A third journal of personal musings
|I still haven't really had a chance to be all that creative, but I'm working on it. It's been a struggle, but like I said I'm working on it. Trying to work on my stressers and things that trigger my anxiety and try to focus on myself. Which usually means forcing myself to make sure I do the things I want to do, rather than sitting around because my head is full of a fog because I've just let things get to me.
It's definitely been a tough year. I'm trying to make it so this next one isn't as tough. I want to get back into doing things that I want to do, letting myself focus on those things. I haven't really read anything. It's like I just can't focus on anything when I read and lose interest. It's been the same with a lot of things I've normally enjoyed, like video games and any real creative endeavors.
I'm starting to re-read my book of Lovecraft, to try and get some inspiration for my "13 Curves" story. Something I was working on prior to my creativity shutting off. I'm hoping it will give me some inspiration for the "monster" and "evil/scary/horror" part of my WIP that I was stuck on before. I originally, when starting the story, wanted it to be an allegory, not necessarily an actual thing, but then I realized I can have both. So, I'm working on it. Matt and I were talking about Lovecraftian things and it was giving me some ideas or at least some vague ones that reading some of his stories might lead to some more in depth ideas.
So we will see.
For the rest of you, I'm hoping your creativity is flowing.
Me, like "13 Curves" , is definitely a work in progress.