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My thoughts released; a mind set free |
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These pages contain my thoughts, from meandering ideas and persuasions to deep cerebrations and serious mentations. Why, for what purpose? To release my mind and set creativity free. Somewhere inside the constraints of my mind dwells a writer, a poet, an artist who paints with words. In here I release those constraints and set the artist free. Perhaps, lost somewhere in the depths of thought, is a story or a poem, waiting to be written. |
| It may seem funny that I write this entry this late in the evening. After all, I've been waiting for the day I would wake up finding myself feeling better, and this morning was not it. In fact, most of the afternoon wasn't it, either. But after returning home and spending some time here, I found myself hungry. Now, I hadn't eaten much today, but that's been the case since the last chemo infusion. I have had no appetite and have been forcing myself to eat only because I know I need energy and nutrients to heal and recover. We had discussed our supper (dinner for those who don't know the difference) and had decided on Beef Lo Mein with Gingered Beef and Zucchini. Since my tastes are off, dishes like this, as well as Tex-Mex, are more appealing. My wife and I usually work together on meals like this because of the amount of prep that goes into them, but it seemed earlier today that I would be feeling ill in my chair while my wife did all the work. I was only hoping I'd be able to eat some without getting sick (I've required anti-nausea meds after eating anything all week). When it was time to prepare our food, I was actually feeling up to helping out. I prepped and cooked the Gingered Beef with Zucchini while my wife worked on the Lo Mein. Of course, we helped each other along the way, each preparing various vegetables for our dish as well as the other's. Soon enough, it was done, and time to eat. And, not to brag or anything, I still had enough energy left. Not only did I have energy left, but I managed to eat about a cup of each! Since my surgery, I've done well to eat a cup of food in one sitting, and maybe on a good day, a cup and a half. Tonight, I enjoyed more food than I have eaten since June, when the chemo first destroyed my appetite and my digestive ability. Since my last infusion, I've been slogging chest deep in the River Styx, doing my best to keep some bonehead in a boat from running me down, but tonight I feel I'm close to the bank and only knee deep. Not only is the bank within reach, but that bonehead seems to have given up trying to give me a ride! Oh, and did I mention they have the strangest dog here? Yeah, three heads, a serpent for a tail, and snakes protrude from his body, and his name is Cerberus. He looks scary, but he's a good boy. |
| I know it's a song title, and I'm sure many of you do as well, but it's not the song I'm speaking of today. But let's start from the beginning. It's the first day of December, and this year is quickly fading away into times past. Not that I mind; it hasn't been a good year at all. We won't discuss the issues that arrived with 2025, or the hopes I have for 2026. I had a terrible night, up more than I was down, and finally just decided to stay up around six this morning. Once up and enjoying some coffee and Tylenol, the day progressed much as the night had, with me running to the bathroom quite frequently. However, I did get to enjoy a couple of cups of coffee and attend a Bible study with my wife before heading to Fergus Falls for a visit with my cardiologist. The ride over was a bit of a challenge since I'm still suffering some vertigo. We took a different route than normal, so we wouldn't have to drive through town, knowing the roads would be crappy from the snow. My EKG was normal, my heart rate was up some (it's been beating very slow and has been a concern), my blood pressure was terrific, and I don't have to return for three months unless something changes. After, we had a bit of shopping, so we ended up driving through town anyway. I was right, the roads were snow-covered and slippery. But it wasn't the snowy roads as much as the idiot drivers who don't know how to drive in the winter. (It's the same every winter; the majority of the drivers forget that snow and ice are slippery. But what can you expect from people who can't operate turn signals or dim their headlights?) We did our shopping at Walmart, and ended up forgetting a few things because of the busy, and quite rude, shoppers; 'tis the season, you know. Once we escaped left the store we took the route we normally use back home, since we were on that side of town. That was our second mistake (the first being a stop at Walmart). The highway was terrible; snow-packed and about as rough as a goat trail! It's normally about an hour's drive, but with the road being snow-covered with patches of ice and rough, we couldn't drive over forty, with many places requiring us to slow to thirty or less. Our hour drive turned into a rough, bumpy, and slippery two-hour drive! Anyway, I'm home and now remembering what we should have grabbed while we were at the store. It's looking like we'll be driving into the local market to pick up the things we forgot. Why didn't we just shop locally? Because it's a tourist area and everything is overpriced. |
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Ring My Bell, Anita Ward 
I don't think we want your bell rung. 
