Daily Musings

Today is going to be a difficult day...

..and to tell you the truth I don't know if i'm
going to make it worse by being alone.
When I say alone, I mean not emailing, on IM or
basically in any forum or chat. I'm depressed.
Sept.11 has turned into one of those days where you
question humanity in general.

People all over the world are going about their
everyday business as usual, without a hitch. Some
might sit and look back on these past 5 years since
disaster came a knocking and I, I type whatever come
to my mind in hopes that someone would read it and
share my thoughts.

I don't expect anyone to come in here and feel the
same way I do. Believe me when I say that I feel we
used to care less about other people in general.
Hey! People from NY don't give a whoot about what
you do or with who, right? WRONG! I lived there since
I was eleven years old and to be honest, although I
did face the perils of living in the city, I can
vouch I have never call any other place HOME.

Yeah, I was devastated when we were attacked.
Given the chance to belong to any of our armed forces
I would probably sign up and fought to protect this
country. I did try fresh out of H.S., but was denied
due to my asthma. Never mind that half of the time
I'm being yelled to go back home for being from P.R.
and speaking Spanish.


Who cares? I'm here to stay! I don't think Americans
in general will take to hiding if anything of the
sort were to happen again. I believe the primary
shock at being exposed to danger is old news and we
will be ready to defend our selves, our children and
old from whatever perils arisen.

I was telling my Mom just yesterday: "Ma, What if
this IS God's will, and we are indeed the heathen?"

My mother, a creature of inmmense faith said:

"I KNOW God will never harm the innocent. How could
he, when we are his children?

After the dust settles it all comes down to HIM.

I want to offer a moment of prayer to those angels that left us on those fateful days:

"Dear Lord, I have no intention of claiming miracles
for myself. With kindness in my heart, I asked that
you grant us the strength to overcome this trying
days."
"In our ignorance, My Lord, we have forgotten your
words of wisdom and love. I implore that you keep
close to your heart those of us who are fallen and
help us up into your everlasting. Forgive us our
trespasses. With our faith and trust in your infinite
knowledge of all things, please guide us to you
light."

"May the souls of all those lost on Sept. 11, rest
in everlasting peace. AMEN"