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Treading along

Zoe's 25th birthday was yesterday. Today, she dropped the bomb that I was half expecting... she's moving to Seattle to live with her boyfriend. She was supposed to go up to visit for her birthday and possibly Thanksgiving. Today, she let me know she'll be driving down to pick up her belongings from our apartment.

I know this is divine intervention, but it still triggers my abandonment issues. Rick and I have been concerned about going against our lease by having a third person here. There was also the issue of possibly not being able to have Rick's kids here for any overnights during Christmas break.

I want Zoe to want more out of life than being a stay at home girlfriend. Her boyfriend texted after the text with their big news and tried to calm my anxiety about it by telling me they had already looked at colleges for Zoe to attend.

We are planning on eventually moving to Vancouver, Washington. That is only like four hours from Seattle.

My rejection sensitivity is going a bit bonkers.

It does solve a few issues, which is kind of a relief. But I didn't know that our hasty goodbye at the train station was going to be it. I would have said so much more.

I am planning on staying busy with organizing, planning holiday menus, and baking treats for Rick, with a few extra for Rick to share with his coworkers.

We have been having power outages here about every other day, and I have not had data on my phone. No Wi-Fi, no ability to distract myself with Facebook videos, or tv, or podcasts, So I decided to knock a major chunk out of my Christmas gift to do list. Monday, I spent the first part of my day concocting potions of scented bath salts, body oils, bath teas, and and calming face mists. I made custom scented blends based on requests from the gift recipients. It was a lot of fun.

Wednesday, I made a double batch of cranberry chocolate chip cookies. I saved eight cookies out of the batch for us, froze ten raw dough balls, and packaged up the rest for Rick to take to work. Rick took the cookies to work and reported back that that his co-workers gave great compliments! Mission accomplished!

Admittedly, I moped around after Zoe's news. Today, I am planning on being a bit more productive. Cleaning, prep cooking, packing Zoe's things. She had spread her stuff all over the front room and bathroom, including taking over my very long mid century desk that housed my laptop and reselling supplies. Having that space back will free up much needed shelf and table space.

I have made a goal for myself that I will have the apartment looking tidy and decorated in time for Thanksgiving. I am planning on opening our home up to anyone we know who may not have family to spend the holiday with. Lord knows I will be cooking enough to feed a crowd.

I am going to get a move on. I want to have a decent dinner planned for tonight. Looks like Rick will be working Saturday, and we will head over to K.'s house to help him pack up his library. he said he will pay us. That money can be used for Christmas.