patterned questions

11/12/2008 prose

Holding this unwanted reaction is startling to say the least. This sentiment of envious judgment is in short a negative side effect. I can't keep myself from asking questions that i don't want answers to. Reining my curiosity, gaining self control, avoiding the truth of this conversation is suffocating. I see the fabric of our life tearing away from the side lines.Your actions are no longer causal to my manipulations. Patterns made us comfortable for far too long. I now run along this unfamiliar path with bare feet, unarmed against my own inflictions.