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2024. Going anywhere inside my little world. |
| Come on the adventures of a little mouse as she writes about her opinions and her life. |
| April Fool's Day used to be a day of mischief for my cousins as they would pull wonderful tricks on each other...... I made sure to never be at their house nor have one of them at our house for that day......If it passed like just another day for my family than that was good for us..... Steve's phone must be out....II haven't heard from him yesterday or today... It's going to suck if he gets a new number and can't recoup his contacts off his old phone. We will have no way to contact each other until we run into each other again..... I'm trying not to think negatively about it or feel extremely bad. It just happened ...... I've just been reading my books. I want to start doing some of the things in The Witch's Book of Self Care but I'm not really listening to its advice. I don't want to really do it until i can do it exactly right....which they say right in the book you only have to do what is right for you and nothing is ever perfect...... I don't know. Maybe I'll do some things tomorrow...... I have five things I am doing almost every day on WdC: Habit Heroes, Weekly Goals, Dragon Vale, The Cave, and my Blog. Sometimes they give me a headache because I really don't want to do it, and some of them I just don't keep up with like I should. My physical pain and constant tired feeling is keeping me from doing a lot of things. Terry suggested I clean up the craft room. I told her exactly how I felt about that. I said if I was to do it everything that didn't belong in there would go flying out the back door..... I really don't see a lot that does belong in there so I imagine the driveway would become quite messy if I was to do it...... At least I am getting a lot of reading done.......I just don't think I am going to sign up for as many things on here next month. I have a lot more stuff offline that needs my atteention and is taking up chunks of my time...... . Merry Meet and Blessed Be then Merry Meet again!  |
| Did a little research today and came across some things relevant to me and how I describe myself..... First off my father was adopted but we don't know for sure if that changed his ancestry. I found out, through researching on my own because no one would answer my questions, that my dad is of Norwegian descent. Furthermore, Norwegian Vikings are descendants of Norsemen and Norse Druids. Thus my paternal magickal background..... My mother we know for is of Belgium descent. What I found out today was a couple of things. People used to tell me there were no such things as Belgium gypsies. Well, they weren't wrong, but they weren't right either. They prefer to call themselves Roma, as gypsy is actually considered a derogatory term. So to sum up I am Belgium Roma, my maternal magickal background. Now.... As for today..... I went to crochet group only to have myself and one other student show up. The substitute teacher showed up fifteen minutes late and knew less than I did about what I wanted to ask questions about.....I'm going to give it one more go before I decide if I'm going to continue. In the meantime I am going to try to start an afghan on my own to take in with me. Have not been able to talk to Steve today as his phone was messing up.  Top that off with the weather predicting freezing rain tomorrow and he probably wouldn't be coming over even if we were in touch..... I'm just going to try to not get upset if I don't hear from him for a couple of days......Got my magick books in the mail today. Paged through them and I'm not as thrilled as I thought I would be but they are still good for referencing. Here's a list: The Book of Forbidden Knowledge - black magic, superstitions, charms and divination. Book of Shadows: 150 spells charms potions and enchantments for Wiccans Buckland's Complete Book of Witchcraft.... The Witch's Book of Self-Care: magical ways to pamper soothe and care for your body and spirit. That first book is because you cannot protect from black magic if you don't recognize it first.... Just not a good day but not extremely bad either...... |
| It's Thursday..... I had an appointment with Amy (psychiatrist). Everyone is so happy I am smiling and happy. I wish it wasn't just because of Steve......Amy wanted to change my meds but I convinced her not to mess with a good thing..... I hate that it takes so much out of me to do something as simple as going to an appointment. I guess when you consider though that I have to walk to the bus (about 3 - 5 blocks) , catch the bus....(sometimes having to switch buses at the depot) ride to CMH, walk across the parking lot to the building, check in, walk around the offices, go to my appointment ( I actually have to think while I'm in there before I get myself in a heap of poo), walk back out across the parking lot, catch the bus home and walk 3-5 blocks back to the house. I guess considering all that no wonder I'm exhausted when I get home. So back at home it was same old, same old. Taking every chance I could get to lay in my bed and hopefully sleep. I am so tired now and it is only 7 pm. I'm trying to think of something to do. I already went through my crochet stuff to make sure everything is ready for tomorrow's group. I should write but I don't feel like it. I try to look at my writing and my head starts to pound. I suppose I could color. I'm just so bored and feel like I should be doing something productive. The daily writing I do is crap. This blog is turning into nothing but the same drivel every day..... I have to force myself to do it every night. For that matter I have to force myself to do my daily writing. Writing is becoming more of a chore than a fun pleasurable activity. I know I can't stop writing though. I can't pack up my pens and leave writing.com and just throw it all away. Besides the fact that there are people in my life who wouldn't let me do it..... I just wish I could stop lying about it........ |
| Well Let's see..... I was so excited to get out of here that I left at 11:30am. I decided to go to the hospital first and get my x rays done. I still firmly believe that x ray techs love to torture. They take the part of you that is hurting and twist it in all sorts of awkward ways. I believe the same thing about physical therapists. Any ways that is done and I should hear from the clinic tomorrow. (I thought I was going to hear from them already about my meds not being covered by the insurance. Oh well) did take a picture for Steve. No makeup. I look pale as heck and my eyes just don't stay open any more. We texted on and off throughout the day and had our texting session tonight. He isn't buying me a guitar but he is giving me one of his. It's an electric acoustic guitar. (I didn't know there was such a thing. Seems like an oxymoron to me) We'll see what happens on Saturday. Anyways got to CMH an hour early for wire wrapping group. I found things to do and went up to the room at 2:10 pm. Was supposed to start at 2:30pm but by the time the teacher showed up and got everything settled we finally got started at 3;10pm. We practiced wrapping wires (my hands decided to start crramping up, shaking, and basically not cooperating then) so it was fun until we packed up at 3:40pm. Turned out the room was reserved for 4pm. No matter. I got outside in plenty of time to catch bus 1. Got home and I admit I have been crabby. I hurt and I was tired and hungry. Made me feel a little better when David ordered Taco Bell for dinner..... Tried to do some more wiring to no avail so I was looking for YouTube videos on it. no luck so far. I'll try to get more done tomorrow. I have to go see Amy (psychiatrist) at 11am. Hopefully things will go better. |
| Laid around all morning. Just couldn't get motivated. Jacob (therapist) called me to make sure I knew I had an appointment with Amy (psychiatrist) on Thursday. I'm glad because I told him about wire wrapping group starting tomorrow and he didn't have it as part of my care plan yet. I would have gotten there and not been able to participate without that. Now everything is copasetic. Steve and I were texting again this morning. I am trying to not give in to that gooey mushy feeling I get when I talk to him. I did tell Jacob that I was up and happy from running into an old friend and we were making plans to spend time together.... I said we need to get together this week and Steve said we could and spend some time at my place on Saturday.... my weekends are definitely not busy so that works fine for me..... Got my hair done in pigtails. I look kinda cute. I'll look better when I put myself together and maybe put some makeup on. Then I'll take a picture for Steve..... Didn't really do anything else today. Did write part of a story but it fizzled out after a few pages. Read some of my SKOW book. Just don't feel good now. may write more later. |
| Been wondering all days how to explain this........ I ran into an old friend. Steve and I had given it a go at being more than friends before but that was a few years ago and we are both different people now..... Went out with Sally and had coffee. Then I went to CMH to wait a half hour before I met with Jacob.....did that. Then I tried to catch bus 2 a block over and watched it zoom past. Thought about walking over to get my x-rays done but my leg was killing me. So I sat in the bus shelter waiting about 20 minutes for Bus 1. Steve came walking up and gave me the tightest warmest hug he had given me in a long time. we talked and We both felt like it was clicking this time...... He sat next to me on the bus and we held hands. When he got off the bus he kissed me goodbye. I was walking on air the three blocks to the house. I texted him when I got to the house. he answered. He was still out and about though so I let things go until about two hours ago..... I texted him and we went back and forth for two hours before his phone started to die. He said he will text me again tomorrow........... I'm trying not to get overly excited or read more into it than what it is. Iit just feels so right this time...... Got home and tried to stay in the living room.....(Criminal Minds was on) ... Laid down after Terry's physical therapist left. Got back up and went back in the living room......was texting Steve....... (Oh he said he loves my hair) he called me baby a few times...... I called him hun and luv. ..... His phone died and now I'm in the bedroom catching up with you all...... All in all it was a full day and I will be looking forward to something more quiet tomorrow. |
| I went to the porch twice today looking if the mail came in. Today is Sunday. In my defense , I wasn't awake. I'm not the only one who was off though. The first time I went out Jaylin was on the porch and said he hadn't seen it yet either. I should of wrote today. I should have read today. I should have done something more productive than laying around thinking about what I want to do. I wonder if it's because I have so many things I could do I am severely overwhelmed.. That could be it. Then again there are the things I am avoiding like the kitchen. There is no counter space in there because of all the stacked up dirty dishes. I can't get to the coffee pot. I threatened to stop making coffee this morning. This spawned a house meeting because Terry said something to Bill about it. She made it sound like David was the one complaining. I was told to voice my complaints to David, not Terry, and that I could be doing more to help..... I said I would help more if I could tell what was clean or dirty. Then I might be willing to rinse dishes and put them in the dishwasher......Right now though in its current state I can't stand to even go in the kitchen... Not to mention that the water cooler is out of water, again. I still have a headache and feel light headed. The only thing that helps is laying down and trying to remain calm...trying not to think. Everything still aches and the arthritis strength tylenol is not working as well as it once did, I feel flushed and hot. My blood pressure is up. My sugar level has been good, surprisingly. I did straighten my room today and took the garbage out. It was looking semi-okay. At least you can see the carpet. There's still things here and there that need to be straightened. It is just that I get everything put away....except for the stuff that I set aside to work on...usually some bit of writing......then when I get done I am exhausted and want to lay down. I push all the stuff I was going to work on off my bed and lay down. There it sits on the floor. Someday I'll be organized enough that everything will be neat and tidy.......Yeah, uh-huh, sure. |
| Been sleeping most of the day again. I just felt sick to my stomach to where I could barely eat. Been checking and my blood pressure has been out of whack. It's mostly running high and I haven't told anyone in the house but I'm having chest pains that are radiating down my right arm...... I'm hoping it is just Angina which my Dad had for years before his first heart attack. Actually I had a good reason for sleeping today. I was up from 3:00am to 6:30am working on my room because I couldn't sleep. I got most of my wall hangings up and got rid of some of them. The ones that have taken their places are much better. My room is really starting to look magickal. Plus it is organized and neat. You can actually see the floor. I still need to clean out more of the closet and put some other things away but it is looking quite well. Soon I will start taking better care of me. I still need to go get those x-rays done that my doctor ordered. I should shower more often. We have a bidae now attached to our toilet. It's fun to use and more sanitary according to David. I got Temu credit for those metal signs I accidently ordered thinking they were books. I'm still upset about not getting more books for my craft. I have other things though that are helping me learn more about it and who I am as an eclectic witch. I'm still tired and I'm constantly light headed. Oh well. Things will progress. That you can be assured of. We still have snow but at least it isn't coming down any more. You know what they say, in like a lamb, out like a lion. David took Prince to get his shots today. It was just us girls at the house. It didn't last very long. I'm all over the place tonight.....I bought fabric quilt blocks to use to clothe my naked idols. I played with it a little but I haven't gotten down to working on them yet. Also bought rope to lower my hanging spider plant so I can water it. That's done. Now I forgot what else I was going to say.... must not have been important. |
| Yesterday was supposed to be the first day of Spring..... and what do we get up to today? A foot of snow on the ground and more coming down....... My crochet group was canceled because of the snow. schools were closed. Bill and Jayelyn were off work. The weather got to me as well. I was hurting so bad I could barely walk but of course I still had to take care of Terry and Prince. I kept getting up, doing what I had to for Terry, and crawling back in bed. I tried to go out in the living room chair and I made it for a while; long enough to start coloring a picture. It don't matter because I have no place where I am going to put it in my room. Most of my wall space is taken up and I haven't put any of my wall hangings up. I got my goddess and god idols in the mail yesterday. Got teased because they are naked. I plan on putting something over them I just don't know what yet. I got my crystal ball in the mail today. It's not as big as I wished it would be but it is sufficient to fulfil the purpose. one of these days soon I am going to have my shrine set up proper and it is not going to be cluttered with other things. Haven't done anything for my writing other than jot notes on what I'd like to do with my stories. (Sometimes those notes aren't very nice) I really would like to schedule writing time and stick to it but I just can't with the constant interruptions here. Haven't done anything for my health either. I try to drink water but I don't want to eat and lately I am choking down my pills because I really don't want to take them either. At least I got David setting up my morning pills the night before so I can take them in the mornings instead of three in the afternoon (or later). Still nauseous. Still burping eggs. Still hurt all the time. At least my tongue and throat aren't as bad now. I'm going to keep cleaning my mouth with the medicated mouthwash Terry gave me cause it always feels like there are sores in there. so there is the life of the mouse in a nutshell. Not really too much going on as per usual. |
| Hey all, Spent most of today stuck in the living room as Cindy had come over. Finally went to my room when Terry kept accusing me of being awnry (just not so nice a word) so I laid down. Did leave my door open so if anyone wanted me I was readily available. ... Don't remember today's blog prompt. Must not have been something I was interested in. Cindy and I did go to the Dollar Store. Got some wood cleaner for David to clean furniture. I bought a coloring kit with dual ended pencils and some paint markers. Also got some little packets that you add to bottles of water. Went downstairs looking for my crocheting stuff; mainly yarn. Didin't find any of it. Now I can't find my hooks either and I know they were here yesterday. And people wonder why I hate moving things around..... The yarn is probably in the craft room but I am not digging through there. That room is totally destroyed right now and getting worse by the day. Of course it has to be our room that accumulates all the junk that no one knows where else eto put it. Terrry wants to take a shower now which is another room that got destroyed today because they were attaching a bidae to the toilet. ..... Did not accomplish what was intended. |
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