%%USERNAME%%    %%ACCWORDS%% %%ONOFF%% |
 |  is paved with good intentions... |
|
** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** Hi, I'm Elle. I'm based in Auckland, New Zealand. I'm the mother of two young adults, the wife of an entrepreneurial gamer and the Queen of Unfinished Projects. This blog will contain poems, short stories, possibly photos and book reviews if you're lucky, and my thoughts on a variety of topics. Hope you enjoy it. |
| I collected labels this one pristine and crisp, straight off the psychologist's printer this one, from my childhood schoolbag, wrinkled, lacking adhesive, with an odour of expired yoghurt and I built a mosaic to present to the world as me. |
| I'm feeling a bit lost. Those who have been following along will remember that I was in the process of having myself and my daughter assessed for ADHD. Well, I have been diagnosed with inattentive ADHD and she has been diagnosed with combined ADHD. Our appointments to discuss treatments aren't until late June though. In the meantime, I'm like 'I have this new information, but how does that help?' It's definitely not helped by what my doctor thinks is a hormone imbalance. Being at the mercy of my hormones in terms of mood, food cravings, etc., makes me feel even more out of control. Like, my ADHD is preventing me from having control over 90% of my life and now my hormones have taken control of the other 10%. What part of my life do I actually control anymore? None of it. Except that I got the diagnosis and made the appointment for treatment, even if that treatment is still five months away. And I spoke to my doctor about the hormonal issues and had a blood test last week and have an appointment on Thursday to discuss the results. So I have taken that much control, I guess. With my ADHD issues, that's actually huge progress. I mean, yeah, I missed my original doctor's appointment because I got distracted by something, but I got there in the end, and I made progress. I should be proud of that, I guess. Hopefully we can sort out the hormonal issues quickly and then start tackling some of the ADHD issues in June. In the meantime, I feel like there's so much I want to do, so much I want to say and write, so much waiting to be created....but I can't do any of it. I'm spending every spare minute doing quiet, restful things just to self-soothe. Reading and colouring in, mostly. My issue has always been completing things, but right now I feel like I can't even start anything. I know it's the hormones, they're fucking with my head, but that's where I'm at. Hopefully Thursday brings a practical way forward to tackle at least one of my issues. |
View Portfolio
Visit Notebook
Send Gift Points
Awards
Badges
Send Email
Community Newsfeed
General Discussion
Sponsored Items
Book of Trinkets
Static Items
Books
Groups
Interactive Stories
Audio
Campfire Creatives
Community Notes
Crossword Puzzles
Documents
Folders
Images
In & Outs
Madlibs
Photo Albums
Polls
Product Reviews
Quizzes
Survey Forms
Web Pages
Word Searches
does your family know how many people you know?
