undescriable

not knowing whats going to happen tonight

deeply
confusion
it haunts me
the very thought
of not knowing
whats to happen
next
will you
live on the streets
or will you like in a house
will you have dinner
on the table
or starve
the very thought
kills me
to know
how it hurts
my heart
to know
the moneys stopped coming
hes stopped paying
that nothing
can be fixed
to know that
nothing has come
for your mother to cry
herself to sleep
every night
knowing she cant pay the bills
the very thought pains me
makes me want to be
one less stress for her
to just die
and leave her forever
to give her one less pay check
to have to make
the very thought
makes me cry
to make her work
so hard
for nothing