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the feelings you would like to forget you ever felt

The blank feeling inside
is one I can't hide.
I've tried for years
to hide the tears,
but they've come to show
and yet no one will know,
cause they can't understand my fears.

One day they'll see
how much it kills me,
to live in this dream,
for which it may seem,
has blocked my eyes
from seeing the lies,
that live in my daily routine.

I drown in the pit,
that I chose to sit,
deep down in my head
wishing to be dead
before i fuck up some more
and my heart becomes sore
for living the life I have led.

I might have had it good,
but there I just stood,
feeling strange in my own skin,
living life only by sin,
and now i regret
that my ways have been set,
never wanting my life to begin.

Now that I see
I was born to be empty,
life's taken its toll
cause I just want to be whole,
even though in my sight,
even though it's not right,
i will die with one hollow soul.