Under Construction - MHWA Retreat

This is a wonderful post! I can relate to most of what you wrote especially these words, "Due to fear of judgement, I typically avoid attention. Lately I have realized that these actions have really kept me from moving forward in a lot of things, not just the fun stuff. So, I've really been working on numbing those internal degrading voices, and saying "Fuck it! I am going to allow myself to enjoy life."

Right on! Like you, I've been working on a couple of areas where normally I am cautious about drawing attention to myself. I am saying to myself, "O.K., you've been going out of your way to avoid attention, so now it's time to stop it. Life is short and it's getting shorter by the minute; I am going to be myself, do what I want--within reason--and the heck of what others think!

Morningstar