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Like Having a Staredown with Myself and No Mirror
My Locomotive

I am caught between
'Thinks too much,' 'doesn't think enough.'
I 'worry too much' about my own problems
I'm told by sources,
not enough about yours,
perhaps, the urban lower-class.
Choose wisely these words:
my ignorant lexicon
borne out of a 12-year-old body,
handed down generations.

I don't understand me, now that I'm confused about you.
Should I walk amongst you, introduce myself,
see if we can be in my middle ground?
Inside, I swing wildly like that pendulum,
unlike a metronome,
never finding rhythm.

Should I be more sensitive to your kind?
Who laid these tracks between us?
I long trailed a rail in brilliant wonderment,
no guide and no purpose.
Who should hold my hand,
lest I fall or meet with some fateful train
come to remove me?

Am I so insensitive
I cannot understand the needs of another
while I sit here in my kitchen chair,
grocery bags yet unpacked
in sweltering summer heat of doubt and discontentment?
Why am I idle staring out this unwashed window
thinking, believing I have clear vision?

I'm surrounded by my belongings, trapped
by limited beliefs.
Why can't I touch you, lay hand upon your back, unknowing
if the gesture would be well received?
Even in my most frustrated state,
I never hated anyone but myself.
Am I to blame for feeling this way?

I don't blame you.
I don't denounce them.
The only shame I feel
is for me
while longing for my locomotive.

Not necessarily the context of the poem, but...

"Prejudice is when a person negatively pre-judges another person or group without getting to know the beliefs, thoughts, and feelings behind their words and actions. A person of any racial group can be prejudiced towards a person of any other racial group. There is no power dynamic involved.

Bigotry is stronger than prejudice, a more severe mindset and often accompanied by discriminatory behavior. It’s arrogant and mean-spirited, but requires neither systems nor power to engage in.

Racism is the system that allows the racial group that’s already in power to retain power. Since arriving on U.S. soil white people have used their power to create preferential access to survival rights and resources (housing, education, jobs, voting, citizenship, food, health, legal protection, etc.) for white people while simultaneously impeding people of color’s access to these same rights and resources.Though “reverse racism” is a term I sometimes hear, it has never existed in America. White people are the only racial group to have ever established and retained power in the United States."

Source: http://www.debbyirving.com/qa/are-prejudice-bigotryand-racism-the-same-thing/

Poem inspired by unimaginative thought about racism which I know everything and nothing about, depending on who you ask. Hard to live my own reality with my own fiction because I rely heavily upon faulty wiring affecting perception and memory.
Electrician will be here between the hours of now until the end of my time.

That's not true! He made it all up! He's a robot trying to spam us with his evil thinking.

How can you take a serious subject and be contemptibly funny? Reference pendulum. Emphasis 'loco' motives.

And, writing is a distraction so I don't get stuff done around the house, causing her pendulum to become wildly erratic.

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