A girl so flawed

how can a man love such a flawed girl

I don't understand
How a man can love
a girl so flawed
For I am nothing more than plain

I speak my mind
Unaware of the consequences
I am not always kind
To the ones I love

I have a hard outer core
That is difficult to penetrate
I laugh when i shouldn't
And I dont believe in fate

Never truely content
I carry around the weight of the world
When upset, I sit in Silent torment
For I am a Accidental Masochist

I stay when I should walk away
For I never love the ones that love back
My feelings are always on display
My faults so apparent it scares me

So why me? Why love me?
Because I am kind hearted
I am stubborn to a tolerable degree
You can do nothing but love my infectious laugh

I always laugh at my own joke
I treat my friends like family
I always have fun despite being broke
I write my deepest wishes and greatest fears

For I am lovable
And I am one of kind
Some say we are better off that way
But I know that i am original in a good way