Question of the Day!

The second part of the question is the easiest to answer. I don't trust it often enough.

Sometimes it's a feeling about a place, something or someone. Others (yes I know this makes me technically crazy pants) it's a whisper in my mind. Or a particular song plays on a radio I don't controll.

There are two events I had premonitions about that I totally ignored.

One was several dreams and then a gut feeling that something bad was going to happen to my husband. The premonitions/ dreams always ended up with Joe and I being separated. I didn't want it to be true but then it came true at the end of 2014. My marriage came to an abrupt and traumatic end. Joe died when an intoxicated driver hit the car he was driving head on.

The other was a sudden insight this year. I was in the middle of the grocery store. Owen had just gone into the hospital for difficulty breathing. I was hopeful that he'd survive. But then this voiceless voice just smacked my brain. "He's going to die!" I almost collapsed onto the floor. The only way to get myself going again was to say. "Shut up, I don't need to know that!"

Sure enough, two weeks later, Owen died of complications of Congestive Heart Failure and systemic infections.

Maybe if I'd taken things in stride and tried to be rational when I had those premonitions, I wouldn't have gone totally non-linear when they died.