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Being Made to Stay Still

"This moment is exactly as it should be. Whatever relationships you have attracted in your life at this moment is precisely the ones you need in your life at this moment. There is a hidden meaning behind all events, and this hidden meaning is serving your own evolution."

Deepak Chopra



Tomorrow I go into surgery. I must admit I am afraid. I will be on bed rest and I have been warned I will be in pain by the surgeon. I can choose to look at this as an opportunity for growth or I can cry about the fact that my children will not be there for me as I fall asleep before the surgery (my boyfriend will be:)), I can worry myself silly over the pain, the bed-rest and stir-crazy-ness I fear. I can set myself up for panic attacks, and believe me it is easy for me to do as old habits die hard....but wait! I am fighting my natural urges to feel sorry for myself. I have my trusty blog and want to be P.I.N.K. I have people who love me ( as many as some? No, but more than some? Yes! So why worry about numbers, amounts, and silly calculations that do not matter as long as I DO have love and can give love? Am I going to be sequestered to my bed for a few days, perhaps weeks? Yup, yet that IS an opportunity to read, blog, write, ruminate, contemplate, commemorate, celebrate, and drink lots of herbal tea and to make new goals (think bucket list). Staying still is sometimes a good thing for all of us. Sometimes life does not afford us the gift of time to take a break and reevaluate. My wish for myself is that I use this time wisely and that I get through this moment with grace and gratitude.