Small bites

We can't be friends.

I'm not sure what makes today different over any other day. Maybe it's because I put my wedding ring back on. But its got me thinking about my life long friendship. My attitude today regarding it is different than usual. Life long friends are something like a marriage. There are rocky parts and there are great parts. The rocky parts, if you both want it to work, won't matter.

I've spent a lot of time thinking about what happened, what was happening day to day and I have to wonder. Was I looking for an out? Was he looking for an out and I just never saw it? Should I be thankful that this ending happened as fast as it did instead of being a long drawn out affair?

Today I'm different because I didn't want to give up on my marriage. That does include excluding people who wish it ill will. My friend David pointed that out to me, especially after this recent situation. He was talking about any girl who wished he weren't married. "It doesn't matter how much you have in common, how much I like you as a person, or what you could be in my life. You wished I weren't married. We can't be friends."

This adds new perspective for me on the "We don't have to be friends" thought I'd had a few months ago.