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| It's so silly I feel like dancing from the rooftops. I know its not much but finding that special someone is alway a great feeling. To find they have the same feelings that in its own way magic nothing can really explain. There might be 300 miles between us but I know I don't have to worry this one's a keeper. The good thing is that depending on how things go the job I hold I can do transfers with and there is a location in the town he is in. |
| Ok, this past week has been an odd rollercoaster ride for me. My son came back on Wednesday as his father promised and of course I have had my ups and downs as I worked out with kiddo that the only bad thing was that he did not get a private spot for just him. But with how many people are in that house I am not surprised. As for me it's been an odd mix of feeling like I was forgotten about just to have the one I have been talking to normally ping in about that time. We got to talking to find out we both have had feelings for each other from years ago before my son was born. We worked at the same place and well yeah. Time use to be perfect that I could talk with him on his break and before I clocked in. I dont know if he is going to tell anyone but I know I'm floating. |
| I never realized how much I would stress over my son being with his father. Now, that he is home I feel the stress wash away knowing everything is alright. My son appears to have had a good time with his father and i managed to connect with an old friend while he was away that has the possibility of becoming more. |
| My world is spinning and I am not sure how but the downward swirl I had been in is hopefully been turned on its backside. I was not doing well emotionally then COVID lockdown started. Really the only thing that kept me going was my work and my son. yet through that I was talking with an old friend I knew was interested in me just did not realizes how much till just recently. it was all in thanks to my brother who showed up one thursday and said here have my rig for a week. I took advantage of the situation and drove 300 miles to give my son a chance to s[end time with his father. I dropped my son off at my exs then drove back home feeling lonely but good that I was giving my son what he asked for. The fallowing weekend I drove back just to get asked if he could stay till his father could drive him back. nervous i said yes. I then took an opportunity to see the one I had been talking with. Easy to say I'm not the only one that had been looking but him being married ment we both were behaving. I don't break up couples and well I could see that h was not into temptation. Yes, back then I was single. The conation i felt was just like old times we walked and talked. I relaxed so much. I had not felt that relaxed in so many years. Right now nearly anything bings him to mind wanting to share or just to be closer to him. |
| Well, this past weekend has been an interesting one. Right now my son is with his father so I am a nervous weak about that. Grant it I am told my son is having fun and his messages are saying the same but my kid knows how well i worry so he might be holding back to keep me from worrying. As for me I connect with an old friend that like me right now is free to see who they want. I cannot help but think about him since I had to go home. needless to say we are 300 miles apart right now. but when we are talking it as if he is right there next to me. Hes one of the few people "I have found not stirred away by all I can do. So yeah i just pray this turns out for the best. I'm tired of being alone. Tired of looking over my own shoulder. tired of feeling like the world thinks I need to be alone. I know my great friends here are here and have helped greatly keep me stable. Thank you. |
| Well, today started out feeling like I should stay in bed. Got ready for work only to lose my phone as it sat right next to me. I searched for it for 5 minutes before turning around to look were I had been sitting to see my phone sitting right there next to my seat. Thing only got more interesting from there. I was suppose to have till today and a new man on shift the floor. Just to end up building a chair for a customer then taking the floor so that the new guy could take over till and I got to wander the floor putting things away, helping customers and doing my best not to hit my head as i guided the new man in how to communicate with the crew. Yet, in the end it was a good day. I got a lot done and at lest for a moment I got it through to the guy how to get things to till. Then after work i decided to gather up a few flyers to hand out at our nearby mall. That was fun and a huge success. I only got a few flyers to pass out but had such a good response that I went back and grab enough flyers to pass out to about 3/4ths of the stores in the mall. The flyers had item numbers for thing that have been hard to get a hold of lately. I had only a few stores say no thank you. The rest asked about our hours so that they could makes plans of when to stop by. |
| Ok, the last few days I have been struggling but not as bad as in my past. I know a lot of what I am feeling is the empty nest feelings. In time they will pass it is just getting to that point. My work days have been interesting but productive. I do get to build at least 3 chairs this morning along with my daily cleaning and manning the tills. This does not include all the stocking I will get to do at the same time. At home I have not been active. I really need to be more active to help fight off the empty nest feeling. I do message my son each day just to make sure he knows I have not forgotten him. I want to go do something today I just don't know what. I sit alone. I keep trying but at this time i find no one there catches my attention so I sit alone. I never have been into the bar scene. |
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