letters to myself

ummm i dont know how to explain in short version so just read:/

letters to myself
as if they would help
the dark dimise
is deep inside

letters to myself
as i do everyday
trying to fight this
deep dark dimise
in my heart
in my soul

letters to myself
healing slowly
losing faith
the dark going away
slowly to the mark of my heart

letters to myself
held close to my heart
one that is so close to being saved
one so close to breaking

but from now on i live
in pain in sorrow
cursed by the mark on my heart
to where not even these letters to myself
can save me