Death before Truth

Id rather die than face reality

Love.
Just a little lie
Clamping me in chain

Want.
Desire that won’t die
Filling me with pain.

He loves me. He needs me.
I chant to drown the inner critic
He wants me, belongs to me.
Friends tell me that I’m just headsick

Tears.
Falling from my eyes
Flooding me like rain.

Truth.
Buried like goodbyes
Heartache from the strain

I love you.  I miss you.
I weep as the deception shatters.
Forgive me, please kiss me.
My knees weak as conviction falters.

Hurt.
Cutting through my heart
Draining the blood away.

Death.
Reasoning departs
The soul I’d rather slay.