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Not interesting at all. Just like me. |
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In a text-based world, I'm beautiful. My favorite things in life: *cocoa *hugs *banana paraphernalia (chips, smoothies, ice cream....) *knowing that I am understood. *good pens/pencils *writing down my thoughts *serving *conversations of the deep sort. *spending time with those that I love. *a cleansing bunch of noise once in a while *quiet the rest of the time *blogging my lil heart out *understanding *noticing the little things that generally don't matter. *being just a little bit different *pretending to be a poser "You must do the things you think you cannot do." -Eleanor Roosevelt. This is straightforwardly me. |
...and you thought that Knee would never host another contest... It's coming up to that time of the year where I pop in once or twice. I usually let my upgrade run out... I don't know for sure if I'm going to this year. Probably.  But I realized that I hadn't run a single contest all year... And I love contests.... Oh, I need judges, if you don't want to enter it yourself.  |
| Maybe.... Maybe.... Well, there will be slides and swings at the park on Friday. We're having a picnic. I'm nearly positive that it's going to be the highlight of my week. I should start doing that again: highlight and lowlight... Or 'one good thing'..... Yeah. Every Friday I'm going to do the highlight and lowlight of my week. So tune in on friday to see if my guess was right... |
| Ay, yi yi! So much to say... And somehow I doubt that I'll get around to actually saying all of it... It might be list time. (lists keep me from blabbering on) Good things in life  I am loved by family, church and friends. (oddly, most people in my life are members of 2 or more of these groups nowadays)I got to see my dad. First time in 2 years.Bad things Dad doesn't look so great.I'm selfishthings I'm worried about Move-out... It's going to be a mess, and I'm stressing out here.  Where my stuff will go while I'm training for GIG leadershiptaxes/moneyThe hell week that is about to ensue... (it's monday already, folks...)  Summer classes, a summer job, sanity this summer... things I'm excited about GIGS!!!!!!!!!A certain boy....The end of the semester!!!Lank is gonna ask a girl to the prom!  (sweetest girl ever, btw!)leadership training! WOOT! |
| I'm not sad or angry right now. I just don't have much to say. It looks like I'm overreacting, and who knows? I probably am. And if I tie in my anger about her past offenses, I'd be a bitter, unforgiving, unloving person. And I still have a hard time swallowing some things without retort. Things like, "Well, you're my child," and things like, "My daughter." But we've been over this. No need to linger. |
I'm not as pissed as I was when I wrote  that entry. She's making up for it. She said that she is going to pay for my skin problem... I hate depending on her. There is nothing as stressful as depending on this woman. Does she get my tax return, since she claimed me as a dependent? Does anyone know? I'm really worried that she will. I'm getting a decent-sized one, enough to buy a junkie ole car and not be so dependent on others.... I can't just let her have $1,000+ money that is mine. And remember the whole drama I had back in February about, "Did I really forgive her?" ("YOU CAN'T FORCE YOURSELF TO LOVE"  ) etc? Well, it's coming back. I hate that she has this hold on me. So I haven't known what to do with myself for a day, now. I've got so much to do, but I always just end up doing nothing. I'm going to go finish my taxes, do my Spanish homework, then I'm going to class. (today is a long day. I don't have a break until 3AM again. ) |
| She's claimed me as a dependant. And I didn't get the insurance. |
| I'm mildly annoyed at myself... What normal church has a 9PM service? And what stupid person might actually think that???? On Saturday, John invited me to church. It was the first indication of anything that he'd given me so far. And I was stupid enough to screw it up. He either thinks: 1. I blew him off. 2. I'm that stupid. 3. I was that tired. 4. He doesn't really care either way because he's not really interested; Nathan is just leading me to believe so. But I have noticed that Nathan is a touchy subject between us. I'm always careful not to pursue a Nathan-related conversation because of the thoughts it will bring. Weird; the one person we know in common who all three of us haven't ever been together at once. (we came pretty close on Wednesday, though... Except that I realized what I was doing and left the building. No need to create awkwardness!!!!) |
| What do you call a deer with no eyes and no legs? In the mean time, I look like a drunk. I've got an IBC bottle and a wineglass that I used for a chocolate milk parfait next to my comp......... No-eyed deer |
| Ephesians are wonderful. Names are interesting. Food is optional. Sleep is optional. Emails are great fun. God is taking care of everything. GIGS have leaders. And I'm going to bed. (less than 10 hours of sleep since Wednesday...) |
| You didn't know:I have no problem touching worms, crickets, etc. I'm running a GIG next year. (it stands for groups investigating God, it's intended for non-Christians)I rarely blog about anything important in my life.That my hair is currently in a ponytail. That I got 4 hours of sleep last night. That it really isn't going to bother me until about midnight or so. That I'm listening to U2I overheard a kid talking about how he 'Can't Not Talk' last night, and I felt very cool. I am the owner of the original "Go Ahead and Ask Me" [18+]. Things that I didn't know about myself: I'm quite patient. I'm not particularly cute, but I have this 'look' that I'll flash whoever deserves it. (I watched a video of myself reading from a dictionary, and it was horrible, double chin, etc, but then I looked up and flashed the camera the sassiest look I'd seen in a while)That I'm hardcore. I may seem wishy-washy, especially when I give advice, but subconsciously I do it so that the person GETTING advice will think, "What horrible advice," and do what THEY need to do. (it really works)I subconsciously am good at getting people to do exactly as I want/need them to. (this can sometimes be called manipulation.)I have a nice singing voice. I'm growing my hair out. (I figured this out when I realized that my hair can be put into lil braids that already touch my shoulders! (I wish that I'd tell myself stuff like this more often)There's a tornado coming my way... (at least, that's what I gather from the wailing horn that is usually played once every 4 Saturdays....)Oh wait, it's noon on Friday, that's not a tornado.I am a brave young woman who is quite capable, thank you. I'm sick of hearing again and again that there's gonna be peace on Earth. That creativity just doesn't flow on days with so little sleep. Have a great Friday WDC!!!! knee ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** Click it!!! Please? http://www.monstersgame.co.uk/?ac=vid&vid=11010766 "Go Ahead and Ask Me" |
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