I Can't Let Go

you want to rid this burden, but you cant let go of it...

I can't feel you.
Are you there?
I can't see you.
Are you in the air?
Where are you, God?
Why can't I find you?
I want to feel your spirit.
I want to feel your presence.
I don't want to "play violins" anymore,
But I can't stop.
I want to find you.
I want your help.
Hold me, please!
Break these chains!
Lift this burden from me!
I cry out to you.
I cry out for help.
I want to let go.
Take it, I beg you!
You can't...
I can't let go.