I want to die

On my dark days

When just a little girl, my innocence was taken away.
I was made to feel disgusted, self doubting and dirty,
My only thought then...
I want to die!

I was never good enough or pretty enough.
I was made fun off at school, not listened to at home,
My only thought then...
I want to die!

I would lie in my bed, in the dark.
My only companions were fear and doubt,
My only thought then...
I want to die!

As a teen, my body changed and grew.
I hated everyday more than the one before,
oh my word, I just felt lost...
I want to die!

Teachers just looked past me,
Wished me and my problems on someone else...
I want to die!

As a young lady I felt somewhat more secure,
My own job, car, and money;
My way to come and go as I needed.
So long as I helped pay the rent,
Everyone left me alone as usual...
I want to die!

Got married had kids but I have always felt alone.
No one knows me, really cares for me,
I could die and no one would miss me...
I want to die!

Tomorrow is the day
it sure is,
yippee for me...
I want to die!