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 Well, not so much fun and leisure as...get some damn writing done, you fool! |
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A while ago, I attended a writers' workshop and the lady who hosted it told us all to go away with this bit of advice - to write for just ten minutes a day. I was determined to go ahead with it and I did...for two days. So today I remembered that I'd resolved to do so and I whipped out my journal and wrote for fifteen minutes. I'm typing out pretty much the same thing that I wrote earlier, with some differences. I find I can go a lot more in-depth when I'm typing than when I'm writing by hand. Writing by hand is such a chore! I've struggled with loneliness a lot throughout my twenty-nine years. I struggled with it when I was the only one home with my mum when I was a teen and everybody else had other places to be. I struggled with it after marriage and when we moved into our own house for the first time. I struggled with it after my son was born and I felt torn between pursuing my writing and being a good mum, because my culture seems to indicate that a woman has absolutely no chance of living her own life - or at least, she has no chance of attaining any goals she hasn't already attained - once she has children. I feel it occasionally still, even though I get so little time to myself nowadays that any alone time is simply awesome. I've tried to come to terms with the idea that being alone isn't a bad thing - and a lot of the time, it isn't. My friends don't live nearby so I don't get to see them often, and even when I do, I feel like there isn't much depth to our conversations. I'm surrounded by people who do not think like me, who do not share any of my interests and hobbies. I feel like I've become desensitised to isolation. Loneliness is my preferred way to be. I walked into my college cafeteria at lunch today and it was the usual hubbub of activity. Youngsters walking around, chatting animatedly, shouting across the room, laughing, eating, socialising. I could recall how that clamour wouldn't have bothered me ten-twelve years ago, when I would have been one of the youngsters talking excitedly with her friends. But, as this moment, I just found an out-of-the-way little table and sat down. I watched the crowds for a while, wondering why it was only at moments like these that the sense of isolation became so strong. In the middle of a crowd, I feel most alone. |
| 05:27 Less than a week away! I don't know what I'm writing! Help! Help! ...Actually, I've got a few ideas. I just don't know which one to pick. So, my options: 1. Do another Leo/Luna story, giving it a more fantastical setting this time. 2. Write Yuichi's story, which features in the same world as my main RT novel and in fact the main characters know each other. I figured this could give me some pointers on where I can take the RT novel since I want to redo the whole thing. 3. The Big RT Novel Redo. With the pressure to finish before the month is over, I'd finally have the kick-up-the-backside I need to get moving. I don't know which one to choose! Let's be pragmatic about this. I've done the positives (kind of) for each so let's do the drawbacks: 1. Leo/Luna. I haven't really considered what the fantasy setting might entail and I think it's quite difficult to pull off a fantasy without laying down some serious groundwork. On the other hand, it could be a normal setting with elements of fantasy. But I still haven't considered the plot or anything. But I could just wing it like I normally do and then a plot will reveal itself as I go along. Hmm... 2. Yuichi's story is absolutely massive and spans centuries (because he's immortal). Originally, Yuichi's story started off (back when I was a young'un) as fanfiction for D.Gray-man, but then considering how much time and effort I put into coming up with the storyline, I thought "Nah, this has got to be an original piece" so Yuichi's moved away from being Yu Kanda (kind of...maybe I should do something about the name, eh?) and taken on a life of his own, making several original friends along the way. I just feel that encapsulating his entire story would be a cross-genre, doorstopper epic that's just..beyond me at the moment. I'd like to lay down some more worldbuilding before I decide how his story is going to end. I feel it's far too ambitious, because he's got a lot going on in his life. 3. Although not nearly as big as Yuichi's story, I feel No. 3 might be too big to finish within the month and I don't just want to leave it at hitting the word count - I want to finish the silly thing. Also, I'm actually getting quite enamoured by the idea that I should do Yuichi's story before I attempt this one again - it'd really help me getting the setting right. Ding-ding! We have a winner! Leo/Luna, here I come! ...For the third time! Whew! 05:44 |
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