and Bangkok have reliable, quick, and clean MRTs. Mexico City subways may not be new or clean but they go most everywhere. None of these systems are expensive either. The poor can and do use them; but then, poverty isn't considered a disease everywhere in the world. The Asians I've met (in Taiwan, Thailand, Japan, with a sprinkling of visitors from elsewhere) may want money, may want to be rich, (may even look down on the poor), but they don't treat the poor as poorly as Americans do. Their cities are livable and transportation is available. Is this 100% true? Of course not! I don't live in the Land of Absolutes. In Udon Thani, people don't walk. Some Europeans do (Americans don't either). But... there are 7/11s at every corner (or so it seems) and food stalls everywhere and multiple options of transport. But... people don't use public transport either. Tuk-tuks (skylab here), taxis (car and moto), private (Grab is our Uber). It's literally dangerous to walk and there's NO accommodation of mobility disable people. Apparently this is true to a greater or lesser extent throughout Thailand. Taiwan and Japan are much more advanced. Me and a car? I didn't drive until I had to learn in Kansas. I was 23. I prefer stick shift. I can zone out so I have to be careful. But I hate traffic! I love the open road, especially if I'm the only one on it. Nowadays? I prefer to stay and live in places within walking distance of my needs. I don't want to be in a cabin light-years away from humanity. I can survive in urban environments like this huge 14 story, 6 tower condominium complex. It's called a door. As to the thrust of your arguments... autism is a factor as are other personal physical and mental barriers and need to be considered. However, most people have legs and most can use them. Car-first have left many behind and further impoverished poor people. Segregation and disruption of neighborhoods and lack of investment in small businesses have gutted cities. The American dream of having three freezers (like Armageddon-Preppers), a three car garage, gated and fenced HOAs... leads to inequities ignored by the Keeping-up-with-the Jones's crowd. I put people first over personal preferences. Needs over wants. I reject the marketing notion (fallacy?) that there isn't enough for everyone. And this affects my attitude to urban design including transportation. In spite of a culture of looking out for family and friends, making merit by giving monks and beggars food or coins, general kindness (or at least the avoidance of conflict), here in Thailand there's a real issue concerning who is human. Cars are driven by humans. Animals walk. Cars have priority over animals. 'Nuff said. เที่ยง. 81 degrees at 12:14. wash. All hung up. bogs. Stik/Phyllis/Mouse Thai. this&that https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ruhK1IGlncATo Steven on the Newsfeed "Note: Look, the USA seems to have some fine people in it...": "It's a cultural-political game. Americans have centuries of erasing people (Australia is a relative newcomer). The White Christo-Fascist movement is ascendant and teachers have every right to be concerned. Tradition, preserving our culture, pedophilia, pornographic... all code words meant to cast aspersion and demean others not like them. Destroying a tolerant multi-cultural society is the ultimate goal. It's an inquisition. No one is safe from finger-pointing. Truth doesn't matter because they Know The Truth (theirs). The proponents are focused and powerful. Opponents aren't sure how to stop it. The courts have supported the notion of allowing a theocracy under the guise of the so-called democracy. Human Rights are being attacked. Can we all get along? We can but obviously choose not to. First the Insurrection, then the Inquisition, ultimately ... Amerikkka Uber Alles. And yes, that is offensive to many. But I'm tired of apathy (it can't happen here like in ____ fill in the blank with a country you hate but have never visited), hair-splitters (but this isn't like _____ fill in the blank with an historical event focusing on how the details, like hair-styles, are different), or outright supporters (believers in us-versus-them, winners-versus-losers, saved-versus-sinners) on social media (Tock-Tick,Twatter and Bookface are brutal), in the churches, running government, spouting off lies, what-ifs and what-abouts, even here. Most people really don't understand the danger of rip-tides until they're drowning. And this is not just one event. And yes, only about 25% of Americans support this but that's more than enough to create havoc and criminalize people." ss&s. shop. Durian! ทุเรียน tv25. Kinda... ytBL. Need to find a new/old one ... that's available. pool. walk. Lovely rainy day but slippery. Slow day. |
| Visa info: https://www.austchamthailand.com/6-ways-to-stay-in-thailand-for-the-long-term-an... To Rosemary on fb regarding her question, "Where did last week go?": "It went to the Old Weeks Home. They guard the memories. That's their job." (exercise) = Exor. (observations) = obsv. (s***,shave,shower) = ss&s. (read something) = read. (comment blogs) = bogs. (BoyLove series on-line) = ytBL. (Thai TV BL series on GMMTV25) = tv25. (write poetry or prose) = PorP. (take a daily walk) = walk. (buy something) = shop. (take a photo) = foto. (video) = วิดีโอ. (speak Thai/Lao) = pôod. (learn Thai) Thai. (go-in-the-water) = pool. (clothes) = wash. (cook something) = cook. (tidy up) = mess. (travel) = trip. (noon) = เที่ยง.  25/06/66 exor. 200-75-75-300 = 650. 1,000 would be a goal. 800 an objective along the way. 79 under the clouds at 09:56. obsv. pelos-de-gato = cat hairs = fine sprinkles like mist. herons hooting (is it mating season?). freshness of the air. Last night the pool was choppy after the storm; today it's glass. puddles. my pressure points. Silly putty, outrage, grunts and groans... social media? Cat-hairs. As if the herons give a hoot. They do. The morning air feels fresh after the storm. bogs. Neil/Viv/JeffTo Neil "A Sad Day to Rejoice" Yes, a fighter. Almost 90. Not bad post scarlet fever. That said, every day comes to an end. Apparently she had many happy ones and bestowed blessings on everyone she met. "Floating on a Sea of Guilt Ridden Relief" Family is an important part of a hospital stay in Thailand. They assume everyone has family and that family will visit, feed and look after needs. Families tend to be strong here; but, not everyone has one. When my mother died last year at age 99 I felt a certain-lightening. Fortunately, my sister was there and it was her time-to-go. The rage isn't good. It's understandable though. Had a good discussion about rage last night. The air-between-us seems clearer now. After the storm... the calm. Stuff. You will find new homes for some of it, choose to keep some of it, realize that with every touch you are touching something your mother once held. If you ever feel overwhelmed... let it out. Life is a series of wounds and healing. vpbanjo Viv re "Dream Voyage: Revisited" : comment in her notebook: "I don't review because I'm not qualified; plus, dreams are quirky. A blow-by-blow account of the storm (dropping into it or severely clipping the intro - the epilogue may need a word or two added, the gravelly shore was warm, grass green, trees unbent, rocks solid beneath me something short, sweet and concrete) would provide the focus for a flash fiction. 500 words? Less? More? Questions... what kind of boat? It doesn't matter in a dream, but details make a better story. What colors, sizes, shapes can be added? What sounds, smells, touch, tastes (eating anything when the storm hit? did you keep it down?). Add a back-up boiler and make it steampunk! Whatever works. This can be worked with. Personally, I'm frightened of water. I bob, don't swim. A barrel would be comforting in some ways." To Jeff "Christian Q&A + Faith" : "I'm not a Christian (no problems with Jesus). But I'll try to answer this as a Baha'i.I would repeat the three Onenesses: God is One, God's Messengers come from the same Source, Mankind is One. It has guided my life and how I act. We do not have rituals; but, I could work on prayer and being more mindful in my interactions with others. In Montana there's a mix of religious beliefs but many are Christians. In Thailand Theravada Buddhism is official but there's freedom of affiliation. In both places I need to be aware of the importance of ritual to others. My life has not been blessed by the criteria often cited by Americans; but, I've been blessed in other ways. I don't consider any burden to be placed by God. However, many of God's "followers" have been brutal in their narrow application of my-way-or-the-highway. I bear no cross; I seek no salvation. That's the burden borne by others." เที่ยง. Cloudy and 82 degrees at 12:37. Thai. Daily  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v1RQKqZu8HU pood. walk. Spoke to Ann at market. วิดีโอ. at wet-market. foto. tv25. Zero {Earth/Mix} 24/06/66   It's been a s***ty 30 hours... posted elsewhere... if I'm moved to share. exor. 200/50/50/300 = 600. Not into it but managed. 88 degrees at 09:57. ss&s. Twice... see above comment.To Jeremy (soul-writer) "Repeat Until Death" : "For some 1+1 = 3. My parents were like that in some ways. But me?I remember Kevin. I still call out his name. A part of me died when he cut me off after 24 years of friendship. It was bad timing and became a part of a downward spiral for 4 years. But time moved on even if I didn't. After 20 years would I like to hear from him? You betcha." To (cmstarrett) Charity "A New Beginning" : "When I travel I take things that I cannot easily replace... like my chromebook and charger... never forget the charger! And my extra pair of glasses (and prescription) because I've been known to misplace them. Clothes can be bought and so can toothpaste. You have wheels so no need for 50 triple-rolls of TP. Living on less though can be challenging. Following a minimalist approach might be best on-the-road. In hostels people bring books to read and then purposely leave them and pick up a new one. (Little libraries may become your friend. If you stop on libraries along the way, a donated book of yours may be appropriate. ) Same with shampoo or anything difficult to travel with. They leave it! Someone else may just need it that day. It's acknowledging that needs will always be provided. Wants? Make that a short list. Like that bracelet. Want it? Focus on what is necessary to achieve it. I use my place in Montana as a livable live-in quasi storage unit. I have less here. That said, it's time to unclutter here and there. Next stage of your interesting life... enjoy it." To NormaJean "Cheep! Cheep! Cheep!" : "Not gluing back the pieces? Kintsugi came to mind, but that's with gold. Worth it if it were a special heirloom or one-of-a-kind. Jumpy? I mean... you could write about a nervous shelf that just couldn't hold on any longer! I knew about chicks in the mail, but that's a very old memory, possible from Kansas/Nebraska, 70s. We have local roosters. The night herons hoot; the mynas chatter, the finches twitter, the swallows silently swoop." เที่ยง. 12:35: 34°C 93°F; Humidity: 57%; Wind: 13 km/h77°F Humidity: 90% Wind: 18 mph after the storm. It was wonderful! Thunder, lightning, whoosh! Doors slamming, things being blown about. I love storms. It's now 17:10 and I need to go for a walk. "A thousand words" Awful movie they say, but "A thousand leaves" would make a good short story or poem. you die as the last leave falls. Chris Carpenter re homelessness: Or both. Anyone with an extra bedroom can take in someone or even a family. Many would love to have a room of their own. Me? I've walked the walk. I took in refugees without a questionnaire and no monetary support. Why? Because there was a need and I had an empty bedroom. Chris Carpenter I was homeless for 2 years. I did not use drugs and I wasn't a criminal. Yes, there are those who do and are; but, when you've met one homeless person, you've met ONE homeless person. I do agree about developers, but common people, churches, local governments and laws (number of people per unit) are as much to blame. My conclusion? It's mean-spirited people who are the main problem. Kindness has been demonized. Helping has been criminalized. And homelessness has been monetized! Re mental illness... it' has taken over 6 months for Pan to explain his illness. I'm sure there are more details but it's progress. walk. spoke with John (Liverpool) and Nok. Also Memi. foto. shop. fish, linchee, ice cream... pood. Thai. criticism/disapproval https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hWl6BkBghTg tv25. Zero... but I've seen it before so I didn't pay close attention. 23/06/66To Sonali re "06/22/2023-'hollow'" : "I really like this. This message is 'solid'. I'd tweak it to make sure the rhythm is perfect though because it demands a smooth flow (like a flute). The rhymes work (wallow/follow not many options with hollow.) Consider: I'm saying (you/I/we) need not dwell or wallow. Some things NEED to be hollow." To Elycia re "Pocket Letters Pending " : "Cute but it would need to be sent as a package? I truly need to make some small booklets that fit into a regular size envelope (that varies by country; in the US a sheet of paper folded twice works; in Thailand?). If I'm smart I could hand-write, draw and print (adding color with pencils to personalize). I've printed out booklets in the past. I keep forgetting that you're part of the Snail Mail group. "To Rhychus re "Safe from the fire below" "I do like this! Love the line Myself, the bain of all ants. but I read it as 'brain' did you mean 'bane'? I like 'brain' better because it jars the... brain. I'd work with rhythm a bit to smooth the flow. Add a syllable, take one out. Maybe use 'can't' or 'don't' instead of 'doesn't' in line 5. And 'surely shows' instead of 'does show' in line 10 and 'volition' or 'permission' instead of 'the will' in line 11. It comes close to traditional forms (ballad comes to mind) so maybe this or one of your other poems would fit the Trad Poems contest once Brenda starts it up again." "We're all just farts in the wind." "Fireproof" by Vanishing Vapor  exor. 150/50/50/150 = 400. Very hot. 97 degees at 15:15. ss&s. BBBP. 2 entries "After the solstice " "Trolling for the thoughts of fish" walk. UD Town. Memi มีมี่ runs tours. ytBL. Home School. I'm beginning to understand it and it's value. Thai. Many. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_xIMKnbGb5g tv25. Be My Favorite. pôod. A little. foto.  22/06/66 exor. 200/50/50/200 = 500. 86 degrees at 08:50. But shade! ss&s. To Stik: "I'd be hysterical. Losing control is one of my major issues. I go into fight and flight (both modes) and would prolly bite you! Gay/straight liaisons ... the "straight" man is often the submissive ... perhaps to try it out? Anyhoo... there are lots of straight men who might say yes but ask gay men as well. The camera doesn't know the difference. As for handcuffs... no and no." To Lyn: "Up and walking. Yep. To either prevent clots or pneumonia, or both. The ice machine is a nice touch. My left hip has given me issues, but sporadically. I'm careful when I exercise but need to be more careful when I walk. I put 'walking' on my daily to-do list because I sit too much. We don't have hummingbirds here in Thailand. Finches galore though. We have birds that hoot. I believe they are night herons. Lots of myna birds and doves. Our grounds are kept immaculate but flowers = bugs and bugs = birds. We're a happy bunch. The unkempt lots and areas along the railroad tracks also help."To Storm: "I have little problem beginning things. My issue is finishing them. Blood of the Garlic comes to mind. It started as stories, and maybe that's what they intend to be. Same with Space Cadet, although that has more of a narrative. I haven't looked into printing out copies on paper, but I should. That may help me with the editing and sorting process. I've reread old works that I've forgotten, amazed that I wrote them. If only I could move on from traumas that easily.  That said, it can be easier to find flaws when a piece has mouldered for a while." bogs. Stik/Lyn/Sesheta ytBL. Home School is 'dark' and may be difficult for me in spite of the intrigue. Thai. Eating. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OiR6ErzltdM เที่ยง. 34°C 93°F; Humidity: 53%; Wind: 11 km/h; mostly sunny 21/06/66 Wed, Jun 21, 2023 9:57 PM Bangkok อายัน (solstice)The storm last night cleared things out! Beautiful dawn (somehow I was up and caught pink sky in the north-west). Blue skies when I did my exercises. exor. 200/50/75/200 = 525. 81 degrees at 10:15. Late. ss&s.Pan cooked up rice to eat with potato, sliced green papaya (malaga = มะละกอ), and shrimp. Very good. I can eat things better when they are thoroughly cooked. That said... Pan is fading in and out of Neverland. เที่ยง. Mostly sunny; 34°C 93°F; Humidity: 53%; Wind: 13 km/h bogs. Nikola/Jim/NeilTo Jim: "Enjoy Wyoming. It's been wet in Eastern Montana, cold (and frosty) in Western Montana and it's never predictable in Denver... so good luck. Good to know that you have your bag. My luggage is getting old. Pull tab issues? Yeah. I do have one small advantage though ... I only do carry-on." To Neil: "A hopeless romantic trapped in the mind of a scared little boy and the body of a middle-aged man? I don't like the sound of that at all. I was middle-aged once... once upon a time. My boyfriend is on some serious drugs. One side effect is near-impotence. I'm certain it bothers him more than he acknowledges. He's a snuggler but not a kisser. I miss kisses. Pecks count but... I could easily find someone else to satisfy sexual needs. Very easy here in Thailand. And age isn't an issue in Thailand. Neither is gender or most anything else. If it fits... it fits. But... (you can fill in the blank with everything you've said). " อาข = power วิษุวัต = equinox อายัน = solstice ytBL. To 36:11. Started “Home School นักเรียนต้องขัง” Gonna be dark and spooky? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EQl8Qh_8iXU Thai. Formal/informal https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3353ucQGOTo read. Finished "Invalid Item" To Stephen: "Fast forward 2000 ... or was it 2001? Maybe not so alright. Zoe is now 13-14. Maybe the crisis lies elsewhere? Back in the USA? Fast forward again. 2020 ... yet another crisis where the enemy/villain is invisible and hidden. In essence mother and father save their child. But Christian... Stephanie will be haunted by that and unanswered questions. 2000? She'd be around 24. Did her family move to America? By 2020 Zoe would be 33. What would she remember about Adelaide and her childhood. Her father? Would anything repeat? The gov... all govs would be distracted by other impending emergencies. I do think a couple more books could be written. Characters would change. But then... in 20-30 years many things change. As have you! This piece is rooted in a place and time that you knew very very well. No need to update. It's authenticity is grounded. But... 2020... you could write another piece rooted in Adelaide and the reality you were surrounded with at that time. Not the happiest of years? Use the painful memories to write. The more difficult work would be 2000-2001 if you chose to do it. Especially if you moved it to America. Lots of research. This was pre-facebook and twitter both of which would reference and ground 2020. 2000-2001... Y2K, September 11th... people still used land-phones and phone booths! Russia had opened up and China was opening. In the USA there was fear, but not the trauma that followed. Australia? My life was fraught with pain 2000-2003 so... I try to forget that time and place; but pain can lead to stories... some of them gory. You may ask whether I liked it. Hard to say. I don't "enjoy" horror. That said, it was a good read and an aficionado of horror could give a better critique." walk. foto. shop. Pork, snakehead; clothespins. Pan bought 60 bottles of water earlier. pool. Talked Pan into swimming. Very important for both of us (for different reasons). pôod. nidnoi. tvBL. none tonight. 20/06/66 exor. 200/100/100/400 = 79 degrees at 08:11.I was up and out earlier. Ran into David and a couple from Poland who recommended the mountains and 'blue' lagoon of Vang Vieng. To Angie: "I'm old enough to have felt recycled a few times. I wrote about living in inner city neighborhoods "Juneteenth" but I'm not satisfied with the results. Too rambling. Too unfocused. Thailand will 'heal me or break me' or so they say. It's just wearing me out. Just another place that tourists claim to be Paradise. It isn't. The daily mundane blah of it all grinds me down. There has been some recent progress; but, it's not enough. Anyhoo... thanks for the badge. "![Merit Badge in Juneteenth
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The Baha'i Faith teacher that our Soul comes from God and returns to God (kinda like a library loan). The body returns to dust. Here in Thailand Theravada Buddhism has rituals but death isn't to be feared. It's the fear that is used to control imho. However... Anxiety-Depression is my hyphenated middle name. I use Liam here in Thailand. Eternity? Not in this body! Consciousness? That would be interesting. But we have books and songs for that. The handed-down (written or oral) thoughts of the Ancients still surround us like water." To TJ: "This literally happens! Especially in the SouthWest US where rains can be sudden and brutal and flood downriver where it's sunny and dry on high banks and mud on the flats." To Whirls: "Every time I cook it's an original dish. I don't follow recipes and even if I did the results would be unique. I prefer variety. Even though the ingredients may be found everywhere the combination is inspired by that moment. Want the same-o same-o? Go directly to McDonald's... do not stop at a bank along the way. So... no... your word salad is gathered and tossed. It's the combination that is a part of you, vomited on the page." Bogs. Whirls/Jim/TJ/HarlowUnfortunately, I understand this. https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/politics/trump-i-was-too-busy-to-sort-through-the... ss&s. เที่ยง. 86 degrees at 12:22 mostly cloudy. Thai. "Ia, uea, ua" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vkgU5IZKLzQ walk. Just Nong Bua. foto. In park. ytBL. Last Twilight ภาพนายไม่เคยลืม just the trailer. Sea/Jimmy couple. Sea is blind. 8 pm. Blustery, lightning. tv25. But I wasn't into it... again. Not a very productive day for me. Pan got his shirts mailed to folks who bought them. That was positive.  19/06/66  To Norma Jean: "A very green Montana from all I'm reading and seeing in the photos. Scott posted a photo of where he is... I responded... is it always that green? Here it's green. The rains came and poured a bit. Yesterday we had some rain it's pregnant-cloudy again today. The long range forecast isn't good though. El ninho leads to drought in this region. My constant anxiety is causing some issues. At the moment it's peaceful." "People disappear for so many reasons. I'm sure folks wondered after I ran away... I kept everyone at a distance. After this much time... I'm sitting here snacking on a sticky mix of puffed rice, sesame seeds, and peanuts while Pan hugs me. Last night I had rice with squid and pork. I met someone from Sweden yesterday, will finish reading Stephen-in-Adelaide's novel today, and I will study and speak Thai. I doubt any of this would have happened if I hadn't run away." "No Ekalaka? I've met two people from there... but does anyone ever go there? Same with Broadus I suspect. A Burger Trail is a cute concept and makes people aware of the small town diners. Once McDonalds moves in they're gone. I want to do a photo shoot with Pan but Stand here, do this. Wait - don't eat that yet, but pretend to take a bite. Smile - act like this is the most wonderful day of your life! is a foreign concept to him unless he's allowed to look like he stepped out of GQ. No desk, no service is the trend nowadays in many parts of the world. Cheaper for the owners. Great for human-phobes. I am not impressed and try to avoid them. In May I arrived after midnight in Bangkok. Apple was there to check me in. As she was the time before in January." To Patricia: "I really love this. My mother lived to be 99, but yes, the mother-wound. I think this could be made into a flash fiction and entered in one of the myriad contests here (unless you have already). Someone needs to read it. "Found on the internet: 'From Anthropocene to “Symbiocene” – Symbioscene When thinking about a good name for our initiative, we stumbled across the term Symbiocene. It has been coined in 2011 by Glen Albrecht. He uses this term to argue that human history should enter a new era that is characterized by harmonious interactions between humans and all other living beings.' I don't think I've heard the term used before, so thank you for making me aware of it." To Neil: ""Seventh Seal" and the chess game between Death and Max von Sydow comes to mind. Of course Death wins! Death always does. But... it's the game that's important and what one does with however much time one has to live. Live!" bogs. Norma/Pat/Neil exor. 250/50/100/250 = 650. Hand movements for pesky flies! Saw David. เที่ยง. 84 degrees at noon and cloudy. ss&s. A bit late, but better than never. Ate with Pan afterwards. Thai. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pRYjsM1HQO8 read. Chp. 33 & 34. Almost finished. "Invalid Item" ytBL. Just a preview but something... หัวใจในสายลม Dangerous Romance walk. Bought 2 dumplings. Spoke to Jari. obsv. Big cloud, hands waving, bee sipping yellow tubes, jet, flies... will I miss them, decrescendo of the doves, muted music from an open door A2, someone in the window C2 705, I waved. tv25. โคตรเหงา เรา 2 คน Loneliness Society. Hard for me to get into. To Adherennium "Days are what they are. Yesterday was squid and pork and rice noodles. Today... Cloudy with fitful outbreaks of sun. Thanks for the badge." ![Merit Badge in Congratulations
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