Daily Musings

I'm waiting...

I don't feel like writing much today. Writer's block?
I don't know. I'll tell you one thing. I was expecting an
email from BQ. I don't know why I'm stressing.

Anyway, so I have to read instead 'cause is not fair to
just sit here wasting precious opportunities to read a
great story. I have a lot on my mind.Tomorrow is my
daughter's birthday party. She turned 4 yesterday but we
decided on Saturday 'cause is not supposed to rain.

Yesterday night was awesome. We showered together. Had a
late dinner together. And finally we were able to be
by ourselves. With my brand new egyptian cotton sheets.
(sigh)My toddler has luckily declared herself a big girl
and has cleared the room to sleep with the big girls.

So we have the room to ourselves. Well, partially. The
baby still occupies the far wall. She's a sound sleeper
though, so she wakes up around 8am. I'm feeling more sure
about my self as a woman when I can be both a good mother
and hopefully a good wife for Jay in the future.

I'm still working very hard on my selfesteem. And even
though I am told by people in my life that they value my
existance in their lives, I always wonder if its enough.
Like, am I good enough? I try to find comfort in knowing
that
I always try to give my very best in most aspects of my
life. I really not happy with my mood being so sour as
late. I know I don't have the baby blues.

I'll be back on Monday. I hope you guys have a cool weekend . Love ya!!!

Z.C.