The Rhythm of Loss

Am I better off?

looked in your eyes
Where there was supposed to be a soul
But all I saw were the sharp edges of shallow empty holes

I tried to learn why
You just had to act that way
But I could not summon the words that I wanted to say

I wanted to cry
For the loss of you, my love
But in the end there wasn't enough to even calm of dove

I fell to my knees
And they just bled upon the floor
So I scrambled desperately, trying to reach the door

So my heart was seized
By the agony you gave
And all that I could do was hang on to my own grave

But was it worth these
All this misery and pain
I asked myself if all of this was really to my gain

In all of this I would be happy
To just rest my head in your warm arms
But I know that it's not reality
So I'll have to keep myself from your harm