I know this pain all too well and I know exactly how you feel. It is extremely difficult to put on a brave face when dealing with the handling the death of someone so close to yourself. Having to go through all of his belongings, deciding what to do with what, is not a task I would not wish on anyone. It is painful and seems to take forever. However, there are a lot of good memories in those belongings and it is those memories that are a person's immortality. So long as you remember him, he will live forever in your heart and soul.
We all need that little spark, that candle in the darkness to keep hope alive. As I had said, you are not alone. If you feel the need to talk. Just reach out.
One step at a time is all you can do. It has been seven years since my father passed away and we still have not moved all of his belongings anywhere. It's just too painful to do so. I and so many others know your pain all too well. Hang in there.
I have a feeling that my week off did more harm than good. I just dont have the drive for work that I did. I have broken down now twice since I got back. Grant it once was do to two managers complaining about the mess one was making while blaming me and not giving me the time to take care of it.
Then again it could be that I am simply emotionally worn out. I have my son at home but home is empty not a place I want to go. In fact it's gotten to the point I just want to either walk or just curl up. Things I want and or dream about are just so far away. I know my son dose not understand for all we have been through I have tried to not let him feel like I am not there. I know at times I have failed but at lest I'm trying to do the right thing.
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