Drowning in Silence

I can feel the distance grow as we speak

rambling like a fool
to a girl who doesn't care
why don't I ever learn?
why can't I just step back
let go of what I want
but cannot have?
feeling lost and lonely
fighting too hard
to take back something
that was never mine
I've failed again
just like always
stuck in place
repeating past mistakes
reliving all the other failures
making small talk
with a woman
who'd rather be anywhere else
with anyone else other than me
drowning in my own words
and the silence that surrounds them