blog of a person who seems to be invisible...
|so life has not been good to me, or maybe the word I should have used was that I caused my own problems, which of course I did. I ruined friendships and other things i valued, due to my own issues, which I now got a handle on.
I said things which hurt people, one in particular.I never meant to hurt anybody but I cant change what was said, nor will it ever bring a friendship back, but I have been working on my issues and am really happy where I am right now. Not that anybody ever reads my blog. But it dont matter because this blog is here for me anyway.
I am gonna get things back where they need to be, with in me, with or without anybody by me... It is after all my life and my mistakes(which by the way are the only thing that could be called your own).
Over all I am an ass, am I allowed to say that here? there is no doubt... I speak without thinking and hurt inadvertently with out a pause for the cause before hand which could have and would have saved a valued relationship. but I dont blame her for any of it.... I blame me and my stupidity. I wish I could fix it, but I'm not going to because ti try that would only cause more friction between her and me.... so, this time Ill just let it go, after all I deserved it.