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| I've decided to run for City Council member in the City of West Lafayette, Indiana, USA. I have submitted my application to the Libertarian Party for nomination today. I have been thinking a while about the plight of the elderly, the disenfranchised, the homeless, those who have fallen through the cracks of the system. I also want to find kindred spirits who want to work with me to get elected. I know that the City Council is a local entity but I want to work from the grass roots level. I am eager to do the job. I want to reach out to those who feel that they've been forgotten. I want to be an advocate for the seniors who are living on a fixed income and cannot find an extra income to help them with their health care and other needs such as finding a medical place to go to that isn't just there to take their Medicare money to pad their own pockets. I've had experience in how the Medicare system is being used to get more of the innocent elderly to go through unnecessary treatments and it is a scandal to me. I hope that this will be a good step for everyone, not just for me. I could easily let things go but I'm one of those seniors who have been given this treatment, so has my late mother, Sally. I want to get more of those who are jaded and cynical to awaken and get moving to make this country get back on its feet again. I am very concerned about how this country's leaders are interested only in the "bottom line" where they sacrifice their employees to come back to work despite warnings of COVID resurgence, only to make money and raise the GDP and it is a problem everyone needs to discuss among themselves. My hope is that the Libertarian Party will think well of my intentions and agree with my views. I have been disappointed in the current administration which has a leader who is petty and mean spirited. The opposite party seems to have a candidate who is sincere but he has a great number of issues that I'm not sure about and so I want to help in being a voice for those who have no voice at all. People have forgotten the elderly and relegated them to a small corner of society where they are only good for the property they have and that is all. Please message me to tell me what you think of my desire to serve the city of West Lafayette. Thanks, Mary |
| I once read somewhere that upon rising in the morning I have two choices: to feel happy or to be sad. I've risen today and felt happy enough to get going. There have been a few times when I get a wish to stay and lie in bed and relax more but I've had the inspiration to get up and get going. I choose today to be happy and despite all the thoughts that have been ghosting me since I awoke I am going to push through. I see enough bad news on the Twitter feed and on FB but I feel as though this is just another day to slog through for many of us. There is that sense one needs to feel sad and sympathetic but I must take care of my own sanity. I've been persuaded so many times that things won't go well with Colin. I don't want to lose him and I know he doesn't want to lose me. I am one of the people he should trust more than anyone in his life. His life is filled with actors who may still be reading or memorizing scripts while they go with him in some way. The evil spirits in the lives of us are trying to get us to go with the script that they think we ought to go with and it always takes us into a sad mood, even to the depths of sadness so much so we want to kill ourselves. This is their MO - to make us sad and kill ourselves and spare them the trouble of doing the dirty deed themselves. So I want Colin to know that I am loving him as much as I can despite the fact that we've not had a cup of coffee together in the middle of the world. I do not know when that good occasion will happen but I am looking forward to it. I somehow wish I could make it into a story or some scene where we will meet and it will have a nice ending. I am always an optimist, and want good endings and beginnings and middles for people like Colin and me. I do not know how lovers are faring along. In some places we might think it's best to pretend we're strangers when we've had each other. I hope this sort of subterfuge will end and lovers will come and meet and forget the rest of the world. God will take care of it and we will survive. We will survive intact with all senses and our minds intact as well, remembering how we loved each other and how we felt when we shared love. I do not subscribe to going along some dreamy path because it is only going to be made into a different scene by those who are eager to break us up. I know that God is present in our lives and in our dreams but I think being solid together in all ways is the way to go. Why would we want to be afraid of the devil and his minions for they are shackled by their being in Hell always. We are, lovers that we are, in Heaven all the time. If we should feel sad or some sad event has made us sad, we each of us can buoy each of us each other to get to feeling better and think of how we can move forward. There's no need to be stuck in the past or fasten our gazes on the sad things that we've gone through. We have had to go through events and sadness, true, but the evil ones want to throw it up in our faces every time we make a step forward. We must recognize this and tell off that bastard and then move on. We must meet someday and it will happen. I may be in a mood where I'm not receptive or reactive in the way one might wish but that is me. I'm not someone who gets all huffy about anything or any thought that tries to make me think of them and then attend to them. I'd consign them to the fire as they used to in the old days. My life now is as stable as it can be, with a few times of being irritated, thwarted and that sort of thing but it's not going to make me go to some fetal position and moan about it. It happens to everyone. It's part of living in this country and other places. Yes, it's part of the earthly life but what other life is there unless one is so cossetted that every sad thing even the slightest discouraging word will make us sad. This sort of life is reserved for children who can't defend themselves and it is up to the mature people who have kids to tell them that this sort of happening will not cow them into submission and to move on and move forward confident that we are heading into the right direction. Those who wish to constrain us might succeed but they won't succeed all the time. They are never going to take over our lives and make us do what they want. There's a point where we've had enough of these bastards who are always trying to persuade us that going with them is FUN or that we will make a lot of money, we will have fame and fortune, we will have all the conveniences of life. Well, life is not a convenience it is a way of deaing with things that we have to deal with and then not to sweat the small stuff. Things will take care of themselves or at least, if we ask God to deal with it if we've had enough thoughts to cycle through we can't do everything and so we'll say God it's all Yours. That's what God does and He can't be denied and He will be powerful against all who try to make us feel as though there's no hope or no way out. This caged meme is making the people of God feel that way - that there's no escape. I do think we can get away and we must find that right thought where we can start putting our feet in front of each other and walk the way God wants us to. I know I'm calling on God when I speak of Him. There are people who wish to deny His Presence and that is where chaos lives. If we can't call on God in the middle of a chaotic event how else can we find relief? I've had times when i was blown low and I would moan and groan and call on God and finally He comes and I get lifted out of my sad thoughts and I am able to deal with things. And sometimes we can't even remember what it was that laid us low, you see. We cannot suffer for nothing we must suffer willingly if that is what's asked of us and that is also part of living this earthly life. We have to do it and there's some relief and we must find the simple ways to get us from being depressed. The simple life and things are free and if there's a cautionary thought we should acknowledge it as we are given the Wisdom of the Holy Spirit so we don't just throw things to the wind and go off and do things when we might be doing something more to keep us alive. Our lives are precious and we must always be sure to keep our lives secure and the only way to do it is to pray to God every day to keep us safe and those we love safe. We can't do more than that sometimes but we can if we are able to see what risks might be ahead for the little ones we take care of. But others we must tell Him it's Yours and I've no way to prevent things from happening so it's God's job to do it. I don't now what more to say but there are so many things we can do for ourselves each day and one of them is to make sure we eat and that we take water and if we have to take meds to keep us from feeling too pained in our minds and our bodies. We must take vitamins, and do what we can that we humanly can around the places we live - wash dishes or do laundry something to get us out of this immobilitiy and inertia that the evil one wants us to dwell in all the time. If we're always lying in bed or sitting doing nothing but looking at our cell phones we will make the evil ones come over us and take over what we are doing and make us think the things the evil one wants us to dwell on. Melancholia is a bad thing and it's a precursor to depression. I'm somehow a bit like that but only on some things like romance and love. But I have an optimistic thought about love because it's what we must always reach for. Even those of us who've had some sort of run in with bad lovers should always hope there is a special someone that God has reserved for us somewhere. I am sure that I have that love somewhere living somewhere in the world whose name is Colin Firth. I know that it's rather a long reach to think of but I know he has his spirit with me. Don't ask me how it works because it's beyond my comprehension and I don't wish to question it. It's a gift and that is all. There are many of you who are listening and I pray that you will all be protected while you go about your work. Be happy but don't try to look for something that will elevate your happiness artificiallly. Mood altering drugs are dangerous and it can make you go with the wrong crowd and that crowd are all bastards, devils and ghosts. So just be calm and pleasant and don't go into hysterics about things. it might cause people to wonder if you should be someone they ought to go with and then they'll steal your happiness. Be good to your family as they are the only ones who you will have to support you and if your family are bastards then get away from them and then find peace in a solitary fashion until God gives you the real family who you belong to. Love, Mary |
| I feel a bit more the thing now. I ate some more breakfast and lunch together. I think that the day has been good in the weather department. I hear some people cutting the grass outside. I know they did that this week for us and we are glad they came. I hear the birds chirping once in a while, and there is a soft ticking sound to the clock near me in the kitchen by the wall. That clock was from my Dad's old office they gave this to him when he retired from there. He worked there part time in his retirement years. He was fortunate to have gotten a job like that where he could come in later and leave earlier than the full time people. He has a cordial relationship with his former bosses. I was feeling a bit sad earlier today but now I am a bit more buoyed because I did things for my LLC. I hope that the rest of the day will be better. I somehow feel like I am being killed I wonder why? I see Sally thoughts that are getting at my chest and Marianne thoughts who is watching her do it. I think people are angry at me always for some imagined reason unless they are the reasons why I was uprooted from my home in England when I was about 11 or 12 years old and taken to the Philippines. I had a bad stepmother named sally. She was the Queen of England in disguise as sally and she made sure I had a childhood that I could somehow recall in my later years. That childhood was a fiction brought about by mind bending MI5 rules. The fiction they made fo r me that I went to school somewhere in the Philippines like Blessed Imelda's at Cabanatuan or Dagupan Cities, and Dominican School in Manila and St Theresa's College in Manila. These bastards can program you mind to create a childhood or a series of memories that you can parrot to anyone who will ask. My father Philip of Edinburgh was unable to find me. His girl Maggie Smith the actress had given me to a lowly family in the area where she lived. They were unable to resist my being kidnapped. I thi nk they have been sad forever. I wish them to have a thought that I am thinking of them with affection. I think my mother Maggie was too much involved with her career and perhaps didn't want to get the lashing of the Queen against her life and so she was able to get out from that hot stare the Queen would give anyone who offended her greatly. My father Philip had to go along with the idea to marry Mrs WIndsor because he was asked by the spies of England to watch Mrs WIndsor and what she was up to because she was a traitor to the Crown and to the Monarchy and to the English country. She and Churchill plotted the murder of Philip, her husband's relative, Louis Mountbatten and they arranged for the IRA to do this dastardly job for them. Charles the heir to the throne now was in on this idea and plot. These people will never see the light of Heaven in their lives. They will be sad forever for doing this bad thing to me, to Lord Louis Mountbatten, and to countless English men and their families. Churchill sent these poor Lads to war in the War to end all wars to give Adolph Hitler a way to get English genes into the German genome and so that he would create an ideal Master Race where the Germans would have the English fair and blue eyed phenotype. This whole thing is truth. I am publishing it here. I will try not to do any more publishing like this this is going to be published her for a short time nd then I will make it a confidential post. |
| I'm asked whether or not one shouldn't just like each other to evade the word 'love' altogether. People seem to find 'love' too hard to find or, to endure or even to live through. I am not sure that love is that difficult to find but it is probably difficult to find a lover who will also like you and thus despite the rough times, the ups and downs, will stick with you and still profess to love you to anyone who might ask them. I think finding the right person is a great project, if you can call it that. It's possibly the thing that makes everyone feel daunted. How do you find the right person to love you and to love? I read somewhere that loving someone who doesn't love you back is really infatuation. I've gone through a crush or infatuation a few times in my life. But getting a person you happen to fall in love with to love you back is a great and quite difficult thing unless you are that person's desire as well. I do not know what to counsel love-interested people. I onnly know that for me having love is something that's a God-given gift. Love comes in different forms - there's maternal, filial, and spousal love. The last one you have to earn by means of being a well-behaved human being. You're gracioius and polite to poeple even strangers, and you are always able to control your temper with people. YOu have to watch what you say of cousre lest the person who is destined to love you wlil hear it and find it hard to like you at the very least. But you have to be true to yourself. If you have nothing good to say about someone then please don't say anything about them to anybody or make a snide remark to someone. Just keep your own opinions to yourself until you trust the person you're with to keep your thoughts secret and that is a measure of having a good friend. Love comes slowly to anyone who asks for it. You have to love yourself in a good way, and to accept that you have faults that you need to decide what to do with, whether you want to keep them because they somehow are serving you some way, or you need to get some help from some person who can point out what it is that is the matter with you and your abillity to attract anyone who's worthy of attracting. The one thing that helps is that you have a forgiving heart and a humane heart. You have to also pray for this One Love you have desired to find. If you pray all the time about it, then that One Love will arrive and find you and you will both be very happy. Prayer answers all things. Or should I say, God hears all prayers and when He understands where you are and why you are asking for something, then He will bend His ear to You and find out more about you. Then He will pick out the right person to be Your One Love. You have to show that you are wliling to be faithful, loyal, trustworthy and not destroy yourself through bad habits and poisonous addictions, and the poisonous influences of bad friends and family. |
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