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There is Always a Reason!

So on ~A.J. Lyle~ 's profile...there is a quote image.....so fitting for me right now. It was like a big, fat kick in my arse.

"Many of Life's Failures are People who did not Realize how close they were to Success when they gave up" Albert Einstein

I have been so close to wondering When did this happen? When is it going to change? Why did it happen? Why me? How could it? It has been so time consuming and tiring with all the questions and trying to force answers that may never come.

Truth?

s*** happens! Life is not fair! but you have to suck it up, move on!

I have lost a lot of my fight. But my fight to get my fight back is returning. I can feel it. I have had it easier than some, worse than others, but I consider myself lucky. I still have love in my heart. I still have this little light of hope . I have had some support, some from people I did not even expect to be around.

So.......I have been humbled. I think that is always a good thing. You may not agree, especially if you have never been in my shoes or think you have. I realize I have thrown a pity party or two...but who hasn't. I want to thank those that came to my party and offered some friendship and hope, handed our party favors and maybe even shared a story or two of a time they had to pity themselves, yet they made it through.

My troubles are seeming smaller now. I journal to keep track of myself...so when I am down, I have to face my own words, my self....and own what I have said. Who reads this? Maybe only me and that is perfectly fine. One of my problems is I care to much about whether each and every person likes me. If they don't like me, it bugs the heck out of me. I allow people to actually define me....and that is scary. I wont allow it anymore. My mother and father defined me, I found others when they were gone.....it is an ugly cycle. Do not allow anyone to tell YOU who YOU are.

So...the quote....Thank you AJ:P for having something I wanted to review and could not find....therefor I had to go to your profile and find that awesome quote.

It was like the universe telling me something. To Hold On! (hopefully, it is not a major wait...as I am quite an impatient person...but then again, that may be the lesson?)

There is ALWAYS a reason