60 La Vista

I wrote to explain how a past incident affects me emotionally and mentally

having not spent a day in my head
You can't push me for answers that I don't know
There's just pain
Always a warning before a cry
So you can be scared
For me
With me
Sometimes I know why but not in depth
I sceamed at you
& I tried to tell you a dream where I killed a lady
I have something
but you won't help me
You keep taking me to the darn room
You don't know what I'm avoiding
I don't see what I'm facing
You think I'm selfish
I'm protective
I don't want you around me like that
So I cry knowing its coming
So I push knowing you're pulling because you can't desert
I run. I see myelf killing you inside
& in my head at nights
From now on you can have my psycotic breaks