Lost for words

Its just a sort of debate inside my head, you may not relate but I hope it will captivate.

I lay on this forsaken bed of lies,
laying, frozen to my demise
tossing and turning, attemtping to hide away from those penetrative eyes,
Persistantly sensing their presence around
Im trying to fumble my way to an escape
but always falling before I wake
my worlds revolving
on the chance I must take

Thoughts I can't begin to comprehend
mark the void i must amend
fighting and debating, the words penetrate deeper into my view
I gather my strength, determand
to fight through

Its just a stage,
the hue will pass
Ill stop crushing below the cripling mass
I'll see the light, allas.

I can't look,
the mirror is a lie
but the image won't fade
the betrayer wont die.

My glassy love,
only betrays myself,
I long for him to take me away
I wish to know what ones my path
I wont look back
too late for that