I know this pain all too well and I know exactly how you feel. It is extremely difficult to put on a brave face when dealing with the handling the death of someone so close to yourself. Having to go through all of his belongings, deciding what to do with what, is not a task I would not wish on anyone. It is painful and seems to take forever. However, there are a lot of good memories in those belongings and it is those memories that are a person's immortality. So long as you remember him, he will live forever in your heart and soul.
We all need that little spark, that candle in the darkness to keep hope alive. As I had said, you are not alone. If you feel the need to talk. Just reach out.
One step at a time is all you can do. It has been seven years since my father passed away and we still have not moved all of his belongings anywhere. It's just too painful to do so. I and so many others know your pain all too well. Hang in there.
It's silly I know, but right now I feel lost. Plans that had been in motion just hit a wall. My dear neighbor had been looking at renting a car for a road trip. We had planned to got up to my home town town 300 miles away. It would have given me a chance to see my bf and my son to get time with his father. That just got shut down thanks to my neighbors doctor saying it was to long a drive for her.
So, now I am stuck unable to do what I was planning. Sadly it was one of the few times I was thinking just about me. I normally do all I can to ensure my son has a home food and if he needs me can get a hold of me. It's been years I have done this. Through hell and disappear I have been there for my son. Doing all I can to be there for him and to protect him. Now when I do for me I get turned down just one little thing but still it was just for me.
Who knows that might be why i got turned down. Why i am being shown a wall.
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