Broken

broken on the inside

Broken

I stand outside myself
See my wasted life,
I wish that I could change
But I don't know how.

Where do I begin,
I don't know how it started
It all got out of control
Before I even knew.

I lost myself back there,
Still looking for the pieces.
It's not easy to mend
The pain I feel inside.

I'm on the outside
I'm looking in,
See the life that I wasted
Seen the life that I killed.

Inside I'm broken
I've fallen so far
I can't escape this prison
That I've created.

I never meant to do this
I want to live again
I don't want to feel this hate
When I look at me.

I close my eyes
I try to hide
Darkness falls around me
Broken pieces all around.

Blood is on my hands
It's coming from my heart,
I see the disgust in your eyes
When you look at me.

I'm on the outside
I'm looking in,
See the life that I wasted
Seen the life that I killed.

Inside I'm broken
I've fallen so far
I can't escape this prison
That I've created.

Make this go away
I want to be free
Don't want to feel your guilt
About the choices I've made.

Just stay away from me
Don't tempt me with that poison,
I no longer need the pain
I want to find me.

Take these things away
Don't need them any longer
Going to start my life anew
Don't need these tracks any more.

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Ravyn Stone
Written: 10/10/02