Everything, but nothing at all

How I felt after my boyfriend of 3 & half yrs left me.

Emptiness fills me up inside

As I stand in a crowd feeling oh so alone

Knowing I won't make it, even though I tried

For I only keep finishing first in last place

Far behind I scream, but don't hear a thing

While my eyes are dry, tears soak my face

Knowing being complete will only feel empty inside

As I am trapped inside each painful memory of you

How I was so happy, so in love, with nothing at all

Only to find out the painful truth

That I will always be full with emptiness

Deep down in memories that I never had

Of everything I hate to really miss

So I'll smile as I cry, not because of you

But because I lost everything I thought I knew...