Daily Musings

Is been very long..

since I've been in this room. I wanted to come back
for a while now, but found I lacked the courage to
open the door. Perhaps because I'm embarrased to admit
I've turned into a hipocrite. I love writing. But I
lack the stamina to stay in the game.

They are days in which I find myself staring nowhere
in particular. My thoughts become entwined with
reality until they blur. I guess I should feel glad
that in the real world my life could not be any
better. But I can't be more dissapointed in myself for
letting my dream dissolve with these words. I won't
expect anyone to understand how it feels to wander
without a destination.

A catch glimpses of my writer when inspiration
strikes my fancy. Which is rare. The simplest things
become objects of my fascination and I loose daylight
admiring the petals on a simple dandelion...and in the
dark I stare up at the moon. Round and fat it irkes me
that it should remain perfect while I simmer in self
disdain.

Does anyone read this futile attempt on human
contact? Does anyone care that hundreds of miles away
my heart is crying and I don't know why? Maybe, maybe
not. The world turns without a hitch. And tomorrow is
Wednesday. May favorite day.