My own mistake

How could I be so stupid? Now there's an emotional scar...

It all led up to this moment,
now the tears won't stop coming.
Lonely girl,
crying in the window sill.
Looking out into the sunny world.
Found a new way to become sick with pain.
I can't understand why.

A golden moment,
intoxicating silence.
Feelings that never will be felt.
Promised herself she wouldn't,
but she made a promise she couldn't...
just couldn't keep.

Now she's alone.
Pain burrowed too deep.
Alone, the way it's gonna stay...
Always.