Is just bored. No goals or motivation. I get one conversation a day, coffee, two naps. |
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Iāve never stopped learning, counter-intuitive when evidence doesn't present. Kindness is not indicative of vulnerability and responsesā¦why am I typing about this? I talk circles around myself, too. If I could type faster with fewer errors, Iād make more senseā¦foremost, to myself. . A lifelong journalist, my first word at 1 was to report an injury by describing the event to the woman in the basement doing laundry. āHot.ā I fell and hit my head on the radiator. I never got good at nouns or pronouns. I know faces, voices, general demeanor. I donāt like hello or goodbye. āSee ya when I see yaā would suffice. I prefer nothing at all, not acknowledge. Part of my PTSD is from abandonment that found new ways to apply itself throughout life. Lots of hot radiators in the world make me feel unsafe. I might be Sundowning. Weāll see. There are gaps of lost time in the last year. I pulled my blogs and writing. I seldom recognize anything written in the last decade. And, like a tap, words drip out onto the lighted screen we share through the statistical tunnel. Trying not to let language skills diminish. My eyesight has recently given me bouts of double vision. My reading and editing and reviewing suffer. I basically open a tap. Store some of the better stuff to mete out as I blog, giving each my best attention. Lots more boring stuff. More laterā¦to create? |
| Parody song got goingā¦killed it trying to write down words. Same happens when I record. A lyricist Iāll never be Same āol Same āhol Song Itās the same MO that youāve been using for far too long. Oh, itās the same MO. Do you need a reason since Iāve been gone? Sentimental fool was I, when someone came along, sung my song It got boring in the chase in this place and just another one-sided raceā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ Da-da de-dah da-da de-duh! If it ever comes again, sure to capture it. I hear that same old song I know we still share, but different meaning now. 12.10.25 |