Bloodied

I'm not sure what this is all about, contradictions I guess

Do you want to see me cry?
The misguided demigod
Who hasn’t found a way
To die

Or do you want to hear me sob?
The Queen of Maladies
Who still can’t tame
The mob

Would you rather see me weep?
The picture of perfection
Who pushed her pain
Too deep

Is it better when I mourn?
The teller of antiquities
Who sings a song
Of scorn

Would you like to watch me wail?
The ancestor to memory
Who still has time
To fail