Must

why can't i ever be good enough? better?

better
better
it repeats in my head
better
better
i need to be better
need to make myself better
.....
better
it mocks me
it says, "you can never be better"
it goes on
"never good enough"
it's right
i'm unable
unable of being any better than this
any better than me
how i am right now
all alone
no one proud
giving in...
giving in.
giving in?
giving into my thoughts?
my mind?
giving into... myself?

i can't give in.
then i'll never be better.i have to be better. i'll make myself better.
i can.
i will.