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** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** Hmm...one day I'll write a newer introduction. Maybe I should make a static item of all my different introductions.  New Introduction, October 31, 2005 It's time to update this introduction. Since June 2005, I've packed up and moved from Armenia to the US, found a house, waited a month for settlement, moved in, found a preschool for my son, got settled in, and maybe found my sanity. Maybe. I'm just now getting back to writing. Read on for more about me and life in the US. Original Introduction: I live in the former Soviet Republic of Armenia nine months out of the year. The rest of the time you can find me living out of a suitcase in the US or on one of our travels somewhere. This journal started out as a description of my life in Armenia, but I've amended it since I've realized that life there is very similar to life everywhere. I don't have a car, clothes dryer, microwave, or dishwasher but I've learned one doesn't really need those things to have a fulfilling life. Some days I'm just estatic over a slow trickle of hot water which can mean the difference between being smelly for another twenty-four hours or being clean. By the way, DH=dear husband; DS=darling son; MIL=mother-in-law. You get the picture. |
| My brother is going to Iraq. It's unoffically offical, in that military way of doing things. It will be "offical" three days before they go. That's it, 3 days to mobilize. I don't know why he chose this line of work. I don't know how he feels about going. I had been depressed for about 10 days. It lifted yesterday morning or during the night. I got into a little tiff with my hubby and realized that I always created an issue like the one I created when I was depressed. It was nice to identify the pattern and to climb out of that rut. blah blah blah bhal That's it for now. I've lots more words in me but don't feel like writing. I'm still alive. I'm still around. I'm not on scroll, couldn't hack the banality any longer, though I miss my friends here. Still broke. Still got too many things on my plate. |
| It said common reasons for not being accepted were qualifications and the writing sample not being what they were looking for. Doesn't make me feel any better though. Still wasn't good enough. |
| Not good enough Not good enough Not good enough That's the refrain running through my head right now. I heard from About.com about my guide application. I knew it would be a long shot since I didn't have all the qualifications they were looking for, but I was hoping that my totally awesome application would be enough. It wasn't. I wasn't considered due to lack of qualifications and my application wasn't good enough. They said that...wasn't good enough or something like that. I really wanted that job. I really worked hard on the writing sample. Man, I'm disappointed. And this comes right when I'm about to put a business plan together and open my copywriting business. Now I wonder, am I good enough? |
| My brother's national guard unit has just been put on alert. Alert, not mobilized. They've got 90 days now to tell him if/when/where he's going to go. Rumor has it, Baghdad. I can deal with wasting my tax dollars for this nonsense. But not my brother's life. Bastard. |
| I've received two e-mail with that as a header, not spam either. So I'm taking that as the universe reminding me of something important. What, I don't know yet. So far: Today is the day that I confirmed that my son won a school lottery and got accepted in my first choice of charter schools. I'm very happy, though it means a half-hour trip each way. It still might be worth investigating the Montessori school (private) near us simply because it is near us (and I like the philosophy). Tuition payment vs. gas and travel time. It's hard to say, especially since money is so freakin' tight right now. Today is the day I have a migraine. Today is the day that I have to crank out first drafts of these articles that are due Friday. Today is the day.... ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** |
| Deadline creeping up, but just oh so sleepy and don't want to work. I've got my avatar camping out in a rock club on Second Life, earning L$ for just sitting there. It's like having a decent rock station on in the background, and I earn L$. Kinda like our gps here. Kiddo is getting sick again. *sigh* He's going to have a fantastic immune system when he grows up. Tonight is the first lottery drawing for our kindergarden choices. He's in three lotteries! Here's hoping! Toodles, A totally unmotivated Susan |
| Migraine today. Went to the Y anyway and walked/jogged 1.25 miles at a 21 min. pace. Woo hoo! Totally wiped out now. Hence the fragments. Fish are fine. Still need to medicate one for parasites but she's doing much better. Today should be the last day. The one with the shredded fins is still tattered, but she's swimming around and eating well. I've been thinking of goals and making this a year of weight loss & getting healty. So, I'm setting some rewards for losing weight. At 5% I want this:
And at 10%, I want this:
At 30% I want this:
And at 50% I this (though one that works with my plan):
All of these are finance dependent, and maybe I'll change the % around a bit. These are things I want, covet, desire,  .Started working on my 10 Natural Parenting articles. I might buy the bundle so I can post them on my website as published samples. Since they are ghost written, I'd have to buy them to get the copyright. Ain't that a hoot. |
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| There so much to process and write about. Part of me wants to grab my paper journal and head over to the couch, and part of me says to at least start here and see how it goes. Mundane matters: One fish is sick, one fish is injured. They are in separate tanks, thank goodness. The one has some sort of parasites. When her aquarium light blew out, I put a desk lamp over the tank to help heat it. Well, that really screwed things up and in addition to a lovely algae bloom, she's got velvet. Responded to the medicine and the addition of salt to her tank very quickly. That reminds me, I need to add some aquarium salt to the other tank as well. Then we noticed that the fins on the other fish are splitting, which makes it hard for her to swim. Determined that it was the stress of the new tank plus the new filter was too strong. So, out it goes. Went back to Walmart, for the second time today for these darn fish (I was looking for a proper heater for the 2 gal. tank earlier) for some stress coat. They didn't have BettaFix, so if the shreds don't look better tomorrow, I might have to go get some. These darn fish are costing me a fortune! But I love 'em so much. I took an online class yesterday on SecondLife (www.SecondLife.com--if you join, use me as a reference, let me know and I'll e-mail you my user name) about Shamanic Journies. It was very cool. I've been interested in learning more about shamanism. I'm being lead to learn more about it. One of the things we received as a link to an .mp3 file with a grounding exercise, which I did last night. It was way cool. Maybe I'll describe it another day. I woke up once in the middle of the night hearing a child yelling for "mommy" but it wasn't my son. When I asked my Reiki Guide about it later, I learned that it was a bit of me that was lost. Interesting. Had the sound worked yesterday, the leader would have taken the group, those that had attended the prior session and had already met their Power Animal(s) so not me, on a journey to the Cave of Lost Children. That is where parts of us go when we're subject to extreme stress or situations. Like when you disassociate from a certain situation. I'm not explaining it well, there's more to it. I did the grounding exercise again today during Quaker Meeting. ....more later. Crossing Jordan is on TV and I could use some down time. Toodles! |
| I started the day with $14.50 in Tupperware sales for this month. It was an internet order (love those!). Then this dude called me and ordered $9 in replacement lids. Then my cousin realized her online party was about to close tomorrow and she had no sales so she got busy...$350 later! Then, to top it off, another occaisonal internet customer ordered today. Total sales so far this month? $515. Not bad, not bad. How much of it today? $500. And how much via the internet (meaning I did NO WORK!) $490. LOVE IT! Now, imagine how my month could have been if I'd actually DONE SOMETHING! woo hoo Oh...and I won some sports bottles and something else, I can't remember. Anyone want to be a consultant too? Let me know. Or go place an order on my site and watch me do the happy dance some more! Whew. And I'm closing out ~WhoMe???~   Pampered Chef catalog party tomorrow. I'm not sure if I hit $200, but it'll be close. Good enough to get me two pieces of stoneware @ 60% off. |
| Virtual Bubble Wrap! woo hoo http://www.urban75.com/Mag/bubble.html http://www.virtual-bubblewrap.com/popnow.shtml Both links provided by Robert Waltz  . Truly a man with too much time on his hands. |
I employed the shoebox method of tracking my expenses and income last year. *sigh*  Now it's biting me in the butt. Hubby is stressed because we're getting a refund this year and he wants it NOW! As usual, I'm holding up the process. I'm an hour into sorting and organizing so far today. I'm working while the TV is on, and cleaning or writing this blog, just generally taking a break, during the commercials. Hope something good is on TV next.Cheers! |
| Kiddo and I went outside on this balmy afternoon and planted a ton of bulbs. I salvaged them last fall when I planted some mums in the same flower bed along my garage wall. They just popped out of the ground as I was digging and just couldn't throw them away, now could I? I had every intention of getting them right back into the ground. I even knew where I wanted them to go. Didn't happen. Now, you might be thinking that it's just a little late to be planting bulbs. Well, you're wrong. I'm just early for next year! |
| Actually, I'm in the world of Second Life: http://www.secondlife.com It's so freakin' cool!!!! I'm so not getting anything done because I'm busy exploring. Oh my. It's free, though you can upgrade to premium later if you want. If you sign up, tell 'em I sent ya...Reiki Shepherd. Yup, that's my user name there. Hope to see you! *back to RL where dinner is almost ready* |
| I had a migraine yesterday and the day just got away from me. I've four huge files to finish editing by tomorrow night and the pressure is on. Kiddo woke me up at 7:30 AM and wouldn't leave me alone. I just wanted to sleep a little longer. I finally got out of bed around 9 in a totally grumpy mood. Now, I'm just tired still and slightly headachey. I hope my Dr. faxed over the authorization to refill my migraine medicine. Yikes. So I told hubby he's on kid duty and that I was hanging out in our home office to work all day. I shoveled all the crap off my desk into other piles elsewhere (I can't stand working with lots of clutter around my immediate work area) and moved one of the fishies in here. Nice touch if I do say so myself! Got myself a cup of tea and a cup of water and I'm about to start. woo hoo! Wish me luck! *wanders off to editing, whether it's hell or not is still to be determined* |
| I love angel cards, tarot cards, fairy cards, goddess cards, runes...all of 'em. Everytime I can get my hands on them, I pull one or two or three and it never fails that all the cards are applicable to something in my life. I've gotten many insights. Call me crazy, but I've direct experience with angel guides and a reiki guide. I didn't believe in them until I started working with them. Now through personal experience, I know they exist. Check out this forum. I can't wait to see what happens. I'll let you know.
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| It's 11:33 as I start typing this. I'm in the kitchen, working at the table with my laptop, still in my PJ's and drinking coffee. The breakfast dishes have been cleaned up, dishes washed, dishwasher running, counters cleaned. One load of laundry has been started (a must do since kiddo wet his bed last night) and many more are lined up waiting. Whether or not they get done isn't important today. I didn't get out of bed until 10 am, though I first woke up at 7 ish and then dozed off and on. I kept waking up thinking I needed to get up, and then I'd wake up again! I guess I needed the sleep. What is important is that I get massive amounts of editing done on my project before 6 pm so that I can go to drumming tonight. I promised that I would start sending files back this weekend but basically didn't work from Friday afternoon until today. I also need to soak the tubing from my CPAP machine and change the filters. I'm  to say I havne't been keeping up with that weekly maintenance.Hubby is working now. He said he had about 2 hours worth to do, and then he wants to nap. I'm hoping my energy doesn't fail before I get a chance to do my work. My plan is to finish this, my "me" writing time for today, go get dressed, maybe switch the laundry (since the machines are upstairs anyway, makes it easier to keep on top of it all), start the tubing soaking, and then get started. Mom has flown back home yesterday afternoon. She bought us a 10 gallon tank and all the fixin's (excpet gravel & decorations & a gravel washer). I'm so excited. I'm loving my new hobby. Hubby isn't so happy because it costs some $$ and there isn't much coming in but I'm finding it important to my mental health. It's fun to research and learn about how to take care of them. And I don't mind doing the maintenance. I might move the small tank to the kitchen table this afternoon while I'm working. If I do that, I'll have to find the laptop fan to set the laptop on, just to elevate it in case of a spill. With a preschooler around, spills are inevitable. In case you didn't read the previous entry, we are now the proud owners of two female betta fish. They were originally in the same tank but one attacked the other, so now it's been a struggle to make sure the injured one recovered, and to find a suitable tank to put her in. She's in a 1 gal. tank a friend gave us and it's taken forever to get the water stabilized. Poor thing, recovering from her injuries and dealing with the nitrogen cycle has been trautimatic. We finally got smart and put a desk lamp over her tank and that warmed up the water enough for her to really flourish. I think we're out of the woods. I plan to get a divider and put them both in the 10 gal. tank, separated. I don't have $$ for lots (any, actually) fake plants (real ones are too much for me to consider right now, maybe later as I get more experience) or decorations, so once I've added all that stuff and they've places to hide, I may take the divider out. I also read that you shouldn't have just two females, so I might consider adding one more, but that's a scary thought right now, too many things could go wrong and I'm not sure that I want tanks of bettas around the house. We originally planned one little tank, and that plan has mushroomed as it is. I took yesterday off, brain wise, and read a book all day. LOL. It was a page turner. I love Patricia Cornwall books, especially when they cost me just 50 cents at Goodwill. Just finished:
And I started skimming over breakfast:
This is an incredible view into Mitchner's mind. I loved seeing how he works. They show the progress from start to finish with a section of a novella, including the final product. In the final, they highlight the words that made it through from the original draft. Way cool. Even cooler when you take into consideration that it was only a dollar at Goodwill. It's noon. Time to get moving. Lots to do in the next 6 hours if I want to go play tonight. And I do so want to go drum tonight. |
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| A woman pregnant with triplets was walking down the street when a masked robber ran out of a bank and shot her three times in the stomach. Luckily the babies were OK. The surgeon decided to leave the bullets in because it was too risky to operate. She gave birth to two healthy daughters and a healthy son. All was fine for 16 years, and then one daughter walked into the room in tears. 'What's wrong?" asked the mother. 'I was taking a tinkle and this bullet came out," replied the daughter. The mother told her it was okay and explained what happened 16 years ago. About a week later the second daughter walked into the room in tears. 'Mom, I was taking a tinkle and this bullet came out." Again the mother told her not to worry and explained what happened 16 years ago. A week later her son walked into the room in tears. "It's okay" said the Mom, "I know what happened. You were taking a tinkle and a bullet came out." 'No," said the boy, "I was playing with myself and I shot the dog."   |
| Virginity like bubble, one prick, all gone. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Man who run in front of car get tired. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Man who run behind car get exhausted. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Man with hand in pocket feel cocky all day. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Foolish man give wife grand piano, wise man give wife upright organ. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Man who walk through airport turnstile sideways going to Bangkok . *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Man with one chopstick go hungry. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Man who scratch ass should not bite fingernails. * ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Man who eat many prunes get good run for money. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Baseball is wrong: man with four balls cannot walk. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Panties not best thing on earth! But next to best thing on earth. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* War does not determine who is right, war determine who is left. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Wife who put husband in doghouse soon find him in cat house. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Man who fight with wife all day get no piece at night. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* It take many nails to build crib, but one screw to fill it. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Man who drive like hell, bound to get there. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Man who stand on toilet is high on pot. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Man who live in glass house should change clothes in basement. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Man who fish in other man's well often catch crabs. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Man who fart in church sit in own pew. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Crowded elevator smell different to midget. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* |
Kiddo is  . Spiked a fever this afternoon. Puked after he fell asleep tonight (the first time.) He's fallen asleep for the second time, fever has broken, and we're hoping he's down for the night.In the meantime, trying to get upstairs to help kiddo puke is guts up, I tripped over an old computer keyboard that he'd been playing with. Two bruised knees, a sore wrist and shoulder later, here I am, trying to get some editing done. *sigh* Hubby is still sick. He came home from work early and took a 3 hour nap. Lucky dog. I wasn't tired then, but I would have loved to have 3 hours to concentrate on this project. Why is it always my work that gets subjugated to everyone elses? Even when it involves money. |
| Turns out all three of us have strep and are antibiotics. Kiddo was having coughing and wheezing problems and we wandered over to Urgent Care. One breathing treatment and throat culture later, we've 5 different prescriptions, antibiotics for us all, plus two others to help kiddo breath. He's having asthma like symptoms, but he's too young to test/diagnose asthma yet. The FNP looked at my throat and said I looked like I had it, and since hubby has had a sore throat for a few days, we just assumed he did too. Poor Grandma, she arrived on Saturday and all this stuff (kiddo coughing like mad) started Saturday night. It got worse this morning, hence the visit to the Urgent Care. I called his Dr. and they couldn't see him until 6 tonight and we decided we couldn't wait that long. See, rambling, just rambling. Bleh... |
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