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Goal Post

Goals:

         1.) Open up and read at least one line of a Susan file every day.
Yeah, sorry, no; that started to eat away at my soul, so I had to abandon it. What a terrible idea. Why did I come up with that? Absolute trash.

Yeah, I know why; I wanted to make Susan the priority, but this forced her to be the priority and neither of us like that shit. I'm not sure how to remake this goal, but I am thinking on it. The way my life is with shit I'm not sharing here means I have to be careful or risk a fucking meltdown, but I am thinking about it. Most importantly, I'm thinking about Susan.

         2.) Enter every monthly official WdC writing contest: Pff, how dare you doubt me, when the goal actually sounds smart. You shut up about other failed goals, you stalker—because only a stalker would remember the one other time I made this a goal (and failed). Ahem. Anyway, I have roughly a third of my February [Gothic] story written with the rest of it in my mind, and I really like it. I'm a little peeved that the place I stopped for the night seemed a much more clear break in my head than it turned out to be when I got there. But I'm off tomorrow and really (delusionally; because daytime brings the guilt of so many things to be done) optimistic I might find some writing time.

Hey, what was that in parenthesis? I think I'll ignore it.