Written after counselor invited me to take back all I'd lost through abusive relationships |
What would I look like if it were all given back the years that were wasted in a life gone off track? Tell me, who would I be if the clock could rewind and the pain that was suffered could no longer remind? How would life be if the past were erased Would I finally be happy and somehow feel safe? Or what if I let all those yesterdays go and simply stopped counting each heartbreaking blow? But, who would I be if not this victim of pain holding onto each sorrow calling each one by name? What does it mean to be truly set free to live without sadness to be comfortable with me? And what would it feel like if love didn't bite if nobody hit and there was no cause to fight? I think I would fly if given the chance free to laugh free to dance My beauty would shine and come from within The past safely behind me so life can begin I could look in the mirror and not be afraid Haunting words from the past no longer degrade Once a victim...now strong my strength is the key Permission now granted it's okay to be me I walked through a fire Once dead, now alive I fought my own war and can say I survived Once I was silent but my voice is now heard And someone is listening to every small word Pieces once broken now find a safe place a soul on the mend healed by God's grace Though alone, I know peace and life has new meaning Faith is restored and I'm comfortable just being I think that I like this woman made new no longer in pain to herself being true And what a surprise to finally see that the woman I admire is me |