conflicted

Conflicted in my heart

I'm so conflicted.
Or maybe I'm not.
I'm so forgotten.
Or maybe I forgot.
Forgot how to love.
Forgot how to feel.
I'm so lost. Or perhaps I just lost my will.
I wish I knew.
But really I don't.
I'm honestly dying.
But how could you know?
I hide it well- At least thats what I think.
I'm so hopeless.
I need a drink...