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** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** I know I look a bit scary, but I don't bite, much  This is my blog. A place to torture people I don't know with rants, opinoins and just plain babbling so I can keep a few friends in the real world. If you like torture, come join me. Fix a cup of tea or coffee and sit back while I tell you about the time when.... |
A month or three ago, I thought I had purchased a majohn game for $6.99, but when they took another 6.99 out of my account the following month I realized that they were charging me monthly for access to this game. This last month due to life things have tightened up for me a bit so I decided to cancel my gaming with HP. I couldn't. Apparently somewhere in the fine print that I didn't read, I agreed to continue playing or purchasing the coins for a year. I couldn't get out of the contract without paying for the rest of the year. Having been caught in their scam, I thought I would warn others of this so maybe they would avoid the same mistake I have made. In work news, I got a little frustrated today. I went to work and saw the 'draft' schedule that my new boss had made and it was all messed up. I talked to a director in another area about my concerns and am going to take her advice on how to handle it. I have made another sample schedule to show to her to see if it will work and have some notes on things to point out. I just pray she doesn't think I am stepping above myself in doing so. She really doesn't have a grasp on how things work at the moment and that you can't just up and mess with the schedule like she did without major problems coming from it, not the least of which will be not having people there to do the activities scheduled for the rest of the month. If she thinks I am sticking my nose where it doesn't belong, then I shall have to just step back and watch her crash and burn. Not a nice thing to do, but I have worked in similar situations before. Being the boss is not all it is cracked up to be and I have no desire to step into that role, I do however want to be supportive and helpful as I have been in the past with other young people who think that running things is cool. It was pointed out to me today that the way she is going about things is going to mess her over big time if she isn't careful because she didn't really listen to what anyone said the other day at her meeting and it showed as I mentioned in the schedule she set up, giving herself full time hours, while cutting everyone elses and trying to bully me into taking a second weekend by cutting my hours. I don't know if that made much sense, but it is my personal frustation for today. I want to let it go and just relax, but worrying is a hard thing for me to stop once I have started. Grrr. Try and have a good night and I will too. Maybe it is time for a wine cooler. I had one last night to help me sleep, maybe another one tonight isn't remmiss. Hugs |
    The hubby and I put it off for as long as we could, but there was no denying that I needed a shopping fix today. It had been at least three weeks since we had made a trip to Wally World. Last week we held on to every penny knowing that Thursday we had to pay mortgage and since evicting the last insane tenant from the upstairs apartment ate into all our savings, we knew it would be close. We squeaked into the following payday -- Friday -- without having to touch any of our much dwindled savings or ready reserve. We were very happy to have stayed in budget. Now that all the bills were caught up and it was safe to spend money again, I wrote a long list of cleaning supplies and foodstuffs to pick up. I met they hubby at the larger town that he works in a half hour away from our tiny town. We tried to stick to just the basics, but we were still shocked at the total when we finished. Prices seem to be rising again. Something is going to have to give soon or I don't know what will happen, but I doubt it will be good. So often these days it feels like life is spinning out of control. Not just my personal life, but in general. The major slump in the economy coinciding with the cost increase of almost everything is becoming too much. Something is going to break and not just the camel's back. I don't talk politics for the most part because I don't want to show how little I know, but the government needs to get its head out of a dark stinky place before it is too late for things to be fixed. I am not suggesting it should happen or encouraging it in any way, but the situation we are in now is very similar to one just before revolutions in the past. If too many people get hungry and go without for any length of time and see just a few with an overabundance it leads to some very harsh feelings and eventually to the need to even things out. History often repeats itself and I sometimes fear that such an appearance is on the horizon for the United States. I want to be wrong, but can't make myself believe I am not. I shall hunker down for the night and dream the dreams of my special weirdness till it is time to awake and make my oldsters happy for three hours tomorrow at work. If you ever want an extremely rewarding job, work or volunteer at a nursing home, there are some very amazing people there. Night |
| Oh my, not sure exactly what I did to merit the way I feel this morning, but did I say Oh my! When I went to sleep last night my hips were hurts. That happens these days for some reason. Every once in a while I break down and go to the chiropractor who straightens them out and then I am good for a week or two. I am guessing that it is time to go back. I went to bed last night with a small case of the aches and woke up this morning with a big case. Truthfully, I feel like I am hung over and I haven't had a drop of alcohol. Okay, so I feel a bit crappy today, time to move on. Well, along with the not feeling bad I had very vivid and strange dreams last night and this morning. The last one, the one semi fresh in my head was of me and a guy I was supposed to marry, Mind you the me in the dream was young (16 -18) We were in a village and weren't supposed to leave. Thing is a second me and young man show up and we have to hide. Then we all four have to escape to a sub. It isn't as simple as just going down to the sub. We have to sneak away and I wanted to take my special cat too. We ended up going up a really tall wall, where the one me almost falls off, but can't go back, has to go forward. All the time the bad guys are getting closer. We had to ride behind four wheelers holding on to a handle while someone drives us up to an opening in ice. Don't know where the ice came from because everything was warm. The people driving drive the four wheelers straight into the water and we have to swim into the sub. One of the guys almost drowns for not being prepared. Someone revives him. Then the sub is going to blow up and we have to escape the sub when the phone rings. I am not sure if I am relieved or annoyed about that. I have no real idea if we escaped or not. I can say that for the first time in about a month, this week at work hasn't been something I dread. We got a new activities director and she is changing things up. Not in any major ways yet. Right now we are rearranging and cleaning out the activities room. It is fun in a way. See the New activites director is in your early twenties, the newest coworker before her is in her early to mid twenties, I am blushing 41, but the other two coworkers are in their 60s. The older two coworkers do not believe in throwing anything away. Nothing. So, we have this huge, huge stack of magazines that haven't really been gone through in years. Same for a lot of other things. I have been there going on two years and there is a ton of things that haven't been touched in all that time, that we could toss, but don't because we might some day use them. The idea of never tossing something is not a new one to me. I fight it all the time here at home with my husband and even myself a little, but I have never been a major pack rat. Once to twice a year, I do a cleaning and clearing out, doing it at work has been revitalizing. As has the changing around of the activities room. The one coworker and I happily sat at where we kept the magazines and threw out any magazines older than 2008 with the exception of a few that we can't get any more like "Reminisce" and "Birds in Bloom" We got the piles down to something managable. It is beautiful. Now we just have to figure out a few more things and we will slowly be making progress in other areas. |
         Last night we had thunderstorms. They were quite impressive with the threat of tornadoes to go with it. The thunder and lightning were close, but not as close as the other night. We did loose power -- right in the middle of the movie "When in Rome". I hunted down some candles and searched out the flashlight. Just as I was getting situated the lights came back on. I did not blow out all the candles though because I wasn't sure if that would be an ongoing thing for the night. It turned out not to be thankfully. I am not afraid of the dark, but I am very night blind. We have to keep a nightlight going in our room and the bathroom so that when I make my trips to the restroom at night I don't stub the toes. I suspect that Ayron also set things up this way so that I wouldn't constantly be turning the bathroom light on at night -- it is directly across from the bedroom -- and blinding him. Are you wondering what the thunderstorms have to do with earwigs? Well, they didn't all freak and suddenly invade the house, though that would have had me up in arms like you wouldn't believe. I am not very fond of those nasty little things. I am a let bugs alone kind of person. If they aren't bothering me and mine, I will try very hard to leave them alone. Once in a while, I have to kill a spider or a centepede or any other bug that enters the home with the exception of Daddy long legs. I can tolerate them for some reason. My problems with the earwigs is my garden and a bit of home invasion. A few weeks ago I noticed that something was eating my garden plants. As it was mostly just cabbage plants I suspected catepillars, but couldn't find them anywhere. So, I doused the affected plants with a little boric acid figuring that would take care of the problem, only it rained that night. I left things alone for a few more days then next time I looked the plants were even worse for wear than before. I searched thoroughly and again I could not find the problem insects. But this time around I had a clue. A friend of mine had asked me if I had earwigs or silverfish. I hadn't really seen any, but just after she asked I found several in the house. So, yesterday, I once again doused plants with boric acid and then did around the house with the stuff. I rained again last night. Grr. Now I don't mind sharing a little bit of my veggies with the bugs. Many bugs are quite helpful and I don't want to go around spraying poisons that are going to kill the beneficial bugs. I felt safe using the boric acid because I wasn't putting it on the blossoms and the beneficial bugs shouldn't be affected, but I am beginning to feel I am fighting a losing battle no matter what I do. I looked up earwigs and I discovered that the reason I am being overrun this year is the weather. We are having a rainy year. It is turning the midwest into a very beautful place. The grass is green, the trees are happy and the gardens are thriving -- mostly. The thing is earwigs love damp dark places and the weather has created the perfect environment for just that. My eldest son told me that he had read that those of us who mulch are having a much harder time because we are creating the perfect environment for the pests. The mulch is the perfect hiding place for the bugs. GRRR So, the battle rages on. I am going to check the weather and if it isn't supposed to rain again tonight, I am going to go dust my plants again. I only need one or two good nights and I should have taken care of the problem. In other news: the cats have been a little clingy of late. Both Tibbles and Dott seem to feel the need to follow me into every room. It is like they fear I am going to disappear on them. Tibbles especially needs to keep me in sight. I have been sat on and rubbed at more in the last couple of days then probably in the last couple of weeks. It might have to do with my actually sitting on the couch to try and read and the extra movie watching I have done this weekend, but even when I am moving about, I am being shadowed. It is strange, but a nice kind of strange. I hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend. Hugs. |
We made it around to my most dreaded day of the week again. The fearful and uninspiring Wednesday. The only day of the week that I am willing to complain about from the minute I wake up...and yes, I realized that 7:00 is not that early in the scheme of things, but UGH! This morning it seemed I had a little less umph than usual. I really, really did not want to crawl out of bed. But I did.... I tried for the first coffee of the morning in hopes that it would wake me up. It wasn't doing the job so I got in the car and made my way down to Casey's to get the hard stuff, cappuccino. Not the fancy phoo phoo kind, but the every day gas station kind. It and a breakfast sandwhich kicked me into gear enough to drag myself to work. One of my workmates had the flu or something similar today so we were short handed and I had to help on the main floor instead of going to the lighthouse. I was kind enough to let them know I wasnt coming in and then I just played it by ear and things went well. It helps that I really like the girl, young woman, whatever the proper thing to call her is... We just seem to work well together, in my opinion. She may not agree, can't read those minds no matter how hard I try. Which reminds me, we watch the movie "Men you Stare at Goats" It has some humor, but not as much as I had hoped for. Still, it was a pretty good movie especially if you are not as dense as I seemed to be tonight. It is way past my bedtime, so my drooping eyes say, so off to bed I go. See you all in the 'marrow |
            It is back to work time again and I feel more ready for it than I did last week. Maybe it was the completing of the painting of the blue in the bathroom or just the fact that I was forced to really, really rest this time around. I am not sure. I am afraid the news is limited and the thoughts still a tad fuzzy today. Not drugged up fuzzy, but I am not truly awake and thinking fuzzy. Need more coffee fuzzy. Today it seems like a beautiful day outside. The girls are busy in their pen or were. They have gone to ground under their hutch. They like to rest there if it gets too warm or they need a nap. The garden is looking a bit negleted to me. That could just be my concience because I haven't gotten out there this weekend to do any work. I have been meaning to start the rewrite on my first draft for about a week maybe two and have yet to open the thing. I have a printed copy of the book as well as have it saved on the computer. I think I am ready for my first rewrite, but I am not sure what is holding me back. I have been in the "do anything but that mode" Well, I guess I should do a few other things before I have to go to work. Oh, before I forget, my son has scheduled his driving test for this Friday. That is kind of exciting to me. Soon he will be able to drive on his own. I will also be able to throw in a lesson about the importantance of grades because I am taking him to the insurance company with me and they have a policy or program that cuts the cost of insurance if you are on the honor roll. I expect to see his grades improve then. Well, I am off like a dirty sock. Hugs to all |
| I awoke to rain this morning. Beautiful refreshing rain. Not a downpour just a gentle spattering. The grass seems greener, the dirt richer and the air fresher. I am very happy, seeing the rain, that Ayron moved all the branches that we had collected out back yesterday. Yardwork seems like a never ending project. Most of the time I enjoy doing a bit of yardwork in the evenings, but this weekend, it wasn't in the cards. In Tooth news. I slept through the night without needing to take any more pain pills, but I needed one this morning. Still, I feel I am doing great. I have decided it will be safe to resume normal activities today. Maybe I will even finish painting the bathroom so I can get it put back together. Looking at the sink, I know that there are dishes in my future. But that is okay. The hubby has waited on me hand and foot for two days. Needing to do some dishes is a small price to pay. I am off to read for a bit and maybe go back to sleep. It seems I may not be as awake as I thought. Have a great day! |
I swear I wrote a blog yesterday. I don't know what I did, but it didn't stick. I am fine. The pain is minimal and I remember writing that the dentist impressed me with his concern. He called at the end of the day to make sure I was okay. The extration didn't go smoothly. No fault of the denist. My tooth broke as he was extracting it. I think I had a minor panic attack because I felt kind of weird when it happened. There was a nasty smell to go with it suggesting that I may have had the crack longer than the popcorn incident. Then the drilling began. The five minute extraction took about a half hour. The whole time my son Kyle patiently waited for me. Kyle then drove me to the pharmacy to pick up some meds and brought me home. I spent yesterday in a content haze. I slept most of it, which is the best thing I could have done. Twenty-ish years ago I had a lower tooth pulled by a military dentist and it dry socketed. The pain that was involved with that was beyond painful. I have no desire to experience that again. So, I am being very careful. Today, I seem to be doing fine. No real pain and I hope it stays that way. Hope everyone have a wonderful weekend. |
I go in at 8:40 tomorrow morning and have the tooth pulled that I cracked when I bit into an unpopped Kernal of popcorn. The dentist did offer to set up an appointment for me to see a specialist to have a root canal. I can't afford a root canal at the price he quoted. So, I am loosing the tooth. I think I shall call the day quits and go to bed early in preperation for getting up extra, extra early tomorrow. Have a great night. Hugs |
A phone call at eight this morning woke me for the final time. I gave up and crawled out of bed. I am kind of regretting that decision. My mornings tend to go something like this. My brain realizing that Ayron has gotten up. Time to go to the bathroom. Crawl back in bed. Ayron leaves for work. Dott decides that I need to be loved and cleaned now that Ayron is gone about an hour after I woke up to go to the bathroom. Finally, an hour or so later my body will agree with my mind and the cat that, yes, it is time to get up. Mornings can vary slightly. Sometimes Dott forgets to wake me up...not often though. I can't fight the body and I love Dott even if she waits till I lay down to get her pettings. Who can complain if one of the last things at night and first thing in the morning you have someone showing you affection. I admit that some mornings I don't return the affection, but Dott is fairly understanding. At work: Yesterday, I went in armed with tons of things to do. I did them all morning and worked extra hard to entertain almost every person in the Light House. State didn't show up. They came in the afternoon when there was no way I could be in the Light House because of my schedule. GRRR But I had a lot of fun in the afternoon with some of the ladies from the regular area. We went to the gazebo and sewed pillows together. When I say sewed, I got some plastic needles and pillow kits from Oriental Trading. Most of the ladies can't really sew anymore and so I get pre cut, pre holed things. It works quite well. Just hanging out and doing that was very pleasant. When I got home last night, I made the mistake of asking my husband if he was up to walking, the turd was. I wasn't really, but I wasn't admitting that to him. So, off we went for a short walk, about a mile. Boy was I glad to get home and put the feet up for the night. That was yesterday more or less. Not exciting, but complete. Today, I go to the denist at eleven for the tooth that I bit into the pop corn kernal with and then back to work at 1:30. Thank goodness it is the last day of the week for me. I respect what state is doing, but it is hard knowing you are being watched. Have a great day. Catch ya later. Hugs. |
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