I Want You To Break Me

A bit of my life, in an accessible form....

I don't want you to hurt me,
I don't want you to beat me,
I don't want you to scare me,
I want you to break me.

Take me in your hands and
tear me in two; take my brain
in your fist and smash it to
pieces; rip my stomach from its
cradle and eat it for dinner.

Do you think I don't understand?
It's tough, when you're beaten
twenty to nineteen, but you can
be satisfied if you've lost thirty-
eight to one. So don't just say,
"We can still be friends," tell me,
"I hate you- stay away!"

Obliterate me! Tear me to pieces!
Raze my heart with your indifference!
Scar me beyond recognition so that
I know that I'm done and have no
chance, so that I can leave satisfied,
so that I don't have to suffer. Kill
me if you must, just please,

break me.